The start of the Seek for Answers after the Darkness about the Darkness.

Lore70 .

 

 

28/12/2005 21:56 or 9:11

 

This is Lore70

 

Dear Lore

 

 

I think that maybe what I do want to know is where in the Universe is negative infinity situated?

 

The other night a being, which only reflected a head and a right hand with the palm to the top, revealed itself to me.  She was wearing a “kappie” and then she revealed her face which was part woman and part “cat like”.  And she told me that she is eternity.  And I cried because I felt so sorry for her because she can never die – as the mere fact that she is infinitively (eternity), causes her to live/exist forever.  But then she showed me that she has a hand and from the palm of this hand come – like in a beam, a source of life.  How many times life came and was created and in how many different ways I have not been told, but then it seems there is the dimension from where she was created and I was told that that is the place I have been to in hospital.  And the more I think about it the more it makes sense that it could have been the Oneness or heaven, as when I returned back from that state of awareness which some people has said to me was a near death experience, I thought I died and was then/now in hell.  But the reason I thought this was hell was because I misunderstood what happened in the medical ward – as it was actually a miracle performed to have a movie on the tv of someone getting shot and the bullet going slowly in all kinds of directions in this guy’s body.  Then the nurse changed the channel and suddenly there were these people having a philosophical debate about God.  This stirred as I knew my mother wanted to keep me from philosophy as she thought it was an illness – though for some part of my life that is all I wanted to be – a philosopher.  And especially in the direction of the question of God.  And then the nurse came to change the channel again and on the tv was my dog – or a dog that looks exactly like my dog.  And I thought I was going crazy, mean while, it was a miracle trying to tell me something. 

And the weird thing is, since University, my passion was philosophy – which I put aside because my mother thought my thoughts about philosophy was an illness and made me ill.  And it seems that is what I enjoy most now, the “logic” my head and I are doing.  And is my dog important?  Very, as in symbolism my dog plays a huge part

 

LOVE

Renee

28/12/2005 22:20 but my cell is 11mins behind so time actually 22:31 or in another form 22:22  

 

 

 

29/12/2005 20:41

 

Dear Lor

 

This letter I deleted as it contained words that is part of the old systems.  Seems around the globe we are struggling with those systems that are still having an effect on us.  In my own little way I do not want to give way for those systems to have an effect on me anymore.  I do not want to get caught up in words which are the fuse for those systems and what they cause.

 

LOVE

Renee

29/12/2005 20:55

 

 

The Brilliance of Catch22 situations – causing chaos! We caused ourselves to fool ourselves.

Lore69 .

 

 

12/12/2005 07:34 or 7:7 and 12/12/7, another 7, but 34 and also resembles 12 remember (the 4 pieces of rose quarts for the 3 of us) which also gives us not only three 7’s but three 12’s as well.

 

This is Lore69

 

Dear Lore

 

I have been reading the newspapers the past few years from time to time, but lately especially certain stuff.  And in my own life I have been confronted with the following:

 

It seems society has set up rules with words.  You can call them rules/beliefs. And it seems they are based on words written and being interpreted – in some instances for ages and ages.  In some instances there has even been the translation of words into other languages.  I wonder if we always realize what this do?  One word in one language may have a total different concept in the next, though it may be its translation.  I listen to my parents for instance who doesn’t trust the church anymore because they are going to translate the Bible for instance now again.  My mother asks how many sins are now not going to be sins anymore that were sins in the previous translations?  My mother think they translate the Bible the way they want to interpret it – or the way it is necessary in this day and age for it to be translated to fit in with our day and age.  (I think the worst case scenario is when the Afrikaans churches are going to vote in 2007 if being gay is a sin)

 

But I am not only talking about religious issues.  That we have had for ages already in philosophy with the department in philosophy called hermeneutics.  But look at our shops – my mother tells me at Woolworths they advertised a card and she phoned them up and said she applied and it was given to her, but she hasn’t received it yet.  So they said to her, but she has not accepted it yet.  And this she could not understand and I said to her but it is because it is getting to a technical issue to Woolworths that she must “accept” the card via phone or what ever, so they have proof of that so that in the end it could not become a point of making her not liable for the card.  Like in the court – or in the law.  And then I read of this man – even though everybody is trying to be very “perfect” in their way of dealing with words to create technicalities that will protect them – in the newspaper who cannot go to jail.  And he is also just using words.  He says to the court that he has claustrophobia and if he’d be put in jail, he will totally loose it all (psychologically) – and his family is ready to sue the court if that happens as his jail sentence is suppose to be a year or so.  What happens if he “looses” it all in there and he comes out and he, because of that, cannot support his family anymore? (See, another little belief they (the family) have – the man has to support the family, and that makes it more complicated as each culture has its own beliefs as well and this might not necessarily apply to another culture).  So they (the family of the person being prosecuted) use the words/technicalities being put in place

for the justice, to suit them and to let the justice system be in a catch 22 situation because of its (the justice system’s) own words and technicalities in existence.

 

But what is happening?  I hear everybody complaining as to what is the world becoming to?  And I have not even mentioned all the levels of where these rules/beliefs with words gets to points of ridiculousness.  But why are people complaining?  Because most of them, in some way or the other, get caught with these technicalities!

Then they get confronted with the system and they feel treated unfair by the system of technicalities.  But around the corner they use the exact system of technicalities to their own advance.  But why is this happening?  Why are the systems getting to such stage where an supposedly innocent gets maltreated by the technicalities and no one person is responsible when that innocent party gets maltreated.  And this is not only in business, it is all over – even in religious belief as even spiritual people create technicalities with their ideas been put in words and other trying to live up to that to also get to what the word writer’s words said.  (And this is just as sad as when their lives turn out different, they wonder but what did I do wrong and develop guilt feelings)

 

I myself think that the systems are reaching these levels for a certain reason.  For us to take notice of the power of words, in a sense.  Maybe there are gay people so that the churches can realize but words don’t give them the answer to everything anymore – like they used to believe for ages!  But do the churches see the catch 22 situation they landed in?

 

 

Remember I told you I once saw a paper drifting off in space – that once meant life.  That was while I was still at University. (And if I look at the little issues that the so called lecturers of Stellenbosch are having without noticing that all is a sign of the times and not getting out of that little issues and realizing how words have forced them into that issues, I am very glad I was not good enough for them to register for Honns in Philosophy – as I do not want to be part of such little issues being created by words and not realize what all is actually about)  I really see Devine interference in the whole set up that words and the issues it is causing, are causing.  A lot has come into this world to give the world a wake up call!  Look at Saddam Hoesein the day he decided not to appear in court!  I thought it was very funny actually – as with all their word power, how were they going to get him back in there?  And the ones who were the most clever were America, who tried to get hold of all their “word experts” on court matters.  But to sketch a little scenario from this:  if he is not in court and gets sentenced, it will get down to an innocent man going to jail, as he was not in court.  As who got sentenced, a name?  So if a person must go and sit in jail, while a name got sentenced, then it will be innocently – and so you can play around with words.  Isn’t it amazing how the words that were invented for justice will be used to put a not innocent, but now innocent man in jail. Can you see this brilliance?  How all the clever words/technicalities have caused this scenario to have the ability to become a reality.  I just think it is amazing. Another real catch 22 situation.

 

But anyway, I guess I am also writing a lot of words. But what is the answer to all this?  Sometimes I think there is even a reason why we have become to be 6.5 billion people on the planet – partly for all of this to happen as it is qui5e fun to get out of the issues that words cause and realize that all the havoc these issues are causing and people getting caught up in it and not realizing it and still fighting a little fight with the words in that issue are brilliant catch 22 situations with the structures these words have implemented.  It is like I said to my friend the other night that how much did Greg Kebble accomplish.  And she said but he was a crook!  I said to her no, he showed us something very special – he was able to let mine towers fall within a few years time and he actually came from nowhere with nothing!  I said to her:  you go and try and do exactly that!  And the amazingness that the word issues are causing is only because if the world did not develop the way it did, it would never have been confronted with the word issue like it is on its way doing.  So isn’t it amazing how all structures were put in place for us little humans to realize the hermeneutics and word power ?  It is not something bad, it is something achieved.  All the new words have been implemented to make the technicalities to the best they can be – but catch 22 situations, with all these technicalities been put into place and with all the smart words and concepts to go with this day and age, are arising daily.  And I just think all these catch 22 situations are amazing and brilliant!!!  Like the scenario I sketched for instance that could arise from the Saddam thing and like the gay issue with the church.  But there are a lot of examples arising daily – and some even in process of going into those catch 22 situations.

 

I was a “victim” of this technicalities in some form myself.  But only when I started looking globally at these catch 22 situations that are appearing world wide, could I get out of my own little issue and “fight” with the technicalities and realize it for the brilliance it is hiding.

 

I cannot wait to see where all these catch 22 situations are going to – what levels are it going to reach?  The world are confronted, and they do not realize, but what will happen if they do start asking questions?  Will they see the brilliance or will the same happen to what my friend said about Greg Kebble, that he was a crook?  And if we look at the term catch 22 situation – looking at the number 22 and the word “catch”, it makes me wonder where that comes from!!!  It actually sounds like it could be associated with some kind of joke or something as well – like in Candid Camera.  But landing in a catch 22 situation is actually a brilliant thing happening – not you as person landing in it, but the fact that that situation could arise.

 

For me the catch 22 situations that I view happening now all over the world, is only showing me the Brilliance (especially the levels the catch 22 situations are reaching) of the Devine.  A Brilliance that I view go hand in hand with a sense of humour – you cannot deny that some catch 22 situations are actually funny.  You know, sort of the little world very cleverly asking:  Now how did this happen?  We are so clever, how could this situation have happened, this catch 22 situation (which they of course do not realize)?  And then they set out to find the person to be blamed…

 

Maybe my sense of humour will not be appreciated, but not only do I enjoy and appreciate and think these catch 22 situations that words and technicalities and structures are causing are Brilliant – they are enjoyable as well.

 

And then my old, old question arise again:  if we create our own realities, who is responsible for this catch 22 situations happening all around the planet?  Who is confronting us with catch 22 situations with our (what we presumably created) words, technicalities, and our structures? 

 

You know what keeps coming to mind to me now while I am writing all this?  The part in the New Testament of the Bible where the disciples asked Jesus something and He said that the people (earth) were not ready for that answer at that stage.  I do not know why this is coming up now…

 

But I have typed a lot again.

 

LOVE

Renee

12/12/2005 08:35 or 8:8 and 8 is the number of eternity. But as usual there is also that 8 + 8 = 16 and 1 + 6 = 7.  Now if you view 16 and you and the 61 and further does the 16 gives us 7 which gives us 4 7”s now – if you view the beginning time as well.  And was it not in the beginning that I once asked you and told you that 2 + 2 must not equal 4, but 22 .    

 

Parents the Product of Parents – and what does Koeberg got to do with this – creating chaos?

Lore68 .

 

 

 

28/11/2005 15:41 and exactly 5 hours ago I sent the sms to Linda that I received a telephone call from (012) 205 1218 as missed call.  I phoned back and Maria answered and she said she was actually trying to phone her boss and do not know how it got through to me – as I was busy with another call and could not answer.  And Maria, the Queen of Timbavati in Linda Tucker’s book, has been trying to get through to me with a message.  So this morning she made her appearance again – if only I can get what the message is she want to get through…

 

And this is Lore68 – and the beginning minutes is 41 and 6 + 8 = 14.

 

Dear Lore

 

On the night of 25/26^th of November 2005, I had a very strange dream.  I was somewhere in Egypt and doing some sight seeing.  Then I reached a spot where you could see two faces from one spot.  I do not know if you saw the program that Carte Blanche had about the “face” that some guy discovered on Mars.  Well, these “faces” in my dream are also etched into the earth like the one on Mars.  They were both etched out on some hills and from the spot I was standing, that was the only spot where you could see them both at once.  As I was viewing this, something else happened which I cannot explain.  In my dream, I was still at that spot, but I was also viewing a woman dressed in gold, some goddess or something but the name The Queen of Perth, came up.  And in some form behind her there were a crowd and also some kind of pyramid.  But then I was back at the spot of the faces in the earth and then I left the sight and went back to the place where my mother and I were going to sleep.  It seemed as if she was with me there, but with the view on the two faces, she was not with me.  But the hills were a very nice green.

 

This was the morning of 26^th /11/2005, I woke up with this dream and wrote it down.  But since last week I am trying to get in touch with my higher self, but it seems hopeless.  I close my eyes and ask to be linked to it or just get a picture of it, without any success.  Do not know when this is going to happen – to get in touch with my higher self.  But I must say, I do have an awareness now more clearly of the team that is around me.  Thank YOU very much for that!!!

 

Then, later Saturday morning, as I did not feel like doing anything at all for the day than lying in my bed, this Team got me out of bed, phone my parents up and tell my parents to come and fetch me to go to Grand West with them.  I went with them eventually and on our way there I started feeling “uncomfortable”.  I told my mother and me and my mother were dropped by my father at the entrance of the casino and he went to park the car.  My mother went inside with me and told me to hold on to her if I need to.  We went to the loo, and then my mother and I went to buy me Kentucky Pops.   I ate a few – but still was not feeling too well.  Then I was playing at some new machines and for some or other reason some guy were behind me and just was very bothering to me just by being there.  So I decided to leave the machine.  I went and found another one and this one, the first press of the button to spin the reel, I got 3 yellow fish with black stripes and a waterfall, where the waterfall is acting as a substitute.  This machine I normally call the Parrot machine.  Then I decided to leave this machine as well and I landed on an Animal machine where you also got sapphires, and if you get 3 sapphires, you get 15 free spins.  On this machine I got on a certain spin the following:

1. 4 tigers going zig zag zig on the top and middle lines.
2. 4 tigers going zig zag zig on the bottom and middle lines.

 

This gives us a 4 and 4 or 44 connected with a tiger.  And there I lost the rest of my money after this incident, so I was meant not to play further.  Maybe because what I needed was given to me:  The yellow and black striped fish on the Parrot machine and the 4 and 4 tigers on the next machine.  And as I got home, I went to my “Animal Speak” book and discovered the following:  “The yellow tiger is supreme among all five.  It is the ruler of the Earth and all energies upon it.

So I think that seeing that the tigers was connected to 44 , that something is going to be ever greatly revealed and something connected to the yellow tiger.  First I thought it might be that my higher self will be revealed soon, but the yellow tiger is connected, according to the book, to the Earth and all energies on it.  So I must not think myself so important as to think that little me’s higher self is going to be revealed to little me.  This must be a much more important thing that is going to be revealed.

 

But, if I am going to sit and think about when my higher self is going to be revealed to me, it will never happen – I must just leave it and then, when I least expect it, it will happen.  So Saturday afternoon my mother wanted to go to my father’s sister, Jana.  When we got there she had something cut from her face, but her face was heavily swollen.  And then she told us that her back is aching very badly as well.  As we were sitting in the sitting room and she lying on one of the couches, I suddenly had the urge to just feel if I can feel something where she had the pain.  So I asked her and she sat up and I put my right hand above the spot.  Then she replied, as I felt the heat coming into my chest, that she is feeling heat going into her body at the spot where my hand was.  Then me and her and my mother went to her room and I put my hand there again and I asked my mother, as my mother can see the auras, what did she see?  And she said she saw emerald green coming from my hand.  And when I felt the heat coming into my chest again, my mother said that the light of the green turned lighter then.  So what this is coming from my hand I do not know and what I must do with it I have no clue either.

 

LOVE

Renee

28/11/2005 16:19 and 19 again has to do with beginnings and ends.

 

 

 

28/11/2005 19:13 Beginnings and ends connected to the aeroplanes of 11/9 (the 3 and 1)?

 

Dear Lor

 

I wonder what is going on in Cape Town?  There is so much trouble it seems that is being caused by Koeberg nuclear powerstation.

Then there are huge problems at the airport as on the runways, and there are two, at the place where the two runways cross one another, there is some problem with the runway.  But it seems it went better today than yesterday, though it seems they cannot establish what is the cause of the problem on the runway, but they are allowing the aeroplanes to land and take off again on the runways – problem or no problem.  But yesterday there were chaos as they did not want the aeroplanes even to land or take off.

Anyway,…

 

LOVE

Renee

28/11/2005 19:19.

 

 

29/11/2005 13:22

 

Dear Lor

 

Yes, I haven’t given much attention to the date and time, although they seem magnificently “structured” or chosen.

 

I am writing to you as I want to tell you a little story.  It all started last night – or where I am not sure as if I have to look at the real beginning.  Last night I woke up and my dog was not well.  And I went and sat with him and gave his food for him, piece for piece.  But he is scratching all over and I put some ointment on yesterday, but that did not seem to help.  So this morning I wake up and he is still “uncomfortable” and scratching, so I decided to phone the doctor and they said I must bring him in.  So I took him to the doctor and the old, old “wound” is scratched open for me again as the doctor told me that the Cortisone he must get, could effect the heart.  And he is already on a heart pill as well as a pill for the water on the lungs because of the heart condition.  So we got home and it was not long before my fears started again.  And finally today I reached the point where I started dealing with them.  Each time before, when he was this ill and there were a possibility that something might happen to him, I thought to myself to rather put him down – then it wont have such an effect on me each time.  But my Head told me that is not going to solve the problem.  So I phoned up a friend and as I was talking to her I had to put the phone down as I started crying.  And I was crying about my first dog I really loved.  His name was Kwaaitjie.  And I realized that there were never healing or dealing with his death.  And I also realized that at that stage of my life, he was all I had.  Regarding love, he was all I had.  And it was because he was so loyal to me that he died as I went to my grandparents place and he tried to follow, but was run over by a car.  I don’t think anybody realized what that did to me – including myself.  What followed was that I nearly did not pass st 6, and never before could I understand why?  What I also did not realize the impact all that part of my life had on me later on.  Yes I got a dog again, and for that dog I gave myself to God just not to loose him too.  And much later I came to the conclusion that if I look at my father and my mother – with me it is going to stop.  No more kids having to have a father and a mother who creates them to be the same kind of fathers and mothers.  As kids are created to become fathers and mothers – and in our family I decided that at me it is going to stop.  This vicious cycle of father and mother and what they do to children as they have been children too and were the results of fathers and mothers.  And that is why I fear losing my dog – as they are the best companion since I can remember.  Even this morning as I was crying about all this and about Kwaaitjie and why he was so special to me, Charlie came along and just licked my tears off my face.  What better companion could I have ever asked for.  If I look at my mother, I feel so sorry for her.  She is in the cycle – in that vicious cycle – she has to look after my father, live with his “stuff”, but I also feel sorry for him, as he has to live with my mothers “stuff”!  And I cannot think how my mother and father will suffer if they will have to start dealing with their “stuff”.  So that is my request for the Universe today – do not let the fathers and mothers suffer to deal with their “stuff”.  If I look at my own process of dealing with my “stuff”, and I do not even have another person to consider in dealing with my stuff, except my parents, but they are most of the time when I am dealing with my stuff at work, so they have no clue what I am going through.  Only my dog knows, only my best companion knows – so now I understand where my fear of losing my dog, or see him suffer, come from.  And out there we all have father’s and mother’s – so I request that for the symbol of father and mother they all will be cured from the pain they are suffering for the mere fact that they are fathers and mothers and they were once children of fathers and mothers – without having to suffer for getting rid of their “stuff”.  How this all started I do not know – this cycle of fathers and mothers – but being the product of fathers and mothers.  But what I do not understand is that we all love our fathers and mothers – although we are the product of them.  I look at my mom and what she has to put up with, and the same with my dad – and all I want for them is just something better!!!

 

LOVE

Renee

29/11/2005 or 11/11 and 15:00  

Heaven is so Full, that all have to stand in Queues for Everything. How frustrating can that be?

Lore67 .

 

 

 

25/11/2005 or 25/11/25 or 71 17.  14:19 turning (2)(0) and 19 has got all to do with beginnings and ends in this beginning time of this letter.

 

And this is Lor67

 

Dear Lor

 

I was feeling a bit bored the other day and asked my Head to give me some fun.  So it seems it was decided that my mom will be the one that will give me the fun.  As she said that it must be that people are born over and over again because so many have died in all these ages that have passed – can you think how full heaven must be by this time if it wasn’t for the fact that people reincarnated again, and if heaven is that full, can you imagine what hell must look like!  I thought this was hysterically funny.  And I thought to myself and she want to go and sit in heaven and be served – if heaven is that full already (the way she seems to be imagining it to be) everyone is going to be standing in cues to be served!  This is so funny!!!  And this is only my mother’s little belief.  And it seems everyone has their own little belief!  But my mother’s version was just very hilarious with if heaven is that full, can you imagine what must be going on in the hell???  And each time I think of this I cannot stop myself from finding this hilariously funny!

 

Anyway, I have my little questions as well.   I find so many underlying patterns – which might mean nothing for others as we all do not view things the same way.  But I wonder if one cannot view this (+) times (-) thing I have been dealing with since 25, and 26/10/2003, as underlying symbol.  It seems a lot of mystery schools believe that symbols have got impacts – what if this underlying “symbol”, that have been used in our maths since ancient times, has been influencing what is going on on the planet and had rippling effects into the Universe???

 

What if you take the “light” (+) and the “shadow” (-) attributes and unite them?  Currently the maths say that (+) united with (-) gives (-), or then, the “shadow”.  Does this mean that if we are going to try and unite the “light” and “shadow” aspects within ourselves, we will only end up with the “ shadow”?  For centuries only a few masters have mastered to overcome the problem of the “light” and “shadow” aspects within themselves and get to the “light”.  And so many times I have asked the question as to why has it happened that the people incarnated over and over – who was responsible for that?  I even go as far to ask if the churches, who are chasing the sinners out of the church now, (those who are gay), if this is not their solution?  Because if you view the current (+) and (-) thing, then a (+) united with a (+) and a (-) united with a (-), gives you a (+).  This could have been the reason for “being gay” to happen – as it seems these people do not understand why they are like that?  And I was wondering about the martyr thing – you know, don’t we want to be happy(?) – and there, with being a martyr, a (-) or “suffering” united with more “suffering” (-) gives the opposite of suffering.  I know you said to me that to experience the “light”, you first have to have an experience of the “dark”, but currently, according to the underlying symbol (that’s what I call the view that a (+) times a (-) equal a (+)), this will result in the “dark”, when you unite the two?

 

But lets look at this question I have:  the mystery school is set in their ways over the ages to believe that the light and the dark are fighting, but taken into account that on this planet, the “old” (current) underlying symbol (that a (+) times/united with a (-) equal a (-)) with holds that when light and dark encounter, it will end up in dark prevailing.  But if you take the proof that I did on 25, 26/10/2003, then if the two encounter, the light will now have the outcome, as I have proofed that the clockwise way of dealing with maths is also possible by proving that (+) times/united with (-) equal (+)!  But the outcome of this way of doing maths will have a more positive effect as then, the underlying symbol will hold that if you unite your “light” or (+), with your “shadow” (-), the outcome for everyone will be “light” or (+), as there is an underlying symbol with holding exactly this.  I know this is a strange way of seeing it, but I am just wondering if there could not be more to these thoughts than just me having a ride with Pegasus?  But enough about all my wondering about stuff…

 

I want to share with you what happened yesterday.  Well, actually for a few days now that “gate” of mine has been coming into a clearer picture.  I have now realized that when I enter there were always something on my right and left side, but I have never before picked up a clear picture of what it is or took notice of it.  Well, I get a clear picture now that on the left side there is a type of step pyramid – but this pyramid turns into the head of a huge lion.  There is only the three steps that remind you of the pyramid, but the rest is the head and front paws of this male lion.  And I have also noticed now that its eyes is beaming out red light.  Inside the entrance of the second door, there is also in gold, like the steps that goes inside, a hawk, eagle type bird.  This bird’s eyes, beam out green light.  Then, on the right side, I most of the time pick up the Sun God Ra.  Then, on the outside of the main door, where the people go down into the Universe again, there is a golden cobra, and its eyes beam out blue light.

 

But what I actually wanted to get at is this.  Yesterday I went and picked up Sarita to take her to a presentation of Business Club.  And she was telling me about this friend of hers and how the friend and a lot of members of the mystery school are foreseeing a huge “fight” at some gate (I don’t know where!) between the light and the dark.  And I felt resistance immediately when I heard the word “fight”.  I remember while I was in the police, when some of our members were even ill treating a rapist, I felt resistance.  Even that day with the shooting when the woman and daughter attacked me, I did not fight back – maybe I am not build for “fights”.  So Sarita asked me what I thought about the idea and I said to her I only have one question:  why does something that is of the light, want to do something that it is not, namely “fight”???  You see, I am so confused Lor, I do not understand these things.  But anyway, we got to the presentation and during the presentation there were a huge guy sitting behind us and my attention was focused on him and I took him through the gate as the doors were open.  Later I went and fetched him again and took him out and received, as he went down, back into the Universe again, that he had a golden crown on his head and was surrounded by light.  But there were a lot of disturbances during the presentation as all this was taking place.  Then I started feeling uncomfortable and Julia’s face came up – the friend of Sarita that was awaiting the “fight” form the mystery school.  Then this guy came in the door and stopped the presentation and told us that somebody’s vehicle is blocking the gate.  And the specific words he used was that the gate was blocked.  And the understanding I got there at that moment was that the gate the “fight” was feared at, that gate was blocked – so Julia and her friends needend worry anymore.  And I said this to Sarita.  And even more so was it confirmed to me when I saw that the owner of this vehicle that was blocking the gate, was a huge guy!  And he got up like a king and walked out of the room to clear it, like a king, as you could read that this guy thought of himself very proudly.

But imagine this Lor, little me sitting at this presentation, telling Sarita to tell Julia she and apparently all the Archangles that are preparing for this “fight”, must not go anymore as this incident told us the gate is blocked.  Julia will probably think I’ve lost my mind!

 

But again, people do not read the same things into the things I read into it.  I do not know if Sarita bought the idea or not, but she bought the idea of the business club it seems, as she was interested into getting signed up into business club.  But, that was yesterday, and that was what I thought yesterday, at that moment, or that was the sense of what I made of the incident, but by tomorrow it will be only that – something of yesterday, with the only thing that making it real, is putting it into words in this letter to you.  My now – yes, I am sharing what I made out for a short while yesterday, but as far as I am concerned, that was yesterday.  Now I am with my dog and wondering (like usual – as wondering about things seems to be what I do) what am I going to do next.

 

LOVE

Renee

25/11/2005 or 25/11/25 or 71 17, 15:25 or 6:7 and this is Lor67.

 

 

 

25/11/25 or 7117 and 16:08 and 8 is the number of infinity…

 

Dear Lor

 

My mother just told me now that there were apparently chaos in the Cape today as Koeberg seems to be up to its tricks again.  The power was down as far as George and creating chaos!  Well, I don’t know much about this as I only woke up at about 09:00 and as I was waking up and thinking about this (+) and (-) thing I got last night, I noticed on my mother’s cell in the kitchen that the power was down.  And I phoned my father and he said no, it is a overall power failure it seems.  So I asked my Head what am I going to do as I really feel like a cup of coffee and as I was wondering again about last night, I dozed off a bit and woke up about 5 mins later and heard the power going on in the house.  Later, I spoke to Julia, (just for interest sake, the call’s registered time was 25/11/2005 at 11:44) I was trying to tell her we only need to change the “symbol” thing – she did not buy this at all.  Did not even bother to really listen, and I cannot even remember all the things she said in reply, as it was really a lot of things she explained what had to happen.  All I remember was that she mentioned that this morning, as she woke up, there were some kind of change – like in positive?  But can you see my question?  Positive change while Koeberg is creating chaos in the Cape?

 

Oh, what an amazing day!  We have positive change – and Koeberg is creating chaos.  Do you now understand why I do not understand things?  As it seems it is making sense to Julia that there is positive change, but meanwhile Koeberg is creating chaos right around her.  Well, I guess that is why she also did not even bother to listen to the “symbol” thing.  But I wonder what is she and the other’s going to do about the incident yesterday, and what I told Sarita to tell her:  that they need not worry as the gate they are worried about is blocked?

Oh, silly me…

 

LOVE

Renee

25/11/25 or 7117 (I wonder if this 7117 hasn’t got anything to do with it?) 16:14 and my dog is such a good companion…!!!

The Being with the Lion Head and human body, on a Balcony overlooking the Universe.

Lore66 .

 

 

 

18/11/2005 13:24 and the 24 just keeps coming up and I have no explanation for it yet…

 

And this is Lor66

 

Dear Lor

 

Last night at meditation I got some picture that I thought, last night, did not make much sense.  But to this one I will come later.  Yesterday, during the day, my father remarked that my head was not on the Business Club at all yesterday.  And that was true as yesterday morning, I discovered a book about astronomy I had for a long while now and I was looking at the galactic maps.  But I couldn’t find anything that made any more sense than what was already going on in my head.

So the following I discovered this morning and I made a note in my Lion journal about it and it goes as follows:

 

18/11/2005 12:01 or 121(0)

Just discovered that Betalgeuse (the shoulder star of Orion), Sirius (who is in Canis Major) and Prokion (in Canis Minor) forms a triangle.  And if you view the Pyramid, it consists of 4 sides of triangles, but there is the square it is based on as well, or the 1,  which gives a 5 (consisting of 4 triangles and 1 square)  About the combination of the 1 and 4, there are 2 dogs involved, the big dog (Canis Major)and the small dog (Canis Minor) and dog we have seen is consisting of combination of 1 and 4 as well. And if you view this, it gives 2 of the same and 1 different.  If you view the 4 triangles, separately, you get 12 corners and if you view the square separate, it gives another 4 angles, or 12 + 4 = 16.

                                                                                    12:05

 

And you and Linda are so linked for me to the 1 and 6 combination, Linda the 16 exactly and you the inverse.  But what does this all mean?  Yesterday already my attention was focused on Sirius and Orion and the two Dog constellations.  Then late yesterday afternoon, I got in my head a picture of a door.  And the Ankh that Sarita bought herself and showed me, appeared and I put that into the key lock, and that opened the door.  But on top of the door was a light in the shape of a diamond.  So as this door opened, there were this balcony looking out onto the Universe.  And lying on the balcony was this male White Lion.  Then I was standing on its right side – it also overlooked the Universe from the balcony.  As I was standing on its right side, I   changed into a very white White Lion with blue-blue eyes.  Then this picture changed again and this lioness turned into a being with a lion head and a human body.

 

But last night at Carol’s meditation, this picture came up again during the meditation.  Carol’s theme for the meditation was the moon.  And during the meditation she said we must ask the question about what our purpose is – and all that came up for me, was my head that was filling the Universe in front of me on the balcony, which was overlooking the Universe.  And my shoulder with my arm came up as well, and it seemed as if my arm was dissolving into the Universe.  And remember what do I call the Voice, my head!  (But this only came up this afternoon)  I thought my meditation gave me no insight into anything.

 

Then, as I arrived home last night, I remember myself telling the people at Carol’s meditation how I went without food for 40 days.  And Carol at some point remarked that Ki probably helped me out there to not get ill because I did not eat.  And I told them that I had this problem with not eating since I was born.  But, what I also just realized this afternoon, is that every time my life changed or I had to get used to something new, I did not eat for months.  And I have my parents to confirm that as since I was born, (adjusting to this life as a child), I did not eat.  As a toddler, my parents would play just to get me to take a bite.  And I can still remember all the fights we had because I did not want to eat when we had meals – I used to sit for hours at the table as I did not want to eat my food.  When I went to University, the first few months I did not eat anything. (and for the first time there were nobody to fight with me about that!)  And the same happened in the police college – for the first few months there I did not eat anything – I only drank about 5 Propains, 3 times a day, to cope with the college life.  And in all these periods, and this I also just realized this afternoon, I had trouble in life with some kind of religious connotation.

 

But what is bothering me, is what does all this actually mean???  Is it suppose to mean anything at all???  As I am still wondering about my purpose – which at this time seems to be to lie on the bed or the couch with my dog, not that I mind, as my dog is my most true companion and never leaves me alone.  If I lie on the carpet in the spare bedroom because my head is putting pressure on my chest and I cannot take it anymore, my dog comes along and lie next to me on the carpet.

 

Oh, and I had two spiders yesterday, one in my room, and one in my bathroom.  And I had that construction vehicle in front of me – maybe something is in construction in my life – and I just saw now on the computer that “construction” the 2 in the above sentence, I spelt wrong and looked it up and saw that I forgot the “r” in both instances and corrected it.

 

But I will speak to you again…

 

LOVE

Renee

18/11/2005 14:06 and I know that 24 also adds up to 6, but this is like when you view two apples and one are red and one are green, as 2 + 4 = 6, but 5 + 1 also adds up to 6.  I want to understand what the combination 24 means!

 

14:14 ns.  And I was just shown that 24 has possibility of (2)4 where the 2 is viewed as (a second time)4.  I see in the map book that the astronomy measures in time and angles…

14:15 and does 15 now resemble an apple?  Just joking!!!! (Two words and 4 exclamation marks) 

Century City, helicopters (dragon flies) and Koeberg Overheating.

Lore65 .

 

 

17/11/2005 07:44 and the date and time starts with 17 and ends the beginning of the letter with 44 – and they have got all to do with one another. 

 

And this is Lor65 or (9)11.

 

Dear Lor

 

I already told you about the new friend I met, the one at Carol’s meditation who spoke about Shamanism?  Well, her name is Sarita.  And we were hanging on and hanging on to go for coffee one day, until Friday, 11/11/2005.  As we were sitting there, something hit me from the side and later on we learnt that during the period we were at Canal Walk, or Century City as it is also called, the power went down in Cape Town.  What seemed happened was that one of the reactors of Koeberg, who was supplying the power, one part of it over heat and the computer shut the reactor down.  Koeberg only has two reactors and it was reactor 2 that had the problem and is the one they are using.

 

So yesterday, 5 days later, on 16/11/2005, we had another appointment for coffee.  She was in the city and as I was on my way there I received an sms from her saying there is a coffee shop not far from where she is.  But, as I got into the city, first this man goes standing right in front of my car – irritating me so much that I felt like running him down as it did not even bother him it seemed if I run him over or not.  Then I tried to get parking at the place where Sarita was, for us to go to the coffee shop, but I was at first going in at a place where you are actually suppose to go out and all the cars came from the front and this even irritated me more.  Then I found a spot to park, but as I got out, the guy in the shop shouted to me that he is going to clamp my cars wheels as the parking is only meant for his shop’s customers.  I was furious!  I left my car there anyway and thought let this guy now do what he like and I went to fetch Sarita and told her we cannot have coffee at this coffee shop as I cannot find parking and I am irritated with all that has happened – we have to go to a place where there is open spaces and lots of parking, lets go to Century city again.  So we got into the car and off we went.  Then there were something that somebody must have lost on the road, but it seems it was harmful for the other vehicles so the traffic people were stopping the traffic to pick this stuff up.  It was some wooden stuff.  Then, as the cars started moving again, we landed in road works and a huge construction vehicle landed in front of us and I told Sarita that something is going on as to focus our attention on as all this stuff has not happened without a reason!  And when I see the word construction, I know it means exactly what it says – and though many may believe it only to be one thing under construction, I believe it could be many a thing under construction.  Our attention was also focused on a helicopter that was hanging not far from the ground, in the air.  Then we landed at the same place as the previous time and the previous time we were sitting at table no 24 (this was on 11/11/2005), but on 16/11/2005, we sat at table no 29 (11).  These are the only 2 tables in the restaurant that has got numbers.  Then, as we were sitting having coffee, the power, like the first time, went out again.  And only last night we saw on the news that it was Koeberg again.  And the first time, 11/11, it wasn’t even mentioned on the news on TV, but last night, the second time, 16/11, it was mentioned as Parliament had to stop and get out of the building.  My father says the newspaper the other day said that Koeberg reported that the reactor was fixed, but it seems it overheated again!  And I was just telling Sarita the first time we went for coffee that my first summons I served, was at the Koeberg nuclear power station.  Had to go through all the gates to just deliver my first summons on someone that worked there.  And the second time we were having coffee I was telling her of how I have to return to places a second time to do things again.  As we went back to the city, for me to drop her again, our attention was focused on another helicopter, this time next to the highway nearly, but solidly on the ground.  But both helicopters were big ones – the one we encountered when we were on our way to Century city and the one we encountered as we went back to the city. 

 

And as I got home, while me and my father was chatting, as he came home to watch the dogs and look after them to let them be ok while I was gone, my mother’s office phoned up and said she was ill.  So my father went and fetch her and as she came home, her face was swollen and red – nearly like Len’s face when he has channelled some huge energy.  And my father took my mother to the doctor, but the doctor still have no clue what is wrong with my mother.  But by night time she was feeling a lot better already and said she’s going back to work today. But what was also interesting was that it seems the weather bureau has a problem as well as they can only give estimated temperatures for the next few days as there is a problem with their computers to give the charts.  And I do not know why, but it seems Vodacom has a problem with their computer service telling you how much free minutes one has to talk on, as since yesterday, that service keeps telling you it is currently unavailable.  And yesterday, late afternoon, Charlie (the love of my life) was standing at the TV cabinet and looking at something behind it and wanted to focus my attention on that.  So I went and look and there was sitting this little bird beneath the Tv, between all the electric wires, and as we put it outside, it seemed a bit confused.  But it must have found its way last night as this morning it is gone.  I am just wondering how did Charlie discover the bird there????

 

Anyway, just wanted to share this “event” we had in Cape Town yesterday and 6 days ago, but which was 5 days apart, with you. And 6 + 5 = 11 

 

LOVE

Renee

17/11/2005 08:11 and the letter ended in the last sentence of the letter also on 11, but this is the Lor65 letter as well…