The Dark only Appears to be Dark.
July 5, 200824/01/2006 16:43 probably turning 44. And the amount outstanding on my dog’s account at the vet is R444.
This is Lor78
Dear Lore
I just read in the newspaper now about a minister who is with the Afrikaans AP Church and who is suing another woman because his wife has left him. Apparently this other woman has also now put in a claim against him. I am wondering how far is suing one another going to bring us. I remember while I was still in the police how people threatened to sue us – for money, but maybe sueing only appears to be not helpful to create a better society as it seems there is a lot more to appearances than we think.
And I spoke to Esteban this morning and I told him about a friend of mine who was murdered and Esteban said: It is time for Jesus to come back and clean up this mess! Well, I hope for Jesus’ sake that He would be able to get to all these fine, not really noticeable little messes we are sitting with as well – as they may only appear as being a mess. Like the one above where we use words, like I described to you in previous letters, and interpretations of words to do what? It is just strange that the above situation involves a minister in an Afrikaans church. Remember, long time ago I told you about the tarentale and the two who was stuck on the church grounds? It seems it is even going wider in this situation as the guy is a minister and he is using the words in a law perspective – this should be interesting!
(Seems I forgot to put and end to this letter…)
25/01/2006 13:40 or 04:40 or (0)44(0) or the inverses again
Dear Lore
My head thinks that me and Len and Karina are very amusing. As we are totally in the dark about what is going on. Well, I am glad we are amusing to someone else, I love amusing things. But isn’t it strange that one use the word “dark” in the sense of where one does not know what is going on? And what came up now while I was lying one the bed thinking about this, is that the Bible says that Jesus was not overcome by darkness – could one now interpret it also in this way, that Jesus actually got to a point where he understood something (maybe the situation he was in) and a light bulb went on? Understanding his task? See, how many interpretations can be made of single events or words in the Bible!
Speaking of Jesus, the other night you brought a candle again into my inner world and then that candle was put right underneath the cross – the point in the Southern Cross stars that is the point of reference for the direction in our night sky, and for that direction you need Alpha and Beta Centauri as well (this gives us a 1 and 2 or 12 or 21 also) – and this little candle set the cross on fire. And whenever I look at it in my inner world, I can see it still burning. (It was on the 22/01/2006 and started writing at 19:21 and ended 19:22.)
So a cross is on fire – and if this has any meaning, I do not have a clue! Maybe that is why my head finds it funny that me and Len and Karina are all in the dark. But keeps me in the dark, and full of questions is that the concept of fire is constantly referred to in the past few days. What is it about fire that I am not seeing? (If it is possible to be so in the dark that not even a fire – light – can be seen??) I know I burn these letters to you on a CD, but in the same sentence of hell, my father is mentioned?
I don’t know, everything is so confusing…
LOVE
Renee
25/01/2006 14:29 It seems there is nothing to do about the time or the date except maybe that it was last year this time that I paid in the first amount for Marah, the White Lion that Linda Tucker is taking care of. The second payment was done tomorrow exactly also one year ago.
25/01/2006 15:00 and do you remember the conversation about these two numbers, 1 and 5? And we had this conversation when me and Len came from Linda Tucker. And exactly one year ago…as I explained at the top.
Dear Lore
I feel stuck. And it seems I must try and avoid thinking of the routine thing – it makes me depressed. And I am wondering, they always say that change is as good as a holyday, maybe the world needs change? But I wonder if we are not constantly changing anyway? Maybe I need a holli jolli holliday?
LOVE
Renee
25/01/2006 15:05 or 6 (1+5) and 5 – and if we view today’s date, we have a 25 and 2006, the 2 days I paid in Marah’s money, but if you take that 2 (of the days) out of the 25 and 26 of today, you are left with the time or a 6 and a 5 and just the other way around of 25 and 26 or without, 5 and 6.
Ns…meanwhile I forget the illusion of everything which only have an appearance of reality. (This is from another letter that starts at 25/01/2006 18:25 and this letter ends at 25/01/2006 18:41 and it is a letter to God, no 159)
25/01/2006 19:19
Dear Lore
Something strange happened since last week Wednesday, 18/01/2006 till today. I went to see a psychologist on 18th. That date has been arranged about 2 weeks before the 18th, and I was wondering about why would it take so long before I get to see her. Her name is Linnea Potgieter. Her add in the Yellow Pages is row 4 the 4th one which gives a 44.
Then, after I made the appointment, I realized but that is the day my period is suppose to start. Anyway, on the 18th, after I saw her I came home and not much later, I got an sms from Ronel and I was still busy thinking about this sms when my friend called me up and told me that Annemarie Potgieter, a friend of ours whom we worked with, has died – she was killed. This was a terrible shock. And after I spoke with my friend on the phone, I got an sms from Carol. Then I realized that the woman I was with earlier the afternoon is also Potgieter. (And Linnea means it has something to do with classification). What also happened, was during the morning of 18/01/2006, the cleaning services were here and I was with the dogs when I felt a very slight earth tremor. And I ran out of the room and asked if they felt it as well and one lady also felt it. But even more peculier, on Thursday, my mom phones me up and ask me what a hypnotherapist is as Liesl, who’s mom is a friend of Linda Tuckers’, want to go and see someone – and guess who Liesl decided on to go to? Yes, coincidentally it is Linnea Potgieter. So Monday was her appointment and she asked my mom if we would go and drop her there after work.
But what is more questionable, is that Annemarie died on the same day as Anton Rupert, and they got buried on the same day, today, 25/01/2006.
Again, I am asking myself if all this “strange” events has any meaning? Isn’t it just all events that have no connection at all? You once said to me: everything just is…
So maybe it just appears to be connected – but isn’t everything connected anyway?
Even if I try, I cannot make any sense of anything of the above as it is as you say, everything just is…
LOVE
Renee
25/01/2006 19:33 and 1 + 9 = 1 and 3 + 3 = 6 or 16, the number I associate with you and more specifically, Linda Tucker.
26/01/2006 15:43 and 4 times 3 equal 12, which gives 312 again (What is it with this connection with Marion?)
Dear Lore
I am ill of worries about you, where you are. And then this link with Marion that comes up all the time. What is it all about?
Anyway, I just want to share a dream with you again, and it seems I give the dreams more reality when I write about them. I dreamt I was at some college or something, some school and Len was a teacher there. But I was busy with some mind twister (do you still remember these “Kubus” blocks you got that you had to get all the colours on their own side?) and this twister was something that had also stickers on with a colour, but it also had numbers. But there were two and they were linked with a plastic arm that was made of the same cream coloured plastic, these mind twisters were made of.
Then I was on the top floor of a building and there were a huge opening, which were suppose to have a window, but it did not – and because it was so high, I was scared Charlie was going to fall out as he was with me, but I realized it cannot happen as I had him on a leash. But we passed this hole without one of us falling out.
Just thought I’d share this with you – hoping to feel better soon…
LOVE
Renee
26/01/2006 or 26/01/26 with (0)(0) taken out. 15:51 – and this was the end time of the letter that Linnea, the psychologist also chose (I asked her that day on 18th to just open the bind letters on any page and she opened it on the last part of the letter on 15/10/2005 and the end time of that letter, where she opened it on, was 15:51) And this letter is also Lor78 and 7 + 8 = 15.
26/01/2006 or 26/01/26 with (0)(0) a bit on the side. 21:21
Dear Lore
I do not understand what is going on – especially with the above time being 9:9. Maybe this is important – I don’t know.
I have this trouble at the end of the day. I thought it has got something to do with the dusk theme, but my head just showed me that if it is dusk for me, it is dawn for someone else and vice versa. So why should especially dusk be a problem for me, as for someone else it is dawn. What am I actually saying here?
Anyway, maybe I’ll understand later..
LOVE
Renee
26/01/26 (0)(0) 21:30 or 03:30 or 9 + 3 = 12, the inverse of 21
27/01/2006 00:56 and date starts with (2+7) or 9 and time ends with (5+6) or 11.
Dear Lore
I cannot sleep. Even though I took a lot of tablets already. Sometimes it seems tablets have got no effect on me – no matter how strong.
Lore, I do not know if you read this letter, or shall I rather say these letters, but I feel I have seen a GREATNESS again tonight. I was watching a program on TV2, which my mother focused my attention on and said I should tape it, and was astounded. What it came down to was that there is a thing they call global dimming. The paradox of global warming, and it seemed this global dimming protected us in a great way from global warming! But the problems about this aspects do not seem to be in the nearby future. But another paradox – and a huge one which was never detected by the scientific crowd, except for a few scientist on strategic places. And this tells all that we do not have to fear what lies ahead, as if these scientists were put in strategic places and if I also take for instance the money thing and the levels it function on and how certain people and structures were put in place for that, I do think the process will be made as easy as possible for us in this 3D reality.
The other night I had the feeling as if there was shuffling around been going on and certain beings been put in strategic positions – do you think we must expect huge change? Well, I just want to know if you and Marion are ok at this stage…
Yes, and I was feeling so heavy on the 26th, as if I cannot even lift myself off the couch, and at night time I should discover the huge fire on Table Mountain – and when I spoke to a friend in the city she said to me that at that stage the fire was all around Lions Head. I wonder if this is linked to Marah in some way, as my friend Karina wanted me to watch the news to see about Koeberg that is only 50% active and the rest of Cape towns power is coming from Mpumalanga, where Marah and Maria and Linda is. Now as you know is Koeberg nuclear power. But they have had problems with the two reactors now for quite a while.
Anyway, I will speak to you again..
LOVE
Renee
27/01/2006 01:10 turning 01:11am
27/01/2006 and 2 + 7 = 9 and 1 + 2 + 6 = 9. And time is 12:07 turning 8 and isn’t this letter Lor78?
Dear Lore
It seems I was on the wrong track by saying that the sun is ecliptic moving around something as well – and for that matter our galaxy. I had no right to say that, in fact, my head showed me now that for one:
- What is the sun and other stars then circling around – what is in the center?
- I just remembered our Science professor at University in the physics class telling us that with certain photography the scientists were experimenting, it looks like all the stars are moving away from one another.
But now my question is just, if that is true, that all the stars are moving away from one another – and I still remember he brought a balloon to the class to explain this, as he put dots on the balloon and then put air in the balloon and all the dots were moving away from one another – why are our star signs like Orion and Scorpio and Canis Major and Canis Minor still in tact for us to see them. And they still seem in shape to me.
So it just seems, I have no clue what I am talking about and what I was talking about. But what I am wondering, is if the scientists know, really know? As for how long has scientists ignored the guy who discovered the global dimming – as they thought what they were believing to be global warming was more logical? And at the time they believed global warming to be a danger, that was what made sense – when this other guy came with proof that interfered with their logic, they disregard him as his statistics did not fit in with their beliefs. And with only this one example, I wonder how much have been taken for granted because of beliefs the science community have that makes sense to them, that is in actual fact something else?
Then another question that my head showed me this morning is that my attention was focused on something I once read about one of the great scientists who claimed that what was going on on our planet and solar system, is on small scale what is Universal? And just the mere question I had about the sun not having the same perception than we have about time, makes me now question that as well. As this is only in our solar system that we have classified the sun under our conditions – meanwhile it might not be like that at all (and the example of this is the time concept I discussed in another letter)? From the sun’s point of view, it might be something totally different? But I wonder how many things have a certain appearance to us, to science, that is like the Universe, it only appears to be dark, if you take a piece of it, what colour is it, has it got any colour at all? But for us the Universe appears to be dark…
Anyway, last night was an eye opener that with all our “pollution”, it actually saved us. Health experts tells us this is healthy and that not, but I think of the pill thing and remember an article I read in the “De Kat” – where a doctor prescribed a new medicine for some guy who was in a coma. Then this guy came out of his coma and later on went back into his coma. Eventually they discovered that this medicine that was given for something totally different, was helping this guy and activating the part of his brain where he was in a coma, to get out of it. And the moment the pill was worked out, the guy will fall into his coma again. So maybe there is something good in something that many will see as bad – I for one has now learnt that lesson.
But what fascinates me is that all this stuff that is happening, all these questions I am asking, all keeps us in 3D and on the planet. But if I look at all the underlying stuff that clashes and do not make sense, leaving this world or 3D reality with the only thing that makes sense is nothing, though we think all makes sense, meanwhile it is all one big illusion. But I guess being in this 3D can be nice – especially if all these clashes/paradoxes are shown and I realize how mysterious God really is.
My question is just – how can we claim that we can know God, even if it is from the Bible? The Christians for instance makes a study (like scientists) of interpreting the Bible, and how many obvious appearances they make from words, or what these scientists of the Bible think those appearances are, is actually fooling them as it is exactly what it says, it has a certain appearance? How can we know what lies behind the appearance?
I was just lying and thinking now, for us at this stage we see ourselves that we have trashed the planet, because of global warming. But with the discovery of global dimming my question is just – were we not led to what we thought was trashing the planet, in order to give us a longer time of existence, like that all the industries and all the pollution causes have been institutionalised because of a Plan, a Divine Plan. As if it was not for (what we think) us trashing the planet, we would have been gone long time ago with global warming – and this is very literally a view in 3D reality. So what seemed to have been a bad thing that mankind did, was actually a good thing? That is if you view that 3D reality and being in it is a good thing. So something had a bad appearance, but underlying it seems to have been a good thing. But I do not know if you remember the letter about catch 22 situations, as it seems scientists do not really know if we must now carry on with the pollution (seeing it is saving us from global warming in a way) or what should we do about it? This is such an excellent phenomenon!
I just feel this appearance thing is of some importance…because even what we might think is a 3D reality, might be an appearance.
LOVE
Renee
27/01/2006 12:49 or 313 and the date as shown in the beginning is 9 and 9.
27/01/2006 14:41
Dear Lore (and this time thing just amaze me each and every time)
I had a strange night last night. After I wrote to you, and went and lie down again – hoping to fall asleep. But nothing happened. But I am aware of a phase where I was not aware of my room, but I also was not asleep (do not know what to call that experience). All I was aware of was the word “lion shamanism”. Then at about 4:00am I got up and made myself something to drink and then it seemed I fell a bit asleep. But then I dreamt I was at my psychologist in Pretoria again, only her hair was still fair, but it was more reddish than blondish.
But what a strange day it was yesterday – I am feeling a lot lighter today than yesterday – I guess I felt like that fire that was on Lion’s Head next to Table Mountain. But I got through it and that is all that matters it seems – I don’t know?
Anyway, do not know when this letter is going to be ready to be sent to you…
LOVE
Renee
27/01/2006 14:46 or 14:10 or 141(0).
Ns. 27/01/2006 15:34 and 3 times 4 equal 12 and gives 312 again and again I ask you to please let me know, this time I am asking directly, if you and Marion are ok! Why does it appear all the time, the time and 312 that is linked to Marion and for that reason you?
