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The Cave of Time.

July 25, 2008

10/02/2006 14:48 and 4 + 8 = 12 and 10/02 is 1(0)(0)2 or 12 and (0)(0) and 14 + (2+6) = 22.

 

This is Lore83 and I am 38

 

Dear Lore

 

I am not sure if this letter is going to get mailed to you.  I was playing around printing pictures of my dog when at one stage I had so much pain in my tongue that I went and lie down.  Then I saw this picture of these stairs, like in a tower.  And I followed them up and opened a door and there was someone sitting, but it seemed that who ever was sitting there was an animation.  And this someone wrote with a feather to me what this someone wanted – I had to delete the photo album I made of my dog, because of the name I gave it.  And I did it.

 

But I went and sat down now and was shown that day when I was with Len and did a past life regression.  When I got that man in some kind of chamber, also writing and then me going out of that chamber, into a corridor, and following the bowls of fire I finally reached an opening where I had a view on an open space in this cave or something.  And I saw the sphinx and history playing itself off in fast forward.  And neither me, nor Len, could make anything of this.  Maybe this being I saw the first time, in that chamber, was writing about this fast forward I came across.  But writing has got all to do with language, and the fast forward part I came across started by me viewing the sphinx.  But that was just part of it, but isn’t it all symbols, and isn’t language symbols.  And why did both today’s being and that day’s being, use a feather to write?  Today is stairs up into some top of a tower, but that day, when me and Len did the past life regression, it was inside something – I thought it might have been a cave, but there was no entrance to this cave to show or proof it a cave, it was merely inside something.

 

Anyway, this is a bit clearer to me now, though I do not know what to make of it…

 

LOVE

Renee

10/02/2006 15:01 or 151, now is it two air numbers 1 and 5 or is it a number of fire, 6?

Ns.  Don’t know if this will get send to you…

 

 

02/03/2006 15:06 and 1 + 5 = 6 and 6 + 6 = 12.

 

Dear Lore

 

The above I wrote into my journal while the power was down.

 

“02/02/2006 11:19

My name is R    ENE    E

But ene translated from Afrikaans to English means ones

But the values of the letters in the alphabet of the word one, equal 6(15th) + 5(14th) = 11 + 5 (the e) = 16 and s equal 19th letter or 1

Which gives 161 or 8 and 1 + 1 + 6, or 2 and 6 or 26.

And then we are left with RE – the two side letters – which

are also related to RA.

But ENE – if you make the pattern  3NE where 3 are just E the other way round, then you have 3N(14th)E(5th)

This gives 3 + 14 + 5 = 22

                                                                                    11:25 or added, 9”

 

LOVE

Renee

02/03/2006 15:27 and I checked on my cell phone the time I first saw the sunbird and that was 12:27.  It was exactly 3 hours ago in this 3rd month or 33.  Which leaves the date with a 2 and a 2, and a 6. But the 3 + 3 = 6 + 6 = 12 and the 2 + 2 = 22.

                         

 

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How ava414 Found the Values and Meanings of Numbers and Symbolisms.

July 21, 2008

07/02/2006 20:40 or 8:40pm and 8 + 4 = 12 and date gives 7 2 2 6 or 7 + 6 and 22.

 

This is Lore82

 

Dear Lore

 

If nothing was before eternity (eternity had no origin), then nothing is surrounding eternity.

But if nothing were before God – that is exactly what it says, nothing was before God, God was first, as nothing was before God.

 

This does not imply an origin for God – it merely says that God was first, as before God, there was nothing.  So the word “first” in this instance does not imply a beginning. Is that a paradox?  Something that is first but is not a beginning?

 

I cannot wrap my mind around God, nothing can.

 

LOVE

Renee

07/02/2006 20:52 or the date as above but the time a 2 0 5 2 or 05 and 22 from the time and 22 from the date

Or

22 22 22

 

And this is linked to letter on 12/07/2004 and if you look at Lor82’s beginning time there is a 12 in the time and a 07 in the date and also in the time there is 20:40 or a 2, 0, 0, and a 4.

 

12 July 2004

 

If God is everywhere

 

If God is everywhere God must be in everything and every particle.  Then there cannot be a nothing as where nothing is suppose to be, God is there already – so if we view nothing as something (nothing) then even as nothing is something God is everywhere, even in nothing.  But if there are a reality where there is nothing, or where the nothing has an existence as nothing, then God cannot be everywhere as there are a part where there is nothing. So either nothing does not exist or never existed or God is not everywhere.  But even if we put it that way we give nothing an existence, a place where God does not exist.

 

So if God is everywhere, could nothing ever before have existed – again if it existed it was something.   So where did everything that is now everywhere, come from?   Something must have been there(eternal?) before everything came into existence.  Is God eternal or did God create eternity?  If eternity was also created it must have a beginning and eternity imply no beginning and no end so if created it imply a beginning and therefore is not eternity anymore.  But if everything is everywhere into eternity, one can also ask the question then, what was before eternity was created?  What is that something that was in existence before “everything” came into existence and before eternity.  Did eternity have an origin? If we think that eternity had an origin, surely there must have been a time where eternity did not exist.  And that means eternity cannot be called eternity anymore then.  And out of our boundaries as human beings, does time have any existence so that we can say that in a time frame there must have been an origin for everything.

 

 

The only place where God does not exist then is nothing – and nothing has no existence.  Does this mean God exist?  If there are no place called nothing then we are just left with eternity of space – it may be empty but it is still space, it is still something.  And everything(God is in everything)  is God, even empty space.  But if God is also in nothing – and God is everywhere, and nothing does not exist – only if God then does not exist can one say God is also in nothing, but again God would have existed because God would have been something namely nothing.  This is only if God is everywhere.

 

But if there are no nothing, as we saw above for eternity to exist there can not be an origin and therefore a nothing before origin, there always had to be something.  Even Oneness means something, namely oneness.

 

18:45

or

9 9 9

 

It seems the letter that ended on 22, 22, 22, are giving a bit of relief on the letter that ended 9, 9, 9.

 

It also seemed something very spectacular took place today on the N1 into Cape Town.  This was close to the Tygervalley off ramp.  One of these 22 meter long lorries was lying on its side right across the one lane of the N1 – the part that comes from Paarl and goes into the city.  This cause that the cars coming from Paarl, could not move at all – this spectacular event held up everything behind it.

 

LOVE

Renee

07/02/2006 23:11 or 11:11 and 11 + 11 = 22

 

 

10/02/2006 15:08 turning 09 and 8 + 9 = 17, which is indirectly linked to the Hebrew name of God that in gematria add up to 44.

 

Dear Lore

 

If God used human beings as symbol to represent God to bring messages, can we ignore that a symbol has been used to symbolise God for us?  Jesus, Mohammed, Buddha?  What about all the symbolism in their lives?  Each religion thrive on that symbolism.

 

Was the animation of Mohammed some form of symbolism?

 

But where did mankind take that symbolism to?  I am wondering as all this fuss and noise is going on – an animation cannot be more of a way of symbolism and focussing our attention on symbolism.  But we, the world, we do not see that – thought the fuss must be made about the Mohammed animation, don’t we now need to see beyond the anger and the people that agree on the anger and those that disagree on the anger and the fuss and noise, and see that on this planet, our attention is focused on symbolism?  I am just asking?  I always wonder when major things happen and there are those for and those against what happened, if it is not something that happened that in another form needs our attention, or want to focus our attention on something? 

 

Things happen in weird and wonderful ways it seems.

 

LOVE

Renee

10/02/2006 15:21 and 10/02 can also be 12 but the end minutes is 21, the inverses. 

 

10/02/2006 23:33 or 11:33 or 2:6

 

Dear Lore

 

This is for Linda:

 

If you look at the word Allah, the numerical values in English is:

 

“A”      1

“L”       3 or (12)

“L”       3 or (12)

“A”      1

 

and 1 + 3 + 3 + 1 = 8 and

 

“H”      8

 

But if you look at 1331 then 1 + 3 = 4 and 3 + 1 = 4 or 44.  And looking at all my previous letters about the 13 and 31 combination, this I find extroadinary.  But why this is for Linda, is because in her book Mystery of the White Lions, the first thing she has is a map with the Zet Tepi meridian.  This is 31’14”E – but what is important for me is the 31 and the 14, the two numbers I got in Lor81 on the 05th of the 2nd.  That was the combinations 13:41 and 14:31 and I did not understand why.  But now tonight I put together the 1331 combined with an 8, or which is a 44 (8), and we have the dogod thing that needs no explaining anymore which is 1441.  But this is also (1)44(1) combination, where as in both, the common denominator is 44.

 

1.  But the “Allah” is 44 and one number combination and the dogod is 44 and two          combinations. Now the 8 with the left side of the “dogod” ‘s 44’s 1 equal 9 and so does it with the other side.  But 9 + 9 = 18 but equal 9 again.

 

2.  But now, the Great Sphinx is on the 30 degree N and Timbavati on the 24 degree S.  And 3 + 2 + 4 = 9.

 

This gives that both 1 and 2 resemble the same number, 9. 

 

1.  But the “Allah” is 44 and one number (8) combination and the dogod is 44 and two (1) combinations.

 

2.  But Timbavati is 24 degrees S and Sokar is 24 degrees N.  But both have a 2 and a 4(24), but if you make of the 24, the first one one and the second one two, you get 2 and 44.  Then if you make the two 4’s one number, it is 8 (but you still have the initial 44), and if you take the 2, one number, and make it the sum total of the two 1’s (you still have the initial 2, but you have a (1) and a (1) also as you make 1+1 to make this 2).                                                                                                                                                                                                         

 

This gives from 1 and 2 that 2 correlates in some special form of pattern to 1.

 

Also some form of inverse pattern. Further is S for South, the 19th letter and 19 I connect with beginning and end. 

 

And North’s “N” is the 14th letter, now isn’t it odd that it is the number 14? 

 

Does this link all this?  Especially after all my other references to these 1331  and 1441 combinations?  For me, this is such a new view…

 

Anyway…

 

LOVE

Renee

11/02/2006 00:05 and 5 the sacred number of the White Lions.

 

11/02/2006 14:41 talking of 5 and of 1441…

 

Dear Lore

 

I just received a while ago a sms from my friend Karina.  The father of her child’s second name is Llewellyn.  This sms I received on 11/02/06 13:47 and 4 +7 =11.  But what is amazing for me is the language thing and the following.  According to her sms the name means:  like a lion.  But when I went and looked at the letters of the name you see 4 obvious “L”’s.  And the word Lion starts with an “L”.  But you also have the “y”, which is the 25th letter or added a 7 and added to the last “n”, which is the 14th letter or added a 5, you have 7 + 5 = 12.  And “L” is the 12th letter of the English alphabet.  This gives 4 obvious “L”’s and 1 indirect “L” or added, 5 “L”s for Lion.  And isn’t 5 the sacred number of the White Lions?  But further:

The “y” is the 25th letter which gives 5 fives.  And besides all the “L”’s and this “y”, we are left with 4 other 5’s (letters who’s place in the alphabet adds up to 5).  This gives us 5 + 4 = 9 fives.  There cannot be more fives.

 

Now isn’t it amazing that the meaning of the name is also related to Lion and in this way I have just illustrated, is so linked to the Lions.  But this makes me also think of spider’s web and the language thing, how intricately woven things may be… 

 

LOVE

Renee

11/02/2006 14:52 and the “y” was the 25th letter and gave 5 fives, but this 52 is just the inverse of 25.  But 14:52 added, adds up to 12 or “L” of Lion.

 

11/02/2006 15:03 or 3:03 or 6 + 3 = 9, but talking of five..

 

Dear Lore

 

Just shortly.  I was lying with closed eyes on the couch now and heard the TV advertise that one must sms the number 5 to 32722.  And I remembered that I got an sms last night (it is 1.1.2 and it is 10/02/06 21:22) and started adding the 32722.  And I realized that 3 + 2 = 5 + 7 = 12.  And are left with the 22.  The 12 is just the inverse of the time receiving the sms last night, 21:22.  But it is linked to 22, both and the 12th letter is “L” and the 32722 is linked to 5 today on the TV.  But this is actually a tape of what I taped for my parents last night of Noot vir Noot.  This sms the number 5, is during the Noot vir Noot program last night – 10/02/2006, or 1, 2, 2, 6 or the outsides, 16 and the insides, 22.  And 16 is linked to you and Linda.  And of course again, 22.

 

It feels, if my mind is going into some depths – does that make sense?  Well, considering the only thing that make sense is nothing…

 

LOVE

Renee

11/02/2006 15:12 and what does the letter “L” at this stage lead to?  Lion?

 

 

11/02/2006 16:10 or 161(0) – you and Linda, and both of you’s name start with an L.

 

Dear Lore

 

Well, seeing that I am playing around with the English alphabet in these letters, and the numbers, I was thinking that it is the year 2006, and that the English alphabet has got 26 letters, therefore goes up to the number 26.  And I thought to myself but in 2002, that is 22 and that is how much the Hebrew alphabet has got.  But then it appeared to me that the rabbi has apparently spoke about the Kabalah and its connection to 32 – this is not necessarily an alphabet, but something about it made me think there is more to it, is if you view that this year is 2006 and you view the number 26, then there is 6 to add to get to 32, but if you add 6 years to 2006, you get to 2012.

 

But if I keep playing around, then 2012, the 2 +1 =3 and we are left with a 2 or 32.

 

What am I doing?

 

LOVE

Renee

11/02/2006 16:17 and 17 is indirectly linked to the 44.

 

 

 

 

13/01/2006 13:49 or 13:13 this is linked to the letter that was written from 10/02/2006 23:33 (2+3=5 – the beginning of the time and the beginning time in whole of the letter) to 11/02/2006 00:05 (the end of the time and the end of the time in the whole of the letter) but in the dates was first(1) a 16 (on the sides) and a 22(4) and second(2) a 116 (on the sides) and a 22(4).  But besides the first and the second, we are left with a 44 – like in the time of this letter 13:13 or 44.

 

Dear Lore

 

I wonder if today has got anything to do with Mohammed or Allah – see my letter Lore82.  But if you look at the name Mohammed, it starts with an “M”, which is the 13th letter of the English alphabet.  Now isn’t that coincidence?  That the name the followers of Mohammed use, has such connection with 13, and so does the name of Mohammed, as it starts with an “M”, also linked to 13.  I was just thinking a while ago, if we live up to our name’s meanings, or does the meaning live up to the name?  I drove past a man who is advertised on a lamppost as Werner Scwella, but his neck is so swollen, must be a bit of fat as I do not think he is ill – and I realized how he is fitting into his Scwella.  And then I thought of that psychologist I went to and how her name mean that she “classifies” things – and that is exactly what she does.  So is she and Werner Scwella living up to what their names say or did they develop into that as their names left them no choice?  Or did they make the choice to be what their names want them to be long before they were born – who will ever know?

 

As I also looked at the word Cupido and if you look at their places in the alphabet, then “C” is the 3rd, “u” the 21st or added 3, “p” the 16th or added 7, “i” the 9th, “d” the 4th and “o” the 15th or added 6.  This gives a 3 + 3 + 7 = 13 or 4 and another 4 and 6 or 4 + 4 + 6 =14 or also 44 and 6.  But it gives a 14 as well, that is the important thing – and on what day is Valentines Day? 

 

So how interconnected with numbers/symbolism is everything?

 

LOVE

Renee

13/02/2006 13:54

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Language Symbol – Information Incredibly Small become Incredibly Wide

July 21, 2008

AND SMALL THINGS AMUSE SMALL MINDS. Because of this language symbol, the wide can never unfold as the small can only stay in the small.  As the wide cannot unfold, WIDE (information) ONLY AN APPEARANCE.

02/02/2006 21:26 but the day and month comes down to 22, and leaves the year, 26 and leaves 2 0’s.  But time is 21 and 26, which leaves us to compare 22 and 21 as 26 resemble 26.  The difference is their first numbers are the same which only leaves that 1 is connected to 2 because the first numbers corresponds.

 

This is Lore81

 

Dear Lore

 

We had meditation again tonight at Carol’s place.  Her theme was mountains – with the fire we had at Table Mountain these past week or so.  She started us to think about a mountain, but I was immediately on top of the mountain where the “Taalmonument” in Paarl is.  I remember going off there in December 2003 one day and on my way there I was listening to the song:  “…you lift me up, so I can stand on mountains… I am strong when I am on your shoulders…”.  But I know I am dealing with symbolism and language as part of symbolism.  But I also on the night of 29/01/2006 got a picture, as I looked up from inside myself, out my crown chakra, upwards, of you standing on my shoulders and pointing into the light.  I wrote it in the journal at 21:22.  So I realized that the song in 2003 – it was sunset when I was at the monument, had something to do with my shoulders and you standing with your bare feet on my shoulders.  But also the fact that the language thing came up again – I guess that is far from over or dealt with.

 

But then I heard Carol again and she said we must, as we are on the mountain now, visualize a symbol for God meeting us on the mountain.  And what came up for me was fire – and I added the numerical values of fire (f=6, i=9, r=18, e=5) and they add up to 11 (6 + 5 = 11 as 9 and 18(9) can be ignored in this instance).  And then, inside the fire came the number 44.  And I looked at my hands and saw that my two thumbs are sort of separate from the other fingers on our hands.  This gives us the thumb and 4 other fingers, or if we view the 2 hands, 1 thumb, 1 thumb and 4 other, and 4 other or 11 and 44.  And then I was standing in the fire, but where my head was suppose to be I was aware of a bald eagle flying.

 

As I shared some of this with the others afterwards, I told them about the monument part and the symbolism that language actually is and how even the Bible say that in the beginning was the Word, but that even the word “Word” is a symbol.

 

What does all this come down to…I do not know

 

LOVE

Renee

02/02/2006 21:51 and the question still remain:  Is the combination 5 and 1 two air numbers, or is it a fire number (6)?

 

 

04/02/2006 23:49 and time is 5 + 4 = 9 and date equal 14 and 14 is what it was all about tonight

 

Dear Lore

 

I was so upset tonight as we were visiting my father’s sister when we got a call from my brother’s security company that their alarm is going off and the security company cannot get hold of my brother.  And I was upset as I know they got themselves a small new dog and was angry as to what this dog must be going through with that sound going off.

 

I know people are fighting to stop guy fox (is this spelt correctly?), especially because of dogs.  But I thought to myself, who is going to fight people’s alarms going off to protect the dogs? And the few times our alarm went off, I could sense the pain and suffering it was causing our dogs.  Even if it is the neighbour’s alarm go off it affects the dogs.  Yes, so we are fighting the crackers, but we would not dare fight the alarms who is suppose to protect people from thieves – I wonder if the alarms are not worse than the crackers?  Is this another catch 22 situation – we fight crackers, but we dare not fight alarms (which are so called protection) that are causing harm to dogs?

 

I was so upset with my brother that I was actually angry with him for the poor dog’s sake.  Maybe this is a way to get thieves to become environmentalists – to complain against alarms that are harming dogs?

 

Anyway, it seems this one is personal…

 

LOVE

Renee

05/02/2006 00:03 which the time gives us 000 and 3, and aren’t there 3 0’s?

 

 

05/02/2006 14:53 and the year and the minutes resemble, 8, but the hour of the time can either be added and equal 5 or resemble 2 on the clock – as the day and month, a 5 and 2.

 

Dear Lore

 

I do not understand why this happened this afternoon earlier as I was watching the time on the video machine – or shall I rather say my attention was focused on it, and I was just one minute short of 13:31, as it was 13:30.  And I wondered to myself, now why is my timing out today.  And I thought well let me forget about the time, maybe on 13:31 something will happen to focus my attention – but instead, the next time my attention was focused on the video machine’s time, it was 13:41, and I thought, how odd?  Then I got up later and was thinking to come and start writing as I was feeling terrible and normally then something is up for writing.  But I checked the time on my cell phone and it was 14:31 – and suddenly I could not miss this magnificent, different inverse: 13:41 and 14:31.  Isn’t this exciting?  Anyway…

 

If you view my first letter in Lor81 you will see I wrote to you about my meditation on 02/02/2006 at Carol’s place, where I got the “Taalmonument” in Paarl.  Now Paarl is plus minus 50km from Lions Head.

 

What is though interesting is that in the Burger of 27/01/2006 on page 6, the newspaper had a photograph somebody took of the fire on the mountain and in the photograph, the fire make the pattern of a lion’s head.  But in front of the fire is a sign post of a street name and the street name is Molteno.  So this morning I went and look up where Molteno is on the map and saw that also plus minus 50km from Molteno, there is a “Taalmonument”.  The photograph I have filed, but actually only got to see the lion’s head pattern in the photograph of the fire, last night.  Len also told me about this phenomenon on Thursday, 02/02/2006 (that’s why I started looking for it and found it last night).

 

What is it about language?  Is the choice of our language responsible perhaps for our reality?  Language is very symbolic. But do I wonder about language, as language is a mere symbol?  But a symbol for what?  Language seems to have evolved with humanity as all the new things humanity started dealing with, had to be named.  That is if we consider that humanity has evolved.  If I look at our world, like for instance a thing like internet, then

 

information has become incredibly small to become incredibly wide. 

 

There are so many concepts on this planet – everything goes into minute detail with sub diversions and sub diversions from that and sub diversions from that, etc. 

 

And I stopped writing for a while is it felt as if I was sinking into that infinitely minute sub levels. Or must I call it infinitely excessive sub levels? But all these sub systems are represented by words

 

But are we fulfilling words with all these sub systems that are created or are we creating the systems and putting words to it – the Bible says: in the beginning was the Word?

 

But isn’t it amazing that the Bible Code, found that for instance the 9/11 event is represented/predicted in some or other way in the old Hebrew texts that make up the Bible that the Bible Code is using and consist of.  And I am just wondering, if one take the “L” of Lion out of the WorLd Trade Centre, what are you left with?  Word Trade Centre?  Oh, am I silly now? 

 

And all this is linked to “Taalmonument” 50km from Lion’s Head and a “Taalmonument” 50km from Molteno and both Molteno and Lion’s Head is linked with a lion and symbolism.

 

LOVE

Renee

05/02/2006 15:32 and there are 32 ministers that is objecting against the church which decided to not let woman preach in their church and 32 is linked with Len and John meeting up on 01/02/2006 and their common interest, the I Ching and Kabalah which are both also connected to the combination 32.  And 3 + 2 = 5 where we started our letter today and the sacred number of the White Lions…     

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Robert Brown movement – the Birth of The Atom.

July 21, 2008

31/01/2006 11:41 and this leaves us with a beginning of 31 and end of 41, and by now you know what these combinations are up for..

From the date   1.   31

                        2.   01

From the time   2.   41

1.      11

 

This leaves us with the year – which has no mate – namely 2006 or 2 + 6 = 8, but there are 2 0’s

 

This is Lor80 and in beginning of letter we reach result of 8 and 0 and 0 – so it seems we have a 0 that we do not know what to do with

 

Dear Lore

 

My friend Karina yesterday made the remark that it seems the fires in Cape Peninsula is in all the areas where rich people stay.  Yesterday afternoon I spoke to my mom about this and she told me that her and my father just the night before, read in the Bible, in the New Testament that Paul said that everyone must sell all they have and give everything to the church and the church will then decide who needs what and give accordingly.  But you even have to sell your house.  To say the least, I was shocked (but I wonder why – is it something that needs my attention?).

 

Rich people, it seems, is something the Afrikaans churches are not really discussing, as it seems to me that they need the rich people in their church so that those people can help pay the bills for the church expenses – and that includes the food on the table for the minister.

 

My mom and I were just wondering, after you sold your house and everything – it seems you just must not be gay if you do this and give to the church, as you will stand last in the queue to receive something again as you are a sinner.  But who knows, maybe if all the gay people sell all their stuff and give it to the church, the church will change their mind about if being gay is a sin or not.

 

And I am thinking now how I laughed that day when my friend Colleen said that God put people on the planet to make money.  That was just hilarious.  Well, and it seems if there is one thing we all do, in some or other way, we earn money.  No wonder she came to that conclusion.

 

But I do not know, if one does not have money, you cannot live in this day and age.  Part of the process of getting the planet where it is, was the evolution of money as well. 

 

But what I have been thinking about a lot is that Len always say that the people are trashing the planet – but I am still driving my car and Len as well – so we are part of the “mob” who is trashing the planet.  Whether we like it or not, we are part of everybody and we do what everybody is doing, we live, with the need to have money to survive and our cars, to get us where we need to go to earn that money.  Nobody really want to trash the planet – I do not believe for one second that any person will want to be that person who is trashing the planet.  But we must all live, we must all in some or other way earn a living, so we have to “trash” the planet.  And that is what it comes down to: 

 

Nobody wants to trash the planet, we just all have to…we are all just trying to do our job.  This mean, if we are only doing our job, we are not trashing the planet, we are doing our job. 

 

Nobody want to be that “bad” person, we just do not have a choice – so maybe “bad” is only again the appearance of “bad”, but seeing we do not have a choice and everything just is, is it still bad or is it good or is it neither bad nor good?

 

It seems to me I was wrong in that letter two years ago, where I still thought that healers are the only ones who can help others.  This comes down to healers are the only ones who can save the planet – but who says the planet needs saving?  And everybody want to save the planet, but everybody cannot be healers as if everybody is healers, there will be no patients and if there are no patients, there will be no healers.

 

I don’t know, what you said that everything just is, makes more and more sense.

 

LOVE

Renee

31/01/2006 12:32 or 13 (the first of the hour and the first of the minute) and 22 (what’s left).

 

31/01/2006 19:37 and 3 + 7 = 10 or 191

 

Dear Lore

 

My mother and I were just having a conversation about the temperature in Cape Town tomorrow.  And I said to her I just hope I do not get cold feet again and have to put on my kind of Eskimo jacket.  I do not know why, but sometimes, even if it is 30 degrees in Cape Town, I am getting so cold that I have to put socks on and my Eskimo jacket.  My mother know this is not just something I make up as she one day felt my feet and felt that they were two blocks of ice.

 

So my mother said she must phone the psychologist up and tell her there is something wrong with me and that the psychologist must book a place for me in Stikland.  And I said to my mother but before they can certify me for wearing a jacket in such heat, they will have to explain why my feet are two blocks of ice!  And my mother said:  They will think you are some kind of reptile or something from outer space.  And I said to her well then the psychologist and the psychiatrist who want to certify me must be careful to not get certified themselves, as I have the same body as everybody else – I look just as human as anybody else.  (Only have a few bruises from the shooting incident on my body left)  So if they claim I am a reptile, how are they going to convince the other people – they will be questioned as a human that looks like a human, but only have cold feet in a temperature of 30 degrees, are being called a reptile by them.  I think they then stand a better chance of getting certified than I do as I have my cold feet to explain why I am wearing the jacket, but they have got absolutely nothing to base it upon that I am a reptile!

 

I wonder tonight about events in the past.  Like the person who referred me to the psychiatrist who thought of certifying me, got shot in the head (she shot herself) and so did that same psychiatrist (the one who thought of certifying me) land up, shot in the face – by a jealous husband because she had a relationship with one of her patients.

 

Anyway, we will see where to this develops.

 

LOVE

Renee

31/01/2006 19:54 turning 55.

 

 

31/01/2006 21:44

 

Dear Lore

 

My brother just phoned and they wanted to know something that his wife’s sisters child needed for a task.  It was about the “Brown Movement”.  What is very strange to me about this is that Robert Brown saw under the microscope that molecules were jumping around and could not understand why.  But eventually it was accepted by the scientific community that it is molecules that are not visible (no one ever before witnessed them or have seen them) – that means they are invisible – are responsible for this phenomenon.  I cannot believe that the scientific community could come to such conclusion?  The scientists just want us to believe that something nobody has ever seen before, something invisible, is having an influence in our reality.  The only proof we have of something invisible existing is the conclusion, to what Robert Brown could not explain, the scientists came to and accepted.  I just wonder why so many scientists have a problem then with the existence of God?  For me it comes down to the same principle.  Something invisible that is exercising an influence of some kind.

 

What is also amazing that also came to mind now, is that mankind invented an imaginary number system in mathematics – maybe all we have reached is because of a little bit of imagination

 

Anyway…

 

LOVE

Renee

31/01/2006 21:54 and 21 hours resemble 9 and 5 + 4 = 9 which gives 9:9

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Wizards and Symbolisms…

July 20, 2008

Lore79.

 

28/01/2006 19:01 and the date is 10 (2 + 8) and 9 (1 + 2 + 6) or 1 and 9 or added, a 1, as in the time.  But, the time alone added gives as 19 is 7 o’clock, 7  + 1 = 8 which gives us a 1 and 8, or 18

 

This is Lore79 and 7 + 9 = 16 and add the beginning sum total, we get 16 and 18 or 1618, and the number phi equal 1.618… 

 

Dear Lore

 

This must probably be a special letter as 7 + 9 = 16, the inverse of the number you are associated with and the number I link to Linda.

 

Something very strange happened this late afternoon.  We were eating and there were one incredible fly irritating me to a point of frustration.  Then I got something to hit it with and went sitting again to eat further.  Then he came and irritated me again and I wanted to hit it – my father and mother was at some stage shouting at me, as the fly was sitting apparently right in front of my eyes, but the strange thing is, I did not see it.  So I blindly hit as my parents told me the fly was right under my eye and as I started hitting, I saw the fly.  But what I could not believe, was that I could not see it.  How could I not have seen it?

 

This I went and wrote in my journal at 18:15 and end time18:18 or 9:9.  Then I went to lie down and the following came to mind.

 

Some people see things that are not there and they get called crazy – but I could not see something other people can see and I thought of what that made me.  The inverse of crazy?  Well, lets look at that as it seems it leaves us then with yzarc. I wonder what the difference between a whyzarc and a wiser is as their sound appear to be very close?    As it seems not even sound is completely free of appearances?  And I am no wizer but I am questioning – and do you think if you ask the question why, it comes down to an answer always?  What if a mere question is an answer?

 

But if you view the word wizard (which can be related to the word wiser), then the difference is that wizard and whyzard only differs with the “i” being replaced with “hy”.  And “i” is the 9th letter, and “h” is the 8th letter in the English alphabet and “y” the 25th, or 8 and 7 which adds up to 15 or 6.  And if you look at 9 and 6 then 6 is the upside down of 9, also some form of inverse.

The highlighted sentence was written down in my journal with beginning time 18:38 or 9:11 and the end time was18:40 turning 41.  And 40 + 41 is 81 which gives 18:81, or the inverses again.

 

Just thought to share this whyzardness with you…But, as the wizard has got something to do with magic, my question is just this:  Can flies be manipulated?  As how did this one know exactly what to do to irritate me and then to go and sit right underneath my view for up till I decided to hit blindly as I could not see it, though my parents were getting very irritated because I could not see it.  But the fly stood its ground and stayed sitting – for me to hit him eventually. 

 

And this question leaves me back at square 1, which coincidentally equal One.

 

 

 

LOVE

Renee

28/01/2006 19:17 and we were parked today at Grand West as follows – there were 7 cars and then ours (1) which make it a 7 and 1 (7 others and 1 which was ours) or which gives a 17 in the end minutes and linked today with the 71 or the inverses again

 

 

28/01/2006 20:19 and the beginning minutes is 1 and 9 or beginning and end – and taken literally, how is the beginning the same as the beginning and end?  Are we back to the circle now?

 

Anyway, Dear Lore

 

It seems we put symbolism everywhere.  I am wondering of the above, of what I made of words, isn’t words and letters just symbols?  If we look at numbers, aren’t they just symbols?  But if you view numbers, they can for instance be 1 or one – where or how did the symbol became actually confusing by both representing One?  Isn’t symbols powerful, but confusing?  We use them all day, in everything we do, we use it:  we talk, we read, we write, we work with money (that consist of numbers), we wear watches which is the symbol for our time, etc.  But if symbols is in everything, then the most basic part of our existence, must also be a symbol, as symbols is in everything.  This is only if symbols is in everything.  And what kind of symbols did we choose to base our everything on – to such extent where we are in this day and age?  Why did we choose to give eternity a symbol for instance?  Not only in word, but also in mathematical terms.  And then we go even further and we give the number 8 (in numerology), the resemblance of eternity, as it looks like the sign of eternity in mathematical terms, just on its side.  And even more so we connect an animal, the spider, to eternity because its body resemble an 8.  Are we, like spider, weaving when we symbolize?  And with symbolize I refer to all the possible ways that we give “things” symbols.  Look what happened in the first letter of Lor79.  What am I doing in all my letters with the numbers for instance – and putting them in twisted ways with words?  Or am I putting words with numbers?  And is this important, as both are only symbols?

Even sound are symbolic.  And it seems the Bible says that in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was God.  Never mind that even the written words in these sentences are symbols, but in the beginning was the Word – and this comes down to a symbol.  Even in Genesis do we find that God created through words – and this comes down to symbols.

Suddenly I feel so stuck, in all the webs of symbols that seems to make up what we call reality. I can see how eternally small the symbols go. When I see how linked all are, I just see the Greatness of how we experience reality the way we do – not falling into this intricate webs.  I would never believed that I would say this, but I am glad that there are even an emotion like anger – as if I take what I am seeing now, this intricate webs, falling into them I think will be worse than experiencing a moment of anger.  While I am in these webs, I wonder to myself why the people are making an issue of sins – as they are nothing in comparison to landing in these intricate webs.   In these webs they (things that’s called sins like greed and lust and hatred, etc) loose their sting.  Its like the global dimming effect that safes us from global warming – our pollution saving us, or in other words, something that has the appearance that it is bad, but it actually saves us from something else, the intricate webs which seems like something of an illusion.  A blessing in disguise. 

 

I’ll speak again to you later.

 

LOVE

Renee

28/01/2006 20:55 and 2 + 8 = 10 and so does 5 + 5 = 10 – but what does the 28 combination have to do with the 55 combination, they only add up to the same symbol? 10?

 

 

28/01/2006 22:58 and 2 + 2 = 4 and 5 + 8 = 13 or 4 which gives 44 – and 44 is explicit direct to the name of God in Hebrew meaning: “I will be revealed at ever greater levels”

 

Dear Lore

 

We had a strange thing in our front yard this morning.  A children’s church advertised itself by putting their name on a balloon, filling it with air and putting the filled balloon on a stick and putting the stick into our flower beds.  The balloon is purple.

 

As we left this morning the balloon was full – but at our return it ran out of air nearly totally.  And we still made a remark about it.  But as I walked passed the balloon now and saw it again, I remembered what I wrote to you in Lor78 about our professor at university who explained that all stars are like dots on a balloon and as you fill the balloon with air, that is how you may observe how the stars are all moving away from one another.  And I am pulling my eyes big now as I am wondering about what happens if all the air, like in today’s balloon, is unleashed and the stars get closer to one another again – I do not know if that is possible, but I just wondered.  This makes me think of breathing in – filling the balloon with air and all the stars moving away from one another, and breathing out, unleashing the air and the stars getting back to normal (?) again?  Oh, what imagination cannot do…

 

I was just remembering also what Rebbe Nachman said, that God made space within God Self for creation – what will I get if I ad my imagination to this:

  1. something linked to God and the creation that was made space for inside God apparently
  2. something linked to breath and imagination.

 

Creation breathing in and breathing out?

 

LOVE

Renee

28/01/2006 23:07 or 5 + 7 = 12 or 11 + 7 = 18 or 9 and the date is 10 (2 + 8) and 9 and the time 12 and 9 which gives a 9 in both and a 10 and 12, or added the last two, gives then a 9 and a 22. And now we end on 22, the amount of symbols that make up the Hebrew alphabet but is by many numerologists regarded as a power number – this makes me wonder about the contents of this letter as the beginning and end of this letter is numbers that doesn’t pop up for nothing… though I cannot see why?

THE FOLLOWING WAS INSERTED FROM PREVIOUS LETTER – LOR78

 

25/01/2006 19:19

 

Dear Lore

 

Something strange happened since last week Wednesday, 18/01/2006 till today.  I went to see a psychologist on 18th.  That date has been arranged about 2 weeks before the 18th, and I was wondering about why would it take so long before I get to see her.  Her name is Linnea Potgieter.  Her add in the Yellow Pages is row 4 the 4th one which gives a 44.

 

Then, after I made the appointment, I realized but that is the day my period is suppose to start.  Anyway, on the 18th, after I saw her I came home and not much later, I got an sms from Ronel and I was still busy thinking about this sms when my friend called me up and told me that Annemarie Potgieter, a friend of ours whom we worked with, has died – she was killed.  This was a terrible shock. And after I spoke with my friend on the phone, I got an sms from Carol.  Then I realized that the woman I was with earlier the afternoon is also Potgieter. (And Linnea means it has something to do with classification).  What also happened, was during the morning of 18/01/2006, the cleaning services were here and I was with the dogs when I felt a very slight earth tremor.  And I ran out of the room and asked if they felt it as well and one lady also felt it.  But even more peculier, on Thursday, my mom phones me up and ask me what a hypnotherapist is as Liesl, who’s mom is a friend of Linda Tuckers’, want to go and see someone – and guess who Liesl decided on to go to?  Yes, coincidentally it is Linnea Potgieter.  So Monday was her appointment and she asked my mom if we would go and drop her there after work.

 

But what is more questionable, is that Annemarie died on the same day as Anton Rupert, and they got buried on the same day, today, 25/01/2006

 

Again, I am asking myself if all this “strange” events has any meaning?  Isn’t it just all events that have no connection at all?  You once said to me:  everything just is… 

So maybe it just appears to be connected – but isn’t everything connected anyway?

 

Even if I try, I cannot make any sense of anything of the above as it is as you say, everything just is…

 

LOVE

Renee

25/01/2006 19:33 and 1 + 9 = 1 and 3 + 3 = 6 or 16, the number I associate with you and more specifically, Linda Tucker

 

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29/01/2006 09:29

 

Dear Lore

 

In Today’s newspaper, the Rapport (and coincidentally on page 13) there is another article on Annemarie (please see the above letter on the 25th.  This I did not know on the 25th, but her mom and her sister’s name is Lorraine.  And the newspaper made a spelling mistake with her moms name making it Lorriane Potgieter.  And my mother told me the day when we dropped Liesl at Linnea Potgieter, that she first thought but why is Rene Potgieter (Rene Potgieter is a relative of a very close friend of my mother who is into some form of psychology as well) in Cape Town, what is she doing here?  As my mother was confusing Linnea with Rene.  Now your name and my name is part of this confusing story – so it seems more are confused than just my mom.  I hope you are not.  But right after I spoke to Celeste on 18th, I received a sms from my friend Carol, and with the fires that was all around Lions Head and Signal Hill, Carol’s house was in danger and I was in contact with her all the time as to hear if she was ok.  So now we have Annemarie, we have me, we have you, we have the psychologist, we have Lions Head and Signal Hill and do not forget that Carol was the one who received those two rainbows (I wrote to you about it in a previous letter).  But linked with Lions Head and Signal Hill is also Linda and Marah.

 

And last night – this morning – I dreamt about a woman telling me to get my pen and stuff together and then I went off to some lesson or workshop on science – it specifically had something to do with science.  And the teacher came in and I knew her and she was someone I worked with.  And we were gathering data.  And she tried to start some mechanism, but her remote did not want to work as she did not seem to know how to work it.  Then I took it and started the mechanism. But somewhere in between the science part stopped and she disappeared from the scene a bit.  But meanwhile the police figured and my other friend in the police still, Celeste, was figuring.  Then something happened and this teacher’s (who was a bit from the scene) car, a VW Beetle, went into ashes with only some parts of the engine remaining and her eyes – but I do not think she was in the vehicle.  Then I was with others underneath a huge stand that carries electricity wires, and this one huge wire that was carrying an enormous amount of power, was loose and was a threat of some kind, and I had to fix it but I thought to myself how can I fix this?  How do I connect the loose wire again?  (But this wire was sort of carrying like in power from Koeberg – when the reactors are ok)  But in my dream in my mind’s eye in my dream, I was already holding the cable of wire to fix – but the part where I was holding it, was light blue lighted in my hand of electricity/power.

 

This let me ask the question what does that cable/wire symbolize?  What does it symbolise that is not connected and need fixing, and is so powerful?

 

LOVE

Renee

29/01/2006 09:36 or 9:9

 

 

29/01/2006 17:51 and 17 hours is 5 o’clock this gives us 5 + 5 + 1 = 11 as 2 + 9 = 11. So the whole of the time resemble the day of the date, and if added, they add to 22.

 

Dear Lore

 

In my previous letters I wrote to you about Lions Head that was under fire this past week – and next to Lions Head, is Signal Hill.  Now what is another word for signal or sign, as a sign can be a symbol also? And this afternoon I had the strangest experience again – this time with the satellite TV.  I was watching programmes on Big Cats and Lions in particular and on one stage the program on Big Cats was focussing attention on a leopard that was lying in a tree, and then suddenly the signal went off.  A big cat and a signal – how odd (Lions Head and Signal Hill).  But then I had to put the decoder off to get the satellite TV going again.  And me and my mother could not understand why this happened?  But as the TV and satellite were off, my mom and I decided to go and fetch my father’s cell phone as he is sleeping and just in case his cell phone ring, so that it could be with us.  And as I picked it up the time on his cell phone was 14:41. (the inverses again…)

 

As I switched everything on, there was bushes on fire.  And I switched channels as I did not want to see how the animals suffered.  And I put it on channel 65 (Discovery) and there they had all about fire fighters in America.

 

But then something strange happened with the satellite TV again as it switched by itself back to channel 66 (National Geographic) and at that moment there were a leopard in a tree and below the tree, 4 male lions they called bachelors.  And I said to my mom I wonder what is going on with the satellite TV’s signals? And the 1 leopard and 4 male lions give us a 1 and a 4 or a 4 and a 1 again.

 

And just the other day I had a conversation with my friend Karina on the phone about the word signal and that Signal Hill may be symbol of symbolism (the word).

 

I really do not know if one can make anything of these events.  But I have so much love for these animals and those Big Cats really have something special to them.  And my dog has to be willing to receive all the kisses I want to give those beautiful beings.  I so much want to get to the Bushveld again – I miss it so much.

 

LOVE

Renee

29/01/2006 18:13 …mmm…the 13 again…?

 

 

29/01/2006 19:22

 

Dear Lore

 

I was watching Fokus on SABC2 and their report on the fire on Lions Head, Signal Hill and Table Mountain, and watching Carte Blanche on Mnet also about these fires and I was wondering about this strange thing we always do – we always want to find someone to blame for everything that happens.  But people use words and they blame others and defend themselves with words.  And the more it seems they do not get to a point of finding someone to blame – and that seems very confusing – they use more and more words to defend themselves and blame others.  But they do not seem to agree who is to blame.  As their words are confusing them and they do not realize they are looking for someone to blame and secondly, the symbols used to blame is also causing that they cannot agree on who is the one to blame as those same symbols are defence mechanisms as well.  The same system used to accuse also defends – I wonder how far one will get with that?  But what amaze me as that they accuse and accuse, still looking for someone to blame – what is it to this concept, the need to blame someone if something happens.  And if you look at the word someone it can never reach status of a specific person as it is something in general, someone.  Now I am wondering how it all happened so well, that we have the symbolisms/systems in place that the word someone can reach its status it is carrying at this stage, namely, someone must be responsible, but with the uplifting of our words to other levels, it only reach its fullness now as everyone has access to these words’ evolution so that even if they are looking for someone to blame, it stays someone to blame – it does not get to a specific person. So someone is reaching its full potential.   

 

By the way, I also see that in Rapport’s Kaap version, on the front page is the problem with Koeberg Nuclear Power Station and next to it an article on the fires

 

This letter has no ending

 

 

30/01/2006 16:18

 

Dear Lore

 

I just had an interesting discussion with my friend Len.  He hasn’t seen the program on global dimming and still believes the theory that global warming are been caused by our pollution.  That we are trashing the planet deliberately and not feeling bad about it at all and not caring that we are just doing that – trashing the planet.

 

Then I asked him but what does he think is going to happen after the “shift”?  And he said that our friend Karina gave him the answer to that, we are going back to tribal times.

 

My question is just, I know Karina see that humanity must evolve – does this mean to go back to tribal times we are going to evolve?  The mere wording “go back” just says something different from evolution.  So maybe Karina is not sure if humanity must evolve or either if humanity must “go back” to something and start evolving again, just in a different way.  And my friend Len recons that the people that is now trashing the planet, will be sent to another planet where there are no free will and where they cannot trash anything anymore.  Well, I guess I am driving my car, I am doing what everybody else is doing, like eating and drinking and all comes from things that are trashing the planet – so I guess I will go to that planet where there is no free will, as well as I am part of humanity that is now trashing the planet.  I don’t really know if there are anybody on this planet that can excuse themselves from not being part of the trashing process as all eat, all drink, all drive their cars.  Yes, there are those that fight endless battles to save the planet, but even they cannot excuse themselves as they do need their car and in their instances a lot of times, aeroplanes to get to go and fight pollution and trashing the planet.  So whom of us, if Len and Karina is correct, is going to stay behind to begin the human evolution, I do not know.

 

And this makes me wonder about what is going to happen should there be something like a polar flip.  Many spiritual people are talking about the shift, but by now I have heard so many versions – that the “shift” is more confusing to me now, than a lot of other things.  I realized today that what I am experiencing, is not the same what my friends are believing anymore.  I am getting confused about a lot of things, but their point of view, which was interesting, just does not stand its ground for me so much anymore.  Maybe I am too busy with other stuff like the symbolism thing.  Like the catch 22 situations arising that I feel is so brilliant.  But it seems I am the only one seeing these situations and now I start questioning myself.  I try to explain to my friend Katrina, but she gets stuck that things happen so that after something happened and humanity was not dealing with that situation effectively, they get the lesson from that to improve themselves.  Like with everybody wanting to find someone to blame for the fire on Table Mountain, now the fire department will improve and the council will and the mayor as well – that’s the lesson from the fire.  It is all well that they are all now going to upgrade and if the same situation arise again, they will be equipped, but that was not what I saw from that situation – and I wrote to you yesterday about that topic and what I made of it.  Maybe that is the lesson for me in speaking to her and hear what she has to say, that everything is about lessons?  Lessons and then upgrading to higher levels.  What that higher levels is I do not know – maybe that is how humanity is going to evolve – upgrading the fire department and the council and the mayor that should we have a fire in cape town ever again, all these departments will be on a higher level to deal with the same situation again, this time, perfectly with nobody complaining about a thing.  I hope they upgrade the public as well to not either critisize or on the other end of duality agree that the fire department is upgraded enough.  We are in duality and people do seem to have opinions on whether something is done well, and on the other end, not done well.  Even with this fire, there were people that thought that everything  – for the type of fire they were dealing with – went actually very well.  And I am complaining now it seems about my friends.  I think it is my ego that want them to see what I see and what I see I cannot get through to anybody.

 

And I am wondering about these letters to you, if they are worth anything.  I do not even know if you are reading them – why am I writing them, for what reason?

 

Love

Renee

30/01/2006 16:49 and 4 + 9 = 13 and day and month is 31.

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July 5, 2008

24/01/2006 16:43 probably turning 44.  And the amount outstanding on my dog’s account at the vet is R444.

 

This is Lor78

 

Dear Lore

 

I just read in the newspaper now about a minister who is with the Afrikaans AP Church and who is suing another woman because his wife has left him.  Apparently this other woman has also now put in a claim against him.  I am wondering how far is suing one another going to bring us.  I remember while I was still in the police how people threatened to sue us – for money, but maybe sueing only appears to be not helpful to create a better society as it seems there is a lot more to appearances than we think.

 

And I spoke to Esteban this morning and I told him about a friend of mine who was murdered and Esteban said:  It is time for Jesus to come back and clean up this mess!  Well, I hope for Jesus’ sake that He would be able to get to all these fine, not really noticeable little messes we are sitting with as well – as they may only appear as being a mess.  Like the one above where we use words, like I described to you in previous letters, and interpretations of words to do what?  It is just strange that the above situation involves a minister in an Afrikaans church.  Remember, long time ago I told you about the tarentale and the two who was stuck on the church grounds?  It seems it is even going wider in this situation as the guy is a minister and he is using the words in a law perspective – this should be interesting!

(Seems I forgot to put and end to this letter…)

 

 

25/01/2006 13:40 or 04:40 or (0)44(0) or the inverses again

 

Dear Lore

 

My head thinks that me and Len and Karina are very amusing.  As we are totally in the dark about what is going on.  Well, I am glad we are amusing to someone else, I love amusing things.  But isn’t it strange that one use the word “dark” in the sense of where one does not know what is going on?  And what came up now while I was lying one the bed thinking about this, is that the Bible says that Jesus was not overcome by darkness – could one now interpret it also in this way, that Jesus actually got to a point where he understood something (maybe the situation he was in) and a light bulb went on?  Understanding his task?  See, how many interpretations can be made of single events or words in the Bible!

 

Speaking of Jesus, the other night you brought a candle again into my inner world and then that candle was put right underneath the cross – the point in the Southern Cross stars that is the point of reference for the direction in our night sky, and for that direction you need Alpha and Beta Centauri as well (this gives us a 1 and 2 or 12 or 21 also) – and this little candle set the cross on fire.  And whenever I look at it in my inner world, I can see it still burning. (It was on the 22/01/2006 and started writing at 19:21 and ended 19:22.)

So a cross is on fire – and if this has any meaning, I do not have a clue!  Maybe that is why my head finds it funny that me and Len and Karina are all in the dark.   But keeps me in the dark, and full of questions is that the concept of fire is constantly referred to in the past few days.  What is it about fire that I am not seeing?  (If it is possible to be so in the dark that not even a fire – light – can be seen??)  I know I burn these letters to you on a CD, but in the same sentence of hell, my father is mentioned?

 

I don’t know, everything is so confusing…

 

LOVE

Renee

25/01/2006 14:29  It seems there is nothing to do about the time or the date except maybe that it was last year this time that I paid in the first amount for Marah, the White Lion that Linda Tucker is taking care of.  The second payment was done tomorrow exactly also one year ago.   

 

25/01/2006 15:00 and do you remember the conversation about these two numbers, 1 and 5?  And we had this conversation when me and Len came from Linda Tucker.  And exactly one year ago…as I explained at the top.

 

Dear Lore

 

I feel stuck.  And it seems I must try and avoid thinking of the routine thing – it makes me depressed.  And I am wondering, they always say that change is as good as a holyday, maybe the world needs change?  But I wonder if we are not constantly changing anyway?  Maybe I need a holli jolli holliday?

 

LOVE

Renee

25/01/2006 15:05 or 6 (1+5) and 5 – and if we view today’s date, we have a 25 and 2006, the 2 days I paid in Marah’s money, but if you take that 2 (of the days) out of the 25 and 26 of today, you are left with the time or a 6 and a 5 and just the other way around of 25 and 26 or without, 5 and 6.

 

Ns…meanwhile I forget the illusion of everything which only have an appearance of reality. (This is from another letter that starts at 25/01/2006 18:25 and this letter ends at 25/01/2006 18:41 and it is a letter to God, no 159)

 

 

25/01/2006 19:19

 

Dear Lore

 

Something strange happened since last week Wednesday, 18/01/2006 till today.  I went to see a psychologist on 18th.  That date has been arranged about 2 weeks before the 18th, and I was wondering about why would it take so long before I get to see her.  Her name is Linnea Potgieter.  Her add in the Yellow Pages is row 4 the 4th one which gives a 44.

 

Then, after I made the appointment, I realized but that is the day my period is suppose to start.  Anyway, on the 18th, after I saw her I came home and not much later, I got an sms from Ronel and I was still busy thinking about this sms when my friend called me up and told me that Annemarie Potgieter, a friend of ours whom we worked with, has died – she was killed.  This was a terrible shock. And after I spoke with my friend on the phone, I got an sms from Carol.  Then I realized that the woman I was with earlier the afternoon is also Potgieter. (And Linnea means it has something to do with classification).  What also happened, was during the morning of 18/01/2006, the cleaning services were here and I was with the dogs when I felt a very slight earth tremor.  And I ran out of the room and asked if they felt it as well and one lady also felt it.  But even more peculier, on Thursday, my mom phones me up and ask me what a hypnotherapist is as Liesl, who’s mom is a friend of Linda Tuckers’, want to go and see someone – and guess who Liesl decided on to go to?  Yes, coincidentally it is Linnea Potgieter.  So Monday was her appointment and she asked my mom if we would go and drop her there after work.

 

But what is more questionable, is that Annemarie died on the same day as Anton Rupert, and they got buried on the same day, today, 25/01/2006.

 

Again, I am asking myself if all this “strange” events has any meaning?  Isn’t it just all events that have no connection at all?  You once said to me:  everything just is… 

So maybe it just appears to be connected – but isn’t everything connected anyway?

 

Even if I try, I cannot make any sense of anything of the above as it is as you say, everything just is…

 

LOVE

Renee

25/01/2006 19:33 and 1 + 9 = 1 and 3 + 3 = 6 or 16, the number I associate with you and more specifically, Linda Tucker.

 

 

26/01/2006 15:43 and 4 times 3 equal 12, which gives 312 again (What is it with this connection with Marion?)

 

Dear Lore

 

I am ill of worries about you, where you are.  And then this link with Marion that comes up all the time.  What is it all about?

 

Anyway, I just want to share a dream with you again, and it seems I give the dreams more reality when I write about them. I dreamt I was at some college or something, some school and Len was a teacher there.  But I was busy with some mind twister (do you still remember these “Kubus” blocks you got that you had to get all the colours on their own side?) and this twister was something that had also stickers on with a colour, but it also had numbers.  But there were two and they were linked with a plastic arm that was made of the same cream coloured plastic, these mind twisters were made of.

Then I was on the top floor of a building and there were a huge opening, which were suppose to have a window, but it did not – and because it was so high, I was scared Charlie was going to fall out as he was with me, but I realized it cannot happen as I had him on a leash. But we passed this hole without one of us falling out.

 

Just thought I’d share this with you – hoping to feel better soon…

 

LOVE

Renee

26/01/2006 or 26/01/26 with (0)(0) taken out. 15:51 – and this was the end time of the letter that Linnea, the psychologist also chose (I asked her that day on 18th to just open the bind letters on any page and she opened it on the last part of the letter on 15/10/2005 and the end time of that letter, where she opened it on, was 15:51) And this letter is also Lor78 and 7 + 8 = 15.

 

 

26/01/2006 or 26/01/26 with (0)(0) a bit on the side. 21:21

 

Dear Lore

 

I do not understand what is going on – especially with the above time being 9:9.  Maybe this is important – I don’t know.

 

I have this trouble at the end of the day.  I thought it has got something to do with the dusk theme, but my head just showed me that if it is dusk for me, it is dawn for someone else and vice versa.  So why should especially dusk be a problem for me, as for someone else it is dawn.  What am I actually saying here?

 

Anyway, maybe I’ll understand later..

 

LOVE

Renee

26/01/26 (0)(0) 21:30 or 03:30 or 9 + 3 = 12, the inverse of 21

 

 

27/01/2006 00:56 and date starts with (2+7) or 9 and time ends with (5+6) or 11.

 

Dear Lore

 

I cannot sleep.  Even though I took a lot of tablets already.  Sometimes it seems tablets have got no effect on me – no matter how strong.

 

Lore, I do not know if you read this letter, or shall I rather say these letters, but I feel I have seen a GREATNESS again tonight.  I was watching a program on TV2, which my mother focused my attention on and said I should tape it, and was astounded.   What it came down to was that there is a thing they call global dimming.  The paradox of global warming, and it seemed this global dimming protected us in a great way from global warming!  But the problems about this aspects do not seem to be in the nearby future.  But another paradox – and a huge one which was never detected by the scientific crowd, except for a few scientist on strategic places.  And this tells all that we do not have to fear what lies ahead, as if these scientists were put in strategic places and if I also take for instance the money thing and the levels it function on and how certain people and structures were put in place for that, I do think the process will be made as easy as possible for us in this 3D reality.

 

The other night I had the feeling as if there was shuffling around been going on and certain beings been put in strategic positions – do you think we must expect huge change?  Well, I just want to know if you and Marion are ok at this stage…

 

Yes, and I was feeling so heavy on the 26th, as if I cannot even lift myself off the couch, and at night time I should discover the huge fire on Table Mountain – and when I spoke to a friend in the city she said to me that at that stage the fire was all around Lions Head.  I wonder if this is linked to Marah in some way, as my friend Karina wanted me to watch the news to see about Koeberg that is only 50% active and the rest of Cape towns power is coming from Mpumalanga, where Marah and Maria and Linda is.  Now as you know is Koeberg nuclear power.  But they have had problems with the two reactors now for quite a while.

 

Anyway, I will speak to you again..

 

LOVE

Renee

27/01/2006  01:10 turning 01:11am 

 

 

27/01/2006 and 2 + 7 = 9 and 1 + 2 + 6 = 9.  And time is 12:07 turning 8 and isn’t this letter Lor78?

 

Dear Lore

 

It seems I was on the wrong track by saying that the sun is ecliptic moving around something as well – and for that matter our galaxy.  I had no right to say that, in fact, my head showed me now that for one:

 

  1. What is the sun and other stars then circling around – what is in the center?
  2. I just remembered our Science professor at University in the physics class telling us that with certain photography the scientists were experimenting, it looks like all the stars are moving away from one another.

 

But now my question is just, if that is true, that all the stars are moving away from one another – and I still remember he brought a balloon to the class to explain this, as he put dots on the balloon and then put air in the balloon and all the dots were moving away from one another – why are our star signs like Orion and Scorpio and Canis Major and Canis Minor still in tact for us to see them.  And they still seem in shape to me.

 

So it just seems, I have no clue what I am talking about and what I was talking about.  But what I am wondering, is if the scientists know, really know?  As for how long has scientists ignored the guy who discovered the global dimming – as they thought what they were believing to be global warming was more logical? And at the time they believed global warming to be a danger, that was what made sense – when this other guy came with proof that interfered with their logic, they disregard him as his statistics did not fit in with their beliefs.  And with only this one example, I wonder how much have been taken for granted because of beliefs the science community have that makes sense to them, that is in actual fact something else? 

 

Then another question that my head showed me this morning is that my attention was focused on something I once read about one of the great scientists who claimed that what was going on on our planet and solar system, is on small scale what is Universal?  And just the mere question I had about the sun not having the same perception than we have about time, makes me now question that as well.  As this is only in our solar system that we have classified the sun under our conditions – meanwhile it might not be like that at all (and the example of this is the time concept I discussed in another letter)?  From the sun’s point of view, it might be something totally different?  But I wonder how many things have a certain appearance to us, to science, that is like the Universe, it only appears to be dark, if you take a piece of it, what colour is it, has it got any colour at all?  But for us the Universe appears to be dark…

 

Anyway, last night was an eye opener that with all our “pollution”, it actually saved us.  Health experts tells us this is healthy and that not, but I think of the pill thing and remember an article I read in the “De Kat” – where a doctor prescribed a new medicine for some guy who was in a coma.  Then this guy came out of his coma and later on went back into his coma.  Eventually they discovered that this medicine that was given for something totally different, was helping this guy and activating the part of his brain where he was in a coma, to get out of it.  And the moment the pill was worked out, the guy will fall into his coma again.  So maybe there is something good in something that many will see as bad – I for one has now learnt that lesson.

 

But what fascinates me is that all this stuff that is happening, all these questions I am asking, all keeps us in 3D and on the planet.  But if I look at all the underlying stuff that clashes and do not make sense, leaving this world or 3D reality with the only thing that makes sense is nothing, though we think all makes sense, meanwhile it is all one big illusion.  But I guess being in this 3D can be nice – especially if all these clashes/paradoxes are shown and I realize how mysterious God really is. 

 

My question is just – how can we claim that we can know God, even if it is from the Bible?  The Christians for instance makes a study (like scientists) of interpreting the Bible, and how many obvious appearances they make from words, or what these scientists of the Bible think those appearances are, is actually fooling them as it is exactly what it says, it has a certain appearance?  How can we know what lies behind the appearance?

 

I was just lying and thinking now, for us at this stage we see ourselves that we have trashed the planet, because of global warming.  But with the discovery of global dimming my question is just – were we not led to what we thought was trashing the planet, in order to give us a longer time of existence, like that all the industries and all the pollution causes have been institutionalised because of a Plan, a Divine Plan.  As if it was not for (what we think) us trashing the planet, we would have been gone long time ago with global warming – and this is very literally a view in 3D reality.  So what seemed to have been a bad thing that mankind did, was actually a good thing?  That is if you view that 3D reality and being in it is a good thing.  So something had a bad appearance, but underlying it seems to have been a good thing.  But I do not know if you remember the letter about catch 22 situations, as it seems scientists do not really know if we must now carry on with the pollution (seeing it is saving us from global warming in a way) or what should we do about it?  This is such an excellent phenomenon!

 

I just feel this appearance thing is of some importance…because even what we might think is a 3D reality, might be an appearance.

 

LOVE

Renee

27/01/2006 12:49 or 313 and the date as shown in the beginning is 9 and 9.

 

 

27/01/2006 14:41

 

Dear Lore (and this time thing just amaze me each and every time)

 

I had a strange night last night.  After I wrote to you, and went and lie down again – hoping to fall asleep.  But nothing happened.  But I am aware of a phase where I was not aware of my room, but I also was not asleep (do not know what to call that experience).  All I was aware of was the word “lion shamanism”.  Then at about 4:00am I got up and made myself something to drink and then it seemed I fell a bit asleep.  But then I dreamt I was at my psychologist in Pretoria again, only her hair was still fair, but it was more reddish than blondish.

But what a strange day it was yesterday – I am feeling a lot lighter today than yesterday – I guess I felt like that fire that was on Lion’s Head next to Table Mountain.  But I got through it and that is all that matters it seems – I don’t know?

 

Anyway, do not know when this letter is going to be ready to be sent to you…

 

LOVE

Renee

27/01/2006 14:46 or 14:10 or 141(0).

 

Ns.  27/01/2006 15:34 and 3 times 4 equal 12 and gives 312 again and again I ask you to please let me know, this time I am asking directly, if you and Marion are ok!  Why does it appear all the time, the time and 312 that is linked to Marion and for that reason you?

 

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Our Sun not Dying – proof that Humankind cannot Manifest.

July 5, 2008

This is Lor77

 

20/01/2006 09:41 and 9 + 4 + 1 = 14 which gives a 14 and 41

 

 

Dear Lor

 

I do not understand the following, but my friend Karina was talking about it yesterday and in a way I was confronted with it while I was in my first year of university as well.  Karina was talking about cause and effect.  You get a cause, then in the middle, the thing it is going to have the effect on and then the effect.  I am wondering why are we viewing things this way?  Isn’t this keeping us in the dual world?  And even as I am writing this, I do not understand it.  I do not and never could get my mind wrapped around the fact that if you view an object – which forces are exercised on that object?  I could never see the forces that was suppose to be working on an object – though apparently because if you pick up a stone and you hold it in the air and not let it be in your hand anymore, it will be because of forces working on it that it falls to the ground .  But all the other students were able to see these forces that worked in on that object that was needed for them to pass their physics course. For any force working on an object there are it seems a force from the opposite direction that are working at the same time?  And things like gravity and who knows what else?   You know what is strange, I feel again the confusing feeling I had when I did Physics at University and not being able to see what the others saw – the forces that are working on an object.

 

Anyway, I will speak again to you later.

 

LOVE

Renee

20/01/06 09:54 or 9:9.  And the date all added up gives also 9 which gives 999.

 

 

20/01/2006 10:56 and the date added this time around adds up to 11 and the end minutes also to 11.

 

Dear Lore

 

Last night we had meditation at Carol again.  The theme was Angels, but all I got was – after we had to climb a ladder,  that I was in front of that place I dreamt of that was some kind of base, that beautiful place against the mountain.  I think I have told you about that dream, I am not sure though.  But anyway, here I was in front of this huge building which seems to be related to Olympus, and there was a bird that was flying ahead of me to take me in.  This bird was yellowish with blue wings.  But the weird thing was, that this bird was flying and flying to take me in, but we were getting no where except right where we were.  Then later on I saw a woman inside a place – there were some pathway and next to the pathway on the left of the woman, was water.  This woman was dressed in some purple gown thing which covered her head as well and only her face was visible.  Then I realized but this woman and this place was inside that building against the mountain which seems to be related to Olympus in some or other way.  But I do not know why, as this woman was wearing a mask over her eyes, but I believed this woman to be you.  And this woman was carrying something in her hands in front of her.    

 

11:41  Since after my shower this morning I saw myself also on that path in that place you were in last night in my meditation.  The one I think is in the place against the mountain. Well, my head wanted me to listen to music now and it turned out to be the 4th CD from the top and the 16th song on that CD.   Nesse Dorma is the name of the song and the artist is Jannie Moolman.  And as I was listening to this we were only standing on that pathway next to the water – and it seems there are crocodiles in the water with no threat.  And mostly I saw the place from outside, as it is in the sun against these huge mountains – as the one part is in front but there is another part against another mountain at the back as well.  And as this song reached its peak, you started our procession to move – you, me the lions and the dogs.  Where we are going to I do not know, I just know the procession has started.  And you are in front with that type of ball of light in your hands in front of you.  And as the song ended now, the time was 11:41 (I do not know if this is of importance, but the whole time I was listening to this song no 16, I was thinking my father might arrive anytime)

 

Well, I guess I write further later…

 

LOVE

Renee

20/01/2006 11:49 or an 11 and 13

 

 

20/01/2006 15:33 or 333

 

Dear Lore

 

I just landed in the most difficult position.  With this Business Club thing I got a guy that want to go into Business Club on the highest level.  But he will be going in as our no 2.  So yesterday the guy who introduced me to Business Club went with me to see this guy as he just had a few questions still.  Then later the afternoon the guy who went with me, phoned me and said he was going to upgrade this morning. 

 

So this afternoon I thought to myself, but if we can get someone in before the guy we saw yesterday pays his money, we (me and my parents) are just going to make a fortune.  As this guy we saw yesterday will then be our no 3 and you earn big money for that, especially if he is going in on the highest level.

 

But then it started bothering me that I cannot do it to the guy, who thought that the man who is coming on the highest level is going to be our (me and my parents’) no 2 and he will earn the big money.  As he has now this morning upgraded to platinum and if I get someone to come in meantime on no 2, then he is going to be in a bad position financially because what he thought was going to come to him, will not.  Then I thought – after I also spoke to my mother about this – rather leave it as it is.  Let the guy who upgraded get the money.

 

Yes the guy he is going to get is going to earn him millions.  But maybe his task is more important that he needs the money for.  Now I just hope I did not do the wrong thing to give it to him (the one who upgraded) and that it was meant for us – as we are in financial trouble at the moment. So I hope I made the right decision to let the money go to Esteban.

 

And it is again this time of the day 15:55, so I am not feeling well – I do not know what is troubling me, it just feels as if something is troubling me.  Everyday.  And sometimes it is at its worse at about 17:00, but it starts at 15:30 up till about 19:00 or even later sometimes.

 

But I will speak to you later again.

 

LOVE

Renee

20/01/2006 15:57 or 312 or back, first, middle. (this is a clue that I received from Marion and her daughter when I was visiting in August 2003.

 

 

22/01/06 12:59 and if you look at the first time and the first of the date you get 2(2) and 1(2) and the same way if you look at rest of date, you get 1 and 6 or 7 and 14 or 5 and 7 + 5 = 12 or the 1(2) again.

 

Dear Lore

 

I am wondering about holiness.  And I wonder if we are not missing something – like if we take wholeness, or then wholiness, what is missing is the “w”, but the pronunciation will more or less stay the same?  And I told you that the “w” I view as “vv” and “v” is the 22nd letter of the English alphabet and if you put 2 of them next to each other it gives 22 22 or added, 44.

 

LOVE

Renee

22/01/2006 13:10 or 131 and I view 131 very close to 1 + 3 = 4 (22) = 3 + 1.

 

 

22/01/2006 13:22

 

Dear Lore

 

In the previous letters I told you about the Olympus thing – the “base” against the mountains and I also told you that a certain procession started.  But yesterday the whole day, I was sort of still taken from time to time to that “procession”.  But what is strange is that – like the bird I told you about that was outside that “base” flying and leading me to go inside, we are getting no where.  We are moving, but we are staying at the same place.  This is very strange.  Anyway, I do not even understand about the mountain thing or Olympus – what is Olympus anyway?  I just know that I have been in early years dreaming of going off to places to find something that had to do with a mountain.  And I only realized now that the dream I had of that “base” was what I was searching for all my life in my dreams.  And now it turns out to be only pillars that are in front of the rocks of the mountain but it makes, if you view it from where I saw it, an awesome place. But it seems it is what is going on inside – as it seemed that me and the bird were not getting anywhere, but suddenly in the meditation, I was with you, with what it seemed like, inside that mountain.

 

Anyway, I do not understand what all the above mean and if it even have a meaning at all?

 

You know what I was thinking about the other night?  I was thinking that say for instance I was the sun, then I would not be thinking in terms of night and day.  As we think night and day because the sun comes up and goes under again which gives us night and day.  But the sun does not have that.  So what is time for the sun?  We have time because we measure it with the sun – but the sun does not have that.  And now I am wondering  – if we are growing older because of time, and the sun does not have time or an understanding of it like we do, will that mean the sun is not subject to time and not subject like we are to dying?  That is if age is subject to time?  But I remember that I read that the sun has got only a certain amount of million years to burn still before it will have no burning anymore – will be no sun anymore.  But if we put it to age, how could we?  Because for the sun there is no such thing as time, especially the way we measure days and years?

 

Now I am asking myself the question, as in a previous letter I wrote how everything – even the sun for instance, is going to die – that is according to what scientists are telling us as I said above as well.  They tell us that a star has got a limited amount of “time” to burn itself out.  But we are creating that “time” as I do not know anymore if the stars are subject to what we call time? And aren’t we then creating the reality of the stars being limited because we give it an x amount of years, to be a burning star.  But are stars subject to “time”?  Do they burn out because of the factor (for us) of time?  I understand how the scientists come to that – especially if we take that it take a certain amount of light years for the light of a certain star to reach us, here on the planet Earth, but we use our way of measurement with what we believe to be science.  We get to where we are because of our science – but do you remember how you told me there are millions of Grand theories?  Maybe our science has evolved, but maybe our science we use is not the only one around?  Because we are using our measurement standards and subject other stars to it – by for instance the use of our concept of time.  Because if I put myself in the sun’s position, I would not even be able to tell day from night – as how would I know as I am the cause of day and night to others.  Would I know dark from light, if I am the light?  So can we really subject the stars to our little measurement of time, like day and night?

I also know that if we make a fire, with wood, it goes dead at some point – as it burns out.  But what I do not understand, is how we can subject stars to our belief of time and say that a certain star died.  Is it linked to our making of fire with wood? We are living in the dual world of night and day, of life and death – but are the rest of the Universe or Universes subject to that duality? 

 

I know in Lor75+76 I wrote and asked if we are in a dying Universe, where even the stars are subject to death and birth.  (And when I say dying Universe, I mean that the objects in the Universe are subject to birth and death – not that the Universe as a whole is dying, only that all in it are subject to that birth and death duality).  Maybe it was just me running around in circles in that letter where I asked about the circular “thing” that the Universe turn out to be for us – and it seems were getting me no where.

Talking about circular things, I remember Nietzsche in some or other way found a way in circular way to solve certain philosophical questions.  But that I have not enough knowledge about that to talk about it, but what does stand out about that man for me, was that he had this little story about a madman who ran out on the plain and said to the people, that God is dead and we killed Him.  This story I just love, still up till today and has stuck with me.  I always thought that with our understandings of God, we were close to this little story of Nietzsche.

 

Lor, please don’t take my marvelling about the birth and death of stars seriously, as I know nothing about that subject – in fact, I know nothing about science and leave it up to the scientists, as they know much more than I do.  I failed physics at University and because I could not understand it, I did not even have it as a subject at school.

But I will speak again to you later…

 

LOVE

Renee

22/01/2006  14:09 or 14 again, as 14 were the minutes that the first of today’s letters started with and now is the end time for this letter as well.    

 

22/01/2006 14:24 turning 25

 

Dear Lore

 

I was lying down now for a while and my head made me aware of the fact that my whole body feels “active” at the moment.  After the previous letter I wrote.  But then I thought, so what do I do with that now – the way my body is feeling at the moment?  And my head showed me that:  I can think, for one or being better understood, I can think 41…

And if you look at the end of the previous letter, then 41 is just the inverse of 14 and you know by now which I link the 14 41 combination with.

 

What I am wondering, is where and when am I going to find all the solutions to all these questions that have come up since I started writing to you in 2004 (and if you look at the beginning minutes of this letter, it is 24 turning 25).

 

Anyway…

 

LOVE

Renee

22/01/2006 14:30 and 14 on clock is 2 and 2 + 3 = 5 and so does 1 + 4 and 4 + 1.

 

 

22/01/2006 14:41 (and my legs were very restless and forced me now, together with my head, to get to the computer and start writing – and only after I viewed the time, did I realize why I felt so uncomfortable in order to get me to the computer.)

 

Dear Lore

 

I do not know why, but I am sure I have written about this to you before.  But it is a subject that came up again while I was visiting my friend Len on Thursday.  He also bought Bible Code 2 now for himself.  But what was outstanding for me in that book was how the author wrote how he was looking for some obelisk that is according to the bible code “swallowed” in the area of Masada and also where the Dead Sea Scrolls were found.  The author made trips there and were scanning the area with some scientific equipment to find that obelisk, but my question is just, can’t one view a cave as some mouth in a mountain and see it as “swallowing” some obelisk which could be the Dead Sea scrolls that were put in some kind of pots (obelisk).  According to the author these obelisks are carrying the answer to the future for us apparently.  I don’t know, as it just seemed to me logical that one can perceive a cave also as a mouth in the mountain?  And this is the second (2) chapter in Bible Code 2 – and this gives us 2 2’s or 22.

 

LOVE

Renee

22/01/2006 14:51 and 5 (1 + 4) + 6 (5 + 1) = 11.

 

22/01/2006 15:49 or 3:13 or 313

 

Dear Lore

 

I am wondering what it is about this life, especially this time of the day, that seems to make life unbearable for me.  What is it that I am missing, is it something I am missing, what is it?

 

I am sitting here and feeling miserable and seems I cannot find the cause

 

Renee

22/01/2006 15:57 or 3:12 or 312 again. This letter ends the same time as the one on

the last one on the 20th has ended.  This gives that the end of the last on 20, is the same as the end of the last on 22.

 

 

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How Silly and Ridiculous does it Become when it come to the Word: SIN

July 5, 2008

12/01/2006 12:53 I am wondering what the 53 is indicating as I am getting the combination a lot of times now – I know they add up to 8, but what the combination imply I do not know and if it even imply something I do not know either.

 

This is Lor75 and 7 + 5 = 12 and Lor76 (in one)

 

Dear Lore

 

I woke up this morning busy with a strange dream – or maybe not that strange.  I was close to the sea, but in front of me a carnival was going on – the carnival of life it seems.  And behind it the sea was making the most beautiful waves in the sunlight.  And I was trying to take pictures of this – getting the carnival as well as the beautiful waves, in.  And with carnival, they had built vehicles that carry themes.  And at one stage I was watching one of these vehicles, which the theme was an elephant, but behind it the sea was doing something that scared me a bit – you know, the kind of scare I think one will have if that water were a tsunami type. But all the other waves I have witnessed and was beautiful was green and blue bright, with the sunlight on it, but they haven’t broken yet into the white like when waves brake, they look sort of whitish.  But behind this carnival elephant built vehicle, there came a huge wave, that was already broken – but the white part that has formed was enormous and it scared me a bit.  And I was thinking that we need to move to a higher place.  But all the people were so busy with the carnival that the sea and the waves had no impact on them.

And I wonder if life is not really like a carnival – aren’t we making a carnival of it anyway

But the most important thing about the dream was that I was trying to capture the beauty of the waves and the carnival on my camera.  But I do not think one can ever put the real beauty of the real thing onto a photograph.  And although I was trying to take all these photos – of moments in time – I was not satisfied with them.  But in the dream I never got to see the end result of these pictures that was taken.  So I cannot really explain why I was not satisfied with the pictures I took.  But I know the last scene I tried to capture was the vehicle with the elephant theme and behind it the tsunami type of wave behind it, on its way to it.  And I do associate knowledge with elephants. So maybe in this carnival of a life we are living, something like a tsunami is going to hit our theme of knowledge?

 

I don’t know – I just know that the water was never brown or dirty.  Even the one coming for the elephant theme vehicle was pure white.

 

Anyway, I just wanted to share this with you for now.

 

LOVE

Renee

12/01/2006 13:13 and when I see 13 I think of something Higher that is at work in this “carnival”.

 

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13/01/2006 20:12 turning 13

 

Dear Lore

 

There were something wrong with our Mnet now and my father called the company to fix it for us.  He tried to explain it to them and said that a other way round 3 and a 0 is showing on the little screen.  I looked at the screen and saw that it was actually an “E” and an “O” or 0.  Now I am wondering if that is where the 5 and 3 combination is connected to. As “E” is the 5th letter of the English alphabet combined with what my father called another way round 3.  But the guy on the other end could also have wondered – seeing my father called it an other way round 3 – if this is an “M” or if it could be a “W” as well.  But “M” is the 13th letter of the English alphabet (coincidentally also today’s date and turning up in the time as well) and the “W” I view as a double “V” and “V” is the 22nd letter of the English alphabet.

 

So connected with this other way round 3, we get the following possibilities:

 

  1. “E” or 5
  2. “M” or 13 (4 and where 4 is linked to 2 + 2 or 22)
  3. “W” or double “V” or (22 x 2 = 44)

 

I do not know what this means and if it means anything at all.

 

LOVE

Renee

13/01/2006 20:25 and 2 + 2 or 22 and a 5 and it seems the above 3 connections are linked to 22 and a 5

 

 

15/01/2006 or 06/01/06 again and 08:14 and 2 + 6 = 8 but 15 – 1 = 14 and it seems my friend Karina thinks my sums on the (-) and the (-1) thing are important and I need to speak out – I don’t know…

 

Dear Lore

 

I had the strangest dream last night – it was actually a bit scary.  There was this sheriff that the kids trusted to protect them.  And then there were this guy who it seems a lot were looking for – including this sheriff, to protect the kids in some or other way.  I do not know if this “guy” the people I was with were looking was some criminal, but it was sort of like it was some police people I was with.  Then we were not at the scene where the sheriff was anymore and I looked through a window and through another window and I saw this “guy” everyone was looking for. But although I knew that I saw this “guy” through the two windows, it did not feel as if there were windows between us.  And he looked at me and saw that I saw him.  And he looked like a type of Native American but what was strange about him was that he had this magician type hat (black) on his head – well, you do not really get them in white.  But this made some impression on me.  And then the other people and myself were hiding – in order to find this “guy” and I knew he was coming in our direction and as he got to us, the others were hiding their faces and then this “guy” shot me with a gun in my neck/throat.  And as I woke up, I still had this strange feeling in my neck/throat where I was shot.  It was on my right side of my neck/throat where I got shot.  And he said to me as he came to us before he shot me, that he is going to shoot me first.  But in the end he did not shoot the others.

 

Then, just before I woke up, I was at a very high position and could see mountains and mountains on the earth.  And I thought this strange thought that next time I would want to be able to fly across those mountains as those mountains are huge obstacles for humans to get over as humans are so small in relation to those mountains. But the mountains were beautiful.

 

Well, just wanted to share this strange dream with you – it seemed for a while the dreams were quiet, but the previous night I had also strange dreams and in that one eventually the kids had to stop playing and go to their homes because I found a leopard (panther) who was camouflaging itself – and the kids were not impressed that they had to stop playing.  But a lot of them were so dirty – especially the one who I passed to move them in the direction of their homes.

 

Anyway…

 

LOVE

Renee

15/01/2006 08:29 and the time added gives a 19 which is linked to beginnings and ends.

 

15/01/2006 09:40

 

Dear Lore

 

I was just thinking of how the world either agree with some things or disagree about some things – and seeing the dual world, that is probably how it is suppose to be.  And I thought to myself, but anything is possible – but then I started to wonder about that statement that anything is possible?  Because the opposite of possibility is impossibility, and if anything is possible, then there would be no space for something to be impossible as everything (enclosed in anything) is already linked with being possible.  If anything is possible, can impossibility have any existence at all?  People believe that with God, everything is possible. But wouldn’t the inverse of this statement would then be, but nothing is impossible – which is saying that the only thing that is impossible is nothing.  Nothing is the only impossibility – that is if everything is possible. 

I don’t know, this is confusing…

 

LOVE

Renee

15/01/2006 09:46 or 09:10 or 91 now, the inverse of the end of the previous letter – as that letter ended on 19 and this one on 91.

 

 

16/01/2006 09:53 and I have wondered about this 53 since the beginning of Lor75 and even thought there was some sort of answer in one of the other letters in Lor75.  But yesterday I heard on the TV accidentally that someone was multiplying 3 and 5 or 5 and 3 which gives 15.  And what was the dream I had on the 15th? 

 

Dear Lore

 

Yes, and yesterday was the 15th and it was Sunday and on the front page of the Sunday Times they had a small article about the Vatican that want to change the perspective the church had about Judas Iskariot all these years.  Apparently they do not want to deal with him as a person of treason, but as one who only played out his role in God’s Plan.

 

As I read this I send my friend Len an sms and said to him I know what they are going to put up with should they take on this interpretation.  In short it will come down to that Judas was only a puppet in the God’s Plan.  If you widen this perception and all are merely “puppets” in God’s Plan, where do sins come in – how can we be sinning if we are “puppets” in God’s Plan?  I am wondering what will happen to the church if this happen – if their interpretation leave them to one conclusion, and that is that what they are based on, namely sins, does not exist – this sounds if it could get into a catch 22 situation should the church decide to see Judas in a different light.  And I wonder if they do not want to see him in a different light because they feel they are judging him and they do not want to do the judging thing anymore.

 

And all this also happened on the 15th.  I think it is just, according to the Bible Jesus knew that Judas was going to do what he did.  That shows that Jesus knew something in the future and then the question for me is, if it was something already in the future and Jesus knew upfront, how could Judas have been responsible for his actions if it was his fate?

 

And my friend Karina says that one is actually sinning if you make a choice what is against what your destiny is.  This will put so much strain on people – I know as I have been there, it gets to a point where you do not know what you are suppose to do even every nano second.  How can we know?  I got to such point in beginning 2004 that I was lying in anguish on the bed not even knowing when to blink my eyes to just do what my destiny is to do!  But that is the extreme it can reach if you think that it is up to yourself to comply to your destiny.  And if I look at the Judas story, Jesus knew for sure that Judas was going to do what his fate was – how could Jesus have been so sure of that if it still was up to Judas to still decide if he was going to do it or not?  If the possibility was still out there that Judas could have made a choice still – how could Jesus have made the claim he made that someone was going to give him away.  How could Jesus have made the claim that his most truest follower was going to deny that he knows Jesus 3 times and that the chicken was going to make a noise about that.  So how did the chicken know what he was suppose to be doing in God’s Plan?  What if he did not make the noise like Jesus predicted, would he then have sinned?  This sound a bit ridiculous to me.

 

Anyway, everybody are allowed probably to believe what they want – it is just, the things does not make sense to me.  But at least it seems the Catholic Church is moving in a very new direction.  If I take what the Afrikaans churches are up to – they are still way behind as they are all still deciding how to interpret certain events in life to know what is sins according to what God is all about in the Bible and what not. Or maybe there is not that much difference?   As it seems they are all busy with interpreting what God want us to do?  I guess the only thing different from the Vatican and the Afrikaans churches, is that I want to see who of them is first going to come to realize but they have a problem – the Word that is suppose to tell them all about God is only confusing them?

 

LOVE

Renee

16/01/2006 10:26 and today is the 16, the combination that is linked to you and Linda and then we are left with a 01 (in the date) and a 10 (in the time) and a 2 and a 6 in both the date and the time.  

 

16/01/2006 10:54 or 19 the result of time

 

Dear Lore

 

I was just thinking now and wondering.  My friend Karina also said that it is for humanity to evolve.  But so much of what we do goes in circles.  We have clocks and we say they go clockwise, but we have the concept what anti clockwise is.  That is when the clock does not go in the direction it is suppose to be going.  But we even see that the planet is going around (and around imply a circle) its own axis.  What if we are getting to a polar flip and the earth stop and start going in the other direction?  Not only our planet is going around its own axis, it is also in ecliptical way going around the sun and the sun in some circular way around in the milky way…and so it carries on.

 

But what is troubling me now is that in Afrikaans, if your reasoning are not getting you anywhere or to any conclusion, they will say you are like a “fitter” going around your own axis – so it is linked that there is no evolution if you are only going around in a circle all the time.

I just hope this is not applicable to the Universe – as it seems everything is going around something.  Even if it is in an eclipse, it is still some form of circular movement.

I am wondering if we are really in an evolving Universe, or are we in a dying one? There are signs of new stars being born, but ours, our Sun, is dying – once a star is born, it starts the cycle to end up burnt out.  Where is the evolution if all is caught in this cycle? And what else is a cycle than movement in a circular way?  If we take on small scale and look at ourselves, what has humanity evolutionised into?  Are we out of that cycle of beginning and end?

I don’t know, it is all just making me depressed and making the small thing about interpretation look ridiculously to keep ourselves busy with.  And what does fate  matter if we look at the microcosmos?  AND this is if we can trust what the scientists are telling us that they pick up signals that new stars are born and that our sun will eventually burn out and that we are moving ecliptic round the sun and the sun in an ecliptic way in the milky way.  Maybe that is why I saw that paper drifting off in space that once meant life.  And I know that rebbe Nachman shows that God is seen as in a circle and making space for us, for creation, within God Self, within the circle.  But I do not know how true this “conceptualisation” of God can be, as a circle seems limiting to me – and if I view eternity, there is a clash.  An eternity within the boundaries of a circle?  But the only thing at the moment that makes sense (even with the interpretation sillyness we are dealing with on the planet) is all is making no sense.  I guess if we have sense we have to have something that makes no sense – just in this instance everything is linked to no sense and that the only thing that makes sense is nothing. And I remember a phrase about the Underlying Force of the universe that was said is the only one not to get caught up in the illusion. (That was still when I was looking up about the parrot and it is mentioned in a previous letter)  And I was wondering what this illusion was all about.  And my question is now, does an illusion make sense?  We are in the no sense part, but nothing makes sense, or, the Underlying Force of the Universe do not get caught up in the illusion, or makes sense of everything that is not making sense to me at all.  And that place I told you about in one of my previous letters, where I was in a place where “I” did not even exist, it was peaceful and there were nothing and there were not these endless questions about these clashing things, these things that made no sense.  There, there were no bother with sense anymore.

 

There is no sense in this reality that make sense – and what do one do when you make something?

 

LOVE

Renee

16/01/2006 11:20 or 02:20

 

17/01/2006 09:34 and 3 times 4 equal 12, but today – not taking the year in account – is 17(0)1. The 1 and 7 combination both ways.

 

Dear Lore

 

I just thought to share this before I mail this letter to you.  As I was writing the letter just before this one, yesterday, my father arrived home for no reason at all and he was irritating me because I was concentrating on something it seemed.  Then he even went as far as to whistle and talk to the dogs that even irritated me more.  And to put the cherry on the cake, he then tries to phone my mother, but for some or other reason he accidentally phones me…

 

But something that my father was here while I was writing that letter yesterday, has got something to do with it – because normally if something irritates me tremendously, it seems it needs my attention as that situation is trying to say something.

 

And I had these dreams again last night, or rather this morning as it was before I woke up.  There was a blue lizard and some crocodiles coming to me at some stage in my dream.  And then I walked beneath a tree – actually two trees eventually – and each time the tree consisted of spiders.  And I read up in the “Animal Speak” book I have about these animals and it seems they all have something to do with the feminine energies and creativity.  But I guess the true meaning will come in later if it is necessary at all to understand it better than just what I now mentioned.

 

Anyway, I was actually writing this letter primarily to tell you about the incident with my father yesterday – and Lore, there is a lot going on in this house at this time. A lot that I do not know what to make of…

LOVE

Renee

17/01/2006 09:44 and this complete the 1 and 7 combination, both ways, with the connection to the 44 as well in this end.  And by now you know what the 1 and 7 and 44 is connected to…the Hebrew name of God meaning “I will be revealed at ever greater levels”.

 

 

Ns.  You will see at the beginning of this letter it says this is Lor75 and Lor76.  If you add 75 + 76 = 151 and this seems to be important the 1 and 5 combination as to the dream I had on the 15th that is shared with you in this Lor75+76.  That must be a very important dream as never before did I my head want me to do this – add two Lore’s like this one was done.  That was the dream about the man with the magician hat and that shot me in my right neck./throat, the one I saw through two windows – and although there were windows, there were nothing between those windows. Also is this “ns” not written with any number time frame – like my letters usually do.  So this makes this letter also unusual.  Why?  I do not know the answer to that – though I would like to…       

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We Think we Know, because of Words?

May 30, 2008

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(11/01/2006 10:47 and 4 + 7 = 11, what this letter starts with. And 01 + 2 + 6 = 9 which give us for today an 11/9

This is Lore74

Dear Lor

The last few previous letters was all about words – or had to do with words in one way or the other (I know every letter is about words as what else are you reading than words – but there were spesific areas of words that came up).

On Sunday I spoke to my mom about the woman on the Afrikaans channel of Dstv who try to help people to interpret their dreams. But something about that is still bothering me. She is telling the people that “…hiermee se die Here dit vir jou”, “…en daarmee se die Here dat vir jou”. I am only taking examples now, but that is what it basically comes down to. But, as I said, she is only trying to help the people to understand what God want to tell them in their dreams. And I cannot exactly put my finger on what about it is troubling me – as her intentions is only for the highest good of the people she is trying to help. But it is the same with another woman who held some music show one day at the Spar. She praised God and then she will say: “En die Here het vanoggend vir my dit gese…”

And on Sunday, as I spoke to my mother about all this and tried to figure out what it is that is bothering me (sometimes when something is bothering me it does not necessarily mean it is “wrong” – most of the times it is only to focus my attention on it as there may be a lesson in). And I said to my mom I wonder if these people realize that they are making a claim that they know what God is trying to say – in that way, they know so much about God that they can tell people that God is trying to tell the person this or what ever. My mother’s comment was that it sounds like the “dominees”, as they also claim that God is saying this or that to people in this or that text in the Bible. And I wonder if it now all comes down to that they are all claiming they know God? And I remember as a child the “dominee” telling us that we can know God by God’s Word, the Bible. And I cannot understand what about that is troubling me so much – could it be that I do not believe them?
If we are to know God by God’s Word (the Bible), then God is most confusing as words are confusing. So the big question is actually, how can they KNOW God, if they disagree about how to interpret the words that are suppose to tell them about God? And I think the hilarious extreme is when they start voting (the preachers and leaders of the church) about which interpretation is correct and which not about problems that arise in the churches! This really says a lot about knowing God by God’s Word, the Bible.

And I don’t know why, but I am thinking of an incident now where there were drama in our house while I was still working in the bank. (And I always thought, while I was still at university, that one can only be a true philosopher through/by experience). And the one woman I worked with came over to our house and she suggested that I find God in the Bible – and my answer to that was that (and this is what it came down to) I will not find God there, but I believe in philosophy there might be more of a chance. At least philosophy acknowledges how confusing words can be. And I look at how the churches are battling to interpret what God’s Will is from the Word they were given and from which they are suppose to know God from. And isn’t this a battle – and I wonder if the churches even realize how confused they get? Maybe they are so busy with all the confusement, that they do not realize the confusement.

But that is besides the point now. That was long ago. But the other evening my tongue was giving me trouble – the doctor told me we have thousands of receptors on our tongues, and sometimes it drives me nuts how uncomfortable I feel because I am intense aware of these receptors. And this especially happens when I am having logic with my head and writing it down to you. So, as my tongue was a problem the other night again, I went to Rebbe Nachman of Breslov’s Anatomy of the Soul and looked up what the rebbe has to say about the tongue. And what shall I find, that the Rebbe talks of a Holy Tongue where it is mentioned that if the Rebbe is speaking of the Holy Tongue, he refers to the use of speech for holy purposes. This is just linking the tongue with words/speech. This part about the tongue and what goes with it is a part of when the Mashiach come and the Rebbe claim that when the Mashiach come, this will be “When speech is purified, and will become the speech of faith. So it seems even the Rebbe is setting an indication that when the Messiah come, this word thing will be addressed. So, who knows, maybe the Messiah will come and give us clarity on all these words and word related confusement and which is causing so much trouble because of that confusement. (And the part about the Holy Tongue and the Mashiach is on page 275 – 278.

1. 275 gives a 2 and a 7 + 5 = 12 or 212
2. 278 gives a 2 + 7 = 9 + 8 = 17.

And the last paragraph on page 278 states:
“Currently, man’s speech is imperfect. When all mankind turns to God, then speech will be perfected, as in (Zephaniah 3:9) ‘Then I will convert all the nations to a clear tongue, that they may all call out to God to serve Him of one accord’(Likutery Moharan I, 66:3).”
And this is on the page that adds up to 17 – where 17 is linked to the Hebrew name of God that means: “I will be revealed at ever greater levels”.

I was at university always very intrigued by Nietzche’s little story about the madman that ran out on the plain one night with a lantern and was shouting: God is dead, we killed God. And then also NP van Wyk Louw who have an SA on how we build walls around truths with our words and interpretations of words. Like in, how do you get to the original, the first and most clear of the concept that was underlying the words it was build with – followed by interpretations of those words…

I wonder, as these are all just words again…

LOVE
Renee
11/01/2006 12:48 and 4 + 8 = 12 which gives 12:12.

11/01/2006 16:16

Dear Lore

This is the second letter of Lore74.

But I just want to share something with you. Some very coincidental thing that happened this afternoon. If you look at the first letter of Lore74 you will see there is reference after the 5th paragraph of a (1) and (2) and I repeat them word and number for word and number now:

1. 275 gives a 2 and a 7 + 5 = 12 or 212
2. 278 gives a 2 + 7 = 9 + 8 = 17.

But now, this afternoon I was phoning from the yellow pages to see if I can get people who would be interested to join in Business Club. And

1. on page 212 I found an add of a company with a panther as logo and I phoned
2. at time 15:17

And it turned out that the owner of the company is Lorraine. Then I could not speak to her on the number I had phoned the first time when I found that Lorraine is the owner, and the second call I made was at 15:18 which gives 15 as 1 + 8 = 9 and 15 + 9 = 15. And do you remember how you asked me if 1 + 5 does not equal 6 and I said no, it is the combination of two air numbers, namely 1 and 5. But can you see how the (1) and (2) parts of the first letter links with this strange happening this afternoon?

It is also interesting that the logo of the company is a panther – seeing I had the dream of those two panthers and wrote to you about it and quoted what the symbolism of panthers are.

What do you make of this?

LOVE
Renee
11/01/2006 16:29 and 2 + 9 = 11 and this end minutes is exactly the day of which each letter starts with, the first and the second, namely 11.

Ns. Hidden behind safety bars at the back of the page where Lorraine’s company is advertised, is the eyes and nose of the face of a lion.