Logic or Not?

Lore60 .

 

 

12/10/2005 14:53 or 2:53 and 2+5+3=10 and 2+0+0+5=7 which gives us the numbers – if we view the date and time – 12 10 7 10 or (1)(2)171; and I don’t have a clue what I am doing now with these numbers, but they have to be like that…

 

Dear Lor

 

I had a lesson again today.  It started off innocently with me sitting in the sitting room, feeling a bit drowsy, and my head telling me to get up, put my dog in the room, take my bag and go to Grand West.  This I eventually did.  On the N1, on my way to Grand West, there were this vehicle that focused my attention on itself because it drove in right in front of me, and its registration number read CCK 19.  It was a Grand Voyager from Chrysler.  And if you view the CCK, it adds up to 8 and then is linked to the 19 as well, as in one of the previous letters.  And closer to Grand West, I was shown that you were standing inside Grand West and showing me to come closer, with your hand.  Then from that “you” there originated 4 and those 4 “yous” each climbed into a Warrior Queen machine. I thought it was cute.  Then, as I arrived at Grand West, I first went and bought myself something to eat and then went to the first Warrior Queen machine.  There I got the free games – you have to get a ruby ring in the first row and the last row then you get an x amount of free games.  I won about R200 on this machine.  Then I went playing on the Cowboy machines again, but on my way, I saw this Silver Sevens machine and something about it caught my attention, but I could not put my finger on it as it was all in the passing bye of this machine.  Eventually my money was left on R150 and I went to the toilets and as I was there I felt like taking a tablet.  Now, it seems I do not learn; as when this happen I must know by now something or some lesson of some kind is up.  As I went out I felt like playing still, but something was bugging me.  And the people started to irritate me as well.  Then I walked again past the Silver Sevens machine and I saw this guy who has won the 3 silver sevens on it and R2000.  And without realizing it at that moment, I was sort of angry with myself, as I in that moment realized but my attention was focused on the machine, but I passed it bye and now someone else has won the jackpot.  But it seems I suppressed this as I went on and played at some other machines.  But things just went from bad to worse and I lost this R150 and I couldn’t understand why my luck has changed.  Then my head told me that it is time to go home.  The last few minutes there inside Grand West, I became aware of this “heat” feeling in my chest, and I left.  As I got home, I opened the garage door and parked my vehicle inside the garage, but as I wanted to get out of the car, the garage door keys were missing.  And I started looking for it – without success.  Eventually I came inside and opened my dog from my room and went back to the car to look for the keys.  Eventually I found them, right in front of my eyes on the place they always lie and I couldn’t understand why I did not see them.  They were right underneath my eyes, but I did not see them.

I went and sat down and looked at the whole event of today and realized some stuff.  First I realized that the keys meant something and then I realized that I gave the taking of the pill in the toilet, the blame for loosing the R150.  But the answer was right here inside me, though I just suppressed it to not see it.  The negativity was there because of the Silver Sevens event.  I was not totally aware of it, because I suppressed the anger and guilt feeling, but that was adding to my negativity and probably why I lost the money.  Then I released the guilt and anger, but something was not right yet either.  And I thought to myself, but I went to Grand West to learn these lessons, first, that when I take a tablet, or feel like taking one, I must realize something is up.  Then, the slightest negativity, could have an effect, like loosing the R150 – but then I was not so sure about that anymore, as if I went to Grand West to learn this lesson, about the guilt and the anger that I did not realize immediately, it must mean that it was meant for me to miss out on the silver sevens machine, to pass it bye and to later return with someone else winning on the machine.  As if I did not pass it bye, I would not have learnt the lesson.  This place the situation in a totally different perspective, as I were having guilt feelings, about something that was meant or not meant – however way you choose to see it.  And it was meant to loose the R150 to make me think it was a lesson or there is a lesson in it?  This leaves me with the thought that all my thoughts were planned ahead – all events were planned ahead, for me to miss the machine, but take notice of it.  For me to come back to the same machine and another guy’s plans working out the way for him to land at the exact moment there to win the jackpot of the machine.  For me to have guilt feelings about it.  For me to loose what I have won, which mean what I have won was also planned ahead other wise there would not have been anything to loose!!!  At every machine I landed up it was planned ahead for me to win up to each and every little credit I won or lost.  So was there a lesson at all to learn today???  Maybe just this one, to write it all down now…

 

Its like you once said to me, everything just is!!!  But I am busy learning now not to have guilt feelings about the stuff that “just is”!!!  But I am wondering if the having of positive and negative feelings is not what makes up the “just is” as something that is real?  Would we not see the illusion more clearly every time about the “just is” if we take our feelings of either positive or negative, away???  And if we see the illusion that clearly, what is then going to happen to us???

 

But I will speak to you later again, want to tell you also about my dog…

 

LOVE

RENEE

12/10/2005 15:33 or 333 

 

 

An Illness that is Not an Illness.

Lore59 .

 

 

09/10/2005 15:08 and 1+5=6 and 6+8=14 and this is Lor59 and 5+9=14 – also if you view the date, 09/10 it is a 9 and 1 or end and beginning.

 

Dear Lor

 

I am reading at night time, some nights, a piece in Deepak Chopra’s the Way of the Wizard.  But I have got two questions on my chest today.

 

1. To Merlin, to the Wizard; what in Your existence makes existence worth wile?
2. To God/Creator; what in YOUR existence, makes existence worth wile?

 

I have been given a quarts crystal while I am suffering with these questions – it is a small one, but it is a beautiful one.  At the one end though, there is some roughness or something, which one cannot see through the crystal.  Like for instance if the crystal represent the existence of the Wizard, the above question is that part of the crystal that is rough.  But looking at it from another point of focus, it is beautiful.  And that was the answer to the feeling I am dealing with today.

 

I got this feeling since an early age – wishing one can just wish your existence away!  Die a death where there is no afterlife, no existence anymore.  But it seems this has been cleared today by the quarts crystal – there is such a side to me, to my life, but there are also other sides which will make one view life again as beautiful.  Not only life, but existence.  I could never understand this feeling – of wanting to die to not exist anymore and it seemed the more I wished for it, the more it did not happen.  I thought it was only a kind of depression, but it seems there is that side to my life as well.  I do not really know how to explain it, as it seems it is something I am tuning into, do not really know how it happen, but I do not know if any medicine will help to keep that feeling away.  As I was on medication two days before the shooting incident when these feelings returned.  Yes they have been gone for nearly 12 to 13 years, but that was after I decided or learned that the only way to get “over” them is to dive into life, and I dived into the world – the world the police gave me.  Not thinking philosophy anymore, only doing my job and not analysing everything.  But these last few days I spend just at peace, not analysing anything, and still today it happened that I felt this way again:  Wondering even what is it that makes God/Creators existence for God/Creator worth existing for?

 

It is not a long letter today, but I am feeling better by just the mere fact that it is now out of my system – I have put into words to someone else.  Am I depressed, well, if anyone can find medicine for this feeling, I will take it as it is not a nice feeling.  Getting out of it actually is more rewarding than one will think, but still, being there is no “kinderspeletjies”.  I do not even know if one can consider it as a negative feeling?  It is just something to that quarts crystal that is part of that quarts crystal.  That is why I do not know if one can view it as something “negative”?

 

Anyway,…

 

LOVE

RENEE

09/10/2005 15:31 or 33(1) or 61 (it always seems there are so much possibilities to everything) on 9and 1… 

09/10/2005 20:25 or a 91 and 2(0)(0)5 for the date and 8:25 for the time where in both instances the 2+5=7 and the difference between 9 and 1 is 8 and isn’t 8 related to eternity by a lot of numerologists and spiritual people?

 

Dear Lor

 

I do not understand much of what I have witnessed tonight on Mnet about Steven Hawkins and the people that showed a paradox to what he was implying and it seems there were a dispute about this for 30 years!  Don’t they realize that for every theory there will be the paradox as true as well?  And as I went to bed now, my head showed me the following:

 

You remember that the page 71 is linked with the number 44 and this is linked to the name of God in Hebrew that means:  “I will be ever greatly revealed”.  (In Rebbe Nachman’s book, Anatomy of the Soul).  If one view the word PARADOX you get the following interesting happening:

P  (16^th letter of the English alphabet) A  (1^st letter of English alphabet) R  (9^th letter of English alphabet) A  (1^st letter of English alphabet) D  (4^th letter of English alphabet) O  (15^th letter of English alphabet) X  (24^th letter of English alphabet) and the last 3 letters’ values added together adds up to 4 + 6(1+5) + 6(2+4) = 16.  This gives us:

 

16 1 9 1 16 or 7 1 9 1 7 and as it seems everything added to 9 adds up to “everything”, we are left with 71 and 17.  And isn’t it amazing that 71 is so linked to the name of God that means:  “I will be ever greatly revealed”? And isn’t it amazing that both 44 and 71 adds up to 8?  And isn’t it amazing that incorporated in the centre of the          7 1 9 1 7, lies 191, or the beginning number and end number and the end number and the beginning number – enclosed on both sides by the number 7!

 

But also, if you look at where the cut off was, namely that “dox”, the last 3 letters were added together and that leaves us with 4 letters in the beginning or 4 and 3 or 43, and if you view the “dox” also and add 4 + 15 + 24 = 43 – isn’t this odd?

 

This might sound confusing, but isn’t that what paradoxes are all about?  To confuse us?  All that I can admit at this time, is that even though I can see that the theory of something can be true AND that the theory of the paradox of that theory are then true as well, God/Creator is so Mysterious. And we are trying to make some sense of all the mysteries. On our planet there is mysteries so microcosmic that we are not even aware of it – let alone to the magnitude of the Universe(s?)

 

But at this stage, I just need to get back from being out there in the cosmos to my body and ground myself.

 

LOVE

RENEE

09/10/2005 21:00 or 9:00pm or (9)(0)(0) and the 9 and the 0 basically at this stage have got the same meaning which could give us a lot of possibilities for the end time of this letter.

 

 

09/10/2005 21:27 or (9)(9)

 

Dear Lor

 

With all the paradoxes, one that is mind bogging is the one about the realness of this reality versus the inverse or illusion.  Isn’t it odd that “illusion” is linked with mystery as well?  And my main question remain – like I said to you in a previous letter – why does space have the appearance of darkness?  If you take a piece of space and examine it, what is that piece’s colour?  Why do we perceive the Universe as dark with stars in it to send out light?  Why is space observed as dark versus the stars, like our sun, to bring close planets to that stars some light and for the rest of the Universe’s observers only a star in the sky?  And for the 3^rd time in this letter, why do we observe the Universe to be dark? 

This gives us 3 times the question in this letter and 1 time in the other letter written a while ago!  Or a 3 and 1 combination again…

 

LOVE

RENEE

09/10/2005 21:38 or 9:(1)(1)

 

 

10/10/2005 17:45 or 17(9) the time and 2020(0)(5) the date

 

Dear Lor

 

I do not have a clue what I am doing with the numbers of the dates and times anymore – I just know they have to be that way…

 

What I did want to share with you was something that happened today.  I met up with my friends at Kenilworth centre and after we had lunch, I went to the auto bank and I went back to go to CNA to buy myself the Cape Times.  But before I could get to CNA, something let me go into Musica.  There I thought I saw a new release of a CD of Billy Ocean.  Then my head let me focus more clearly, and I saw it was not Billy Ocean but Billy Corgan.  And as I saw this I thought but there is actually nothing I wanted to do in Musica and went out to go to CNA.  As I took the Cape Times I heard a song playing in the shop and it was Billy Ocean’s “Get out of my dreams, get into my car”.  And I checked the time on my cell phone and as my cell phone is 10minutes behind I realized the actual time was 14:14. And as I got closer, on my way back home later on, to the N2, I saw the traffic was jammed and I drove to the N1 and N is the 14^th letter in the English alphabet.  Also, Karina, my friend, noticed that the Cape Times was confused with the TV programmes as they were advertising Friday’s TV programs and not today’s, Monday’s programs.  And if you take it, Friday will be the 14^th .  This gives us a lot of 14’s and a song and an artist – what I have to make of it, I do not know yet

 

Anyway, just thought I’d share this with you quickly…

 

LOVE

RENEE

10/10/2005 17:55 OR 555 and this is Lor59 or 5(9) and 9+5=14…

14/10/2005 (1)(0):16 and this letter starts with 14 and the last one, on the 10^th ended with 14.  And the time is a 1 and 0 combined with 16 – and what is 16 related to?

 

Dear Lor

 

Isn’t it amazing, that the previous letter ended on 14, this is the 14^th today, and what I want to write to you about is my dog (which is also resembling 14).  And this is Lor59 and 5 + 9 = 14.  And what is really amazing and I did not realize it till this morning when my head wanted me to come and write this letter, is that what I want to tell you shortly is something that happened on the 10^th , when the last letter was written!  And this whole week I wanted to come and write about this incident, but for some or other reason could not get to it…

 

All these years, I thought my dog was suffering from a very sensitive stomach.  But there is some information, which I discovered during the week, about this stomach ailments he is getting.  On Monday, the 10^th , as I were at home with him, I could see he was not well.  In fact, I felt it in my chest.  And I could not really take him to the doctor, as physically I could not really tell the doctor there is something “wrong” with him.  It was just this strange feeling I got in my chest that was making me worried to death about him – to such extent that I thought maybe I should put him out as it will be more bearable for him and me.  And I think you should know how bad the feeling must have been to even have a thought of giving my dog’s life up as I love him to death.

 

That was Monday, and on Tuesday, the humans’ stuff started happening, to such extent that I decided on Tuesday afternoon to phone Karina up and Len, and both of them were having a bad day.  I also phoned my new friend, Carol, up and she felt the same way.  She even said to me she tried chanting that did not even work.  Eventually we were all agreeing that it must be a global energy we are tapping into from Cape Town – or an energy being released in Cape Town.  I do not know what you guys’ experience this week has been in Magaliesburg?  But then I remembered what Len said once.  He said that the animals are the first to pick up stuff – strange energies entering the planet or Cape Town, or where ever.  This is when I realized that my dog actually, since an early age, must have had psychic input which made me think he was ill, as I sensed it from him.  And when I look back now, there were a lot of these disasters that happened the last few years which went with him being “ill”.  And I never before could put the two together!!!

 

So finally I have discovered something that really have been a headache…

 

LOVE

10:36 or 1(0)9 or 19.

RENEE

14/10/2005

Flying Chairs.

Lore58 .

 

 

05/10/2005 19:25 and if you first view the date, this is Lor58 and date resembles 5 and month and 2 + 5 or 17 or 8 which is 5 and 8.  And the time is 19 or 7pm and 2 + 5 like it the year of the date was added as well or 7:7.

 

Dear Lor

 

I had, what felt like, a terrifying dream last night.  And I only get to write about it now as I was away with my dad to Bonnievale for the day.  What happened in the dream was as follows:

 

I was between these huge buildings, one of the buildings resembled the faces cut out of the American presidents in the Grand Canyon – I think this is where those faces are cut out into the mountain?  But anyway, in my dream these faces were a building and in some or other way were destroyed.  A lot of destruction of these buildings took place and people knew that it meant disaster.  As if this was the last day or something.  People were trying to get there worldly stuff together to flee, but it seems there were no way out of this place where all these high buildings were.  We even had to stand in a queue and get told yes or no for some thing to happen.  And my parents got a yes, both of them, but I did not listen to what I was told and my parents send me back to go and find out what was said to me.  So I went back and still I could not hear if I got a yes or a no, but when I returned to my mother she asked if the guy pulled his mouth in a certain way like to say “no” or in another way – and she pulled her face in these two directions – to say “yes”?  And I said he pulled his mouth the way to say “yes”.  Then there were people going up in the sky, and there were chairs also floating around in the sky and some of these people landed sitting on these chairs floating in the sky.  Some of the people hid themselves on the roofs of these high buildings and then I saw three HUGE vehicles coming into this kind of city.  On the first one there were a lot of “men”.  On the second one there were bicycles and on the third one, doors.  These vehicles brought these stuff into the town.  And then I was woken up.   But what stuck about this dream, is that I knew it had to do with the end.  And going through the dream, with everything that happened, it was terrifying.

 

At this point I am associating huge vehicles as Beings like Archangels.  And the door I associate with new spaces/realities/dimensions being open like portals or doorways.  And what was brought into that “city”, was the third HUGE vehicle, that carried a LOT of doors.  I still have to learn or discover what a building imply for me, as well as the bicycles.  And the people floating off in the air and the chairs in the air as well, floating around?

 

But I know that this dream was an important one.  I think, as time goes by, I will discover more stuff regarding sorting the puzzle out of the meaning of this dream.

 

But, that was my drea-im…

 

LOVE

RENEE

05/10/05 or 515 19:45 or 19(9)

ns.  As we came back tonight, I was lying on my bed and saw a tree, with all its branches and leaves and fruit pointing to the sky, as if a huge wind was blowing upwards from underneath this tree.

06/10/2005 14:04 or (1)44 and if one view the date it is 06/10 or 61 or 10+6=16.

 

Dear Lor

 

I remembered a dream I had last year already, but in this dream I was a dog, a toy dog, and you were somewhere in the “film” room.  But you saw to it that I was groomed and dressed the way I were – as a toy dog with some clothes on and I cannot remember if it was pink or blue clothes as thinking about the colour I was dressed in is confusing.  But then at some time you came out of the “film” room and were with me in person and I were, like Charlie is to me, your little toy dog that followed you around very loyally.  But now I realize the “film” room thing as it represents something going on behind the scenes, behind this reality where everything we are all doing is in some kind of “script” and there are a lot going on behind the scenes to show us all the way to keep to the “script”.

 

I tried to get hold of the date this dream came up, but was unsuccessful.  I have so much things that I have gathered since after the shooting incident and especially after I met you for the first time and you said to me I must keep a journal.  I do not know what to do, as everything is filed in files, and I am busy with the 9^th file already!!!

 

But I will speak to you again soon.

 

LOVE

RENEE

06/10/2005 14:14 and doesn’t 14 have got all to do with “dog”??? 

 

ns 06/10/2005 15:33 or 333 in the time:  Thank you Lor for the way you opened my heart chakra – it was between the end of August 2005, beginning 01/09/2005.  I did not realize what you were doing then, using a “dolk” to stab into my chest, but feeling the way I do these last few weeks, at peace, thank you(!)!!(!)  It seems you are still working behind the scenes…Parrot???

 

06/10/2005 15:39 or 33(9) 

The Ways of ava414!

Lore57 .

 

 

30/09/2005 08:13 or (0)(9)3 if you view the time and this is Lor57 and today is 30/09 and 3+9=12 and 9 + 2 + 5 = 16 which gives something relating to your name, 16 and something relating to the number of the letter, 12.         

 

Dear Lor

 

I wonder why I have a different experience of this reality than the most spiritual people here in Cape Town.  On Monday night, at the Kabalah, the Rabbi and all the other spiritual people there said how “bad” television and newspapers are.  Some of them go as far as not watching TV or even buy newspapers.  It seems they believe they will only find Enlightenment/God if they do not stick to this reality – if they only live in some meditative state not having a clue what is going on.  And I feel so different about it – as it feels to me that God is very present in also newspapers as TV.  Sometimes when I put on the TV my attention will be focused on something spesific that is going on and then I switch to another channel and there my attention is focused on something else, and eventually all the bits and pieces I get makes a whole picture.  There is an Underlying Energy that knows exactly at what time a certain name is going to appear on TV and it will be seen to it that at exactly that moment I switch on the TV and at the exact moment I am on that channel to just for instance see a name.  That was what happened the other day, as I was switching onto a certain channel and it was the end of some program, and as I switched on that channel my eye got set on one name that was rolling through, Lorraine.  Like in some music sometimes, I cannot actually hear what they are singing but sometimes I can, then I know I must make a mental note as later it could be a link in the puzzle.

 

Like something happened last night, a miracle, and I phoned up the woman at whose house it happened and told her – and I could hear she did not believe me and thought that I probably was mistaken as something, as like I told her, is impossible.  But let me tell you what happened.

 

I had no money with me yesterday, 29/09/2005 or (1)(1)/9 again, afternoon as I was leaving for a meditation group session in Oranjesicht in town.  Before I left the house, my father gave me 2 R20 notes or R40.  Then as I had to put in petrol, I withdrew R50 from my account and put in R70 of petrol.  Then the guy at the petrol station checked the oil and the vehicle needed some oil.  This now took the last R20 note my father gave me as well as, it costs R13 something.  Then I knew I had to pay the lady who is leading the meditation, R20, and I withdrew another R50.  I went into the garage shop and bought myself a Wonder Bar chocolate and received some change again and again 2 R20 notes.  This leaves me now with 2 R20 notes from which I put one in my purse, at the petrol station still, and one in my right back pocket for the meditation.  During meditation first my attention was focused on where the one girl was sitting, but the bucket the lady use for the collection of the money at the end is right at the back of where this girl was sitting.  Then I saw behind her this old R20 note, like the ones that were used in the 60’s-70’s.  And on this R20 note I saw, in meditation, was the Union Buildings in Pretoria.  Then I got nothing else.  And I was thinking that what did I come for?  I am receiving no information?  Then a picture of me in front of  a huge building in “Hillbrow” came up and then the Brixton tower with all the antennas.  Then came up the movie “Contact” with Jodie Foster and the huge antennas the Americans use with very sensitive sensors, to get stuff from outer space.  And then I got that huge construction in the movie “Contact” where the character that Jodie Foster was portraying, went into another “space”.  And the word “contact” kept coming up.  Then Sutherland and the biggest telescope (it is in diameter of its lense the biggest telescope on the planet), came up.

 

Then, as the meditation ended, I could not make out much of what I got.  Oh, and I nearly forgot, the huge building and Brixton tower only came up after the lady who leaded the meditation was guiding us to drink holy water, and see our tasks as we drink from this water, but I saw an animated old man in a purple robe, drinking the holy water – and after that the buildings and the antennas and telescope came in.

 

But as I wanted to leave, I took the R20 note from my pocket…but suddenly there were 2?  And I still could not put it together as I thought there must be a logical explanation for this, I probably took out the R20 note from the purse and put it in my pocket as well.  As I was driving home, I checked this out and realized but something impossible has happened – as there were nothing in that pocket except the 1 R20 note I put in there for the meditation.  And as I was looking around I saw that the cross on the mountain at Gordonsbay, the lights of this cross was on last night.  And then it settled in, a miracle has happened, something impossible has happened.  And I phoned the lady of the meditation up and told her the story, but I could hear she thought I must have been mistaken and that there will be a rational explanation for it.

 

A R20 note manifested out of thin air?  Manifested out of the blue (of my jeans right back pocket)?  And I realized, nobody will believe me – but that does not really bother as that is their choice, as it is their choice to see that God is not present in this world, in everything we can think of.  Like the Wednesday night, 28/09/2005, when I was watching SABC2’s news.  The main bulletin concentrated on a guy that was born in Springs and in a time span of about 3 years, he managed to sink about 4 mines – CLOSE THEM DOWN.  And the people and the news was talking about him as if he was some hero, but he was!  Something very extraordinary happened, this guy, who was younger than myself, managed to close down highly rated, rich mines and companies in about 3 years time – show me anybody who can repeat that, coming from actually no where and do what he has done – it is just amazing!  And I still said to my head, but how can the news people make such a fuss about him as there are still millions of rands that cannot be explained where it went to or where it is – but I was shown that how extraordinary it is that this guy, who had no money behind him, managed to close down all those mines and companies and a span of about 3 years.  Would I be able to do that?  I do not know where I would try to begin?  You see, they missed out on an extraordinary thing that happened in the world, right here in South Africa, and on the news of SABC2.  Most will probably say that this guy sounds more like a corrupt person, but the amazing thing is that he did what he did and it is said that he was a most kind and generous person!  And talking about the news, isn’t it strange that only the morning of 28^th also, I woke up with a dream where I was in life, but you can compare life that there are cameras all over – like CNN – and a sort of reality TV, with a lot going on behind the scenes, but it is reality TV, it is going on for real at that moment its been broadcasted.  (I had the problem that I saw life as a film playing off, but it makes more sense, after this dream to think that it is more like a reality TV or even better, a CNN for comparison).    

 

Or like the function they held in Johannesburg for illegal immigrants.  They all received a food package and they were singing and dancing and rejoicing.  And the most people could not believe that these people on the news showed these illegal immigrants and the government giving them a party.  But I think it is hilarious!  What a government we have!  That would most certainly be a first, any country has ever think of doing.  I have never heard of something as extraordinary as this also – and it was also on the news.

 

But it seems most people do not want to know about these miracles or view them as miracles…

 

Anyway, I will speak to you again.

 

LOVE

RENEE

30/09/2005 08:59 or 08:14

 

ns.  And I think I found myself a job yesterday as well, one I was looking for for some while now – I hope this one works out!!!!

 

 

03/10/2005 and if you view 10/2005 the 10+2+5=17 and the 03 is the inverse of the last letters’ day, 30.

 

Dear Lor

 

I did not know if I must start a new letter or just add to Lor57 and then I realized but something was going on with the page on the computer, it was set on the zoom for the whole page of 75%, or a 7 and a 5.  And this is Lor57!!

 

Oh, and it is now14:54 just turning 14:55 or 555, (I forgot to put in the time in the beginning of the letter – and then some time passed as I got busy with something else in the house).  But what I sat down to write to you about is this article that was in the Burger on 30/09/2005 on page 2, there were the one article telling about all the people of all religions that came together at some place in Cape Town to say thank you for the rain we received – but just below that article, on the same page is there an article which states the condition that hurricane Rita left behind.  And I am wondering by myself if these people here in Cape Town, specified in all their prayers for rain actually where they want the rain?  Or did they just assume if they ask and they are in Cape Town, it will all automatically come to Cape Town?  I am not so sure about that…and were there not 2 huge hurricanes in America and who knows how much typhoons in Japan and China?  Do you think it could be some folks sitting here in Cape Town and pray for rain and then America and the East get all the rain?  I wonder sometimes if the religions know Who they are dealing with when they are dealing with their concept of God?   I am just asking!!!

 

Anyway, it seems since the 3 years, 3 months, 3 days, thing has passed, I am feeling a lot more peaceful!

What is also very interesting is today’s  Burger, with the article of the St George’s Cathedral holding a service for the animals over the weekend – they were praying for the animals – the animals were not in the church, it were their owners that were doing some praying for them it seems, but it looked like some of the owners brought their pets along for the service as there was a picture on the front page.

 

Well, I will probably be talking again to you soon…

 

LOVE

RENEE

03/10/2005 15:12 or 31(2) where the 3 and 1 is the combination like old times but the 2 is stating something I haven’t figured out yet. 

Opening the (shower) Door.

Lore56 .

 

 

26/09/2005 09:10 or a 91 and Lor56

 

 

But it seems today is the 26^th also and the lotto ticket I got on Wednesday, 21^st , the Lotto ticket’s time was 17:45:46 or 17:91 (and you will see in the previous letters 17 and 17 is also connected to 44 and 91 is connected to this letter – see the beginning time – and has been explained in a lot of previous letters) and it looked like this:

 

1. 02
2. 06
3. 06
4. 02

 

and the Lotto ticket on Saturday, 24^th , time was 18:03:38 or 6+3=9 and 3+8=11 or 9:11 and read as follows

 

1. 04
2. 04
3. 01
4. 01

 

And looking at the fact that the business opportunity is connected for me with my dog and the inverse – who did I ask for advice? – I now found that the book that these guys spoke about was advertised in a kids magazine on page 26, the guy phoned ME up on 09:26 (or anything added to 9 stays anything), and then on Wednesday nights Lotto the numbers are 2662 and the 1^st row that is 2 and the 4^th row that is 2, where 2+2=4, relates not only to the 1 and 4 in Saturday nights lotto, but also, very oddly, the last number in the (2+2) or 4^th row, is 44!  Then, in Saturday nights lotto we have a 4 in the 1^st row and a 4 in the second row, and doesn’t 4 + 4 resemble 44, but also strangely the last number in the second row (the last row where a row starts with a 4), is also 44!  This gives us 3 44”s – and isn’t 44 connected with 17 and 71 and please see my previous letters with the connection between the combinations of 71 and 17.

 

So it seems there is a deliberate focus of attention on this business opportunity.

 

But Lor56 is L(12^th letter)o(15^th letter)r(18^th letter or doesn’t matter) and 5 + 6=11.  This gives us 3(12) + 6(15) or 9 and 11 or 9:11 but this time it starts changing and is not related only to event of 11/9, but this time there is more to it is it is now a 911 or a 91 and a one after it.  It gives a combination of 91 (end(9) and beginning(1)) and a one after it to make a combination of 91 and 1.  Like the combinations of 1 and 3 had some importance it seems.  Now the combinations get more “complicated?” or is it just on another level, with like for instance the above 91 and 1?  This also goes for the time in the Saturday night lotto ticket.  And it seems sometimes the 1 is in front and other times the 1 is following at the back, or at the left side or the right side?   This will probably sort it self out in time.

 

But I will speak to you again…

 

LOVE

RENEE

26/09/2005 10:14 and this gives us a 1 and 14 combination – I do not understand, it seems the combinations is also going into new dimensions now, and it seems I will have to sort them out still – maybe I do understand them already that I am just not aware of it. 

 

26/09/2005 11:17 a (1)(1) and a 17???

 

Dear Lor

 

I was in the shower now when my left knee started giving me a problem and my head said what is wrong?  And I worked it out it is my left (related to you) and my knee, which start with “k” or the 11^th letter of alphabet and this is Lor11 letter.  So my head showed me I had to come and add something to your letter – this.  Then, as I was cleaning the shower door, it opened and I said, but why does that happen?  And my head said:  it seems you are opening a door.  And I said but I don’t understand what is happening when one is opening doors (meaning on other levels) and my head said to me:  where are you now?  And I said, in the shower.  And my head said:  what is outside the shower?  And I said: the bathroom, or a bigger space…now I understand a bit better.  But it seems it has got a lot to do with this new way of viewing the numbers.

 

Anyway,…

 

LOVE

RENEE

26/09/2005 11:25 or (1)(1) and 25 which is related to 2005 as (0)(0) means nothing.

The Levels Things get to?

Lore55 .

 

 

23/09/05 17:19 and this is Lor55 and the 19 I am not going to explain again…

 

Dear Lor

 

I am writing “agterstevoor” to you again in some way.  This time I have written you the letter on Monday night – after the disaster in our house when my mother discovered the state my finances were in, and then I wrote to you earlier today, but about stuff that I have been dealing with since the 20^th , the day after the 19^th , which again was the end of my financial shit and the beginning of me understanding the new levels that money are functioning on.

 

On 20/09/2005, the morning at exactly 09:26, I received a missed call on my cell phone.  It was some guy who’s surname is Smit.  I phoned him back, but that call for some or other reason was not recorded on my phone to get the time I did it.  How that happened I do not know – but that is probably not important or I still have to discover the importance of that.  When I phoned this guy back, he said he has a business opportunity for me and asked if I was interested.  I agreed to meeting him at 11:00 at his offices.  But as I was talking to this guy I realized I have to go – this is meant to go to.

 

Well, these people are “selling” something but they are giving a lot more than anything I have heard of before.  Their stuff is based on a guy called Kiyosaki.  This guy wrote a book called “Rich dad, Poor dad”.  As I left the offices that morning I knew this was the answer to something, but I asked the Creator of All to give me clear indication if I must go with this thing or not (is this meant for me or not?).  Then I went to my cell phone company and went – in preparation – on a more dealable package for my needs.  This will save me half the money I am paying at the moment.  Then I went to my mother and she laughed so much about the fact that somebody invited me, who knows nothing about business, for a business opportunity that the tears were running from her eyes from laughter.

 

Then I came home and me and my father went to Spar to buy paper to wrap my brother’s daughters’ present.  Then my eye got hold on a magazine – it is a National Geographic Magazine for Kids.  But on the front page were Tutankamen.  So I asked my dad for money and he gave me the R9 to buy this magazine.  And then, as we arrived home, there were two magazines in the post box advertising this company’s one leg.  And as I went through the Kids magazine, I found this guy, this Kiyosaki’s guy’s book (Rich dad, Poor dad), on page 26 getting advertised for kids???  Isn’t this odd???  This book getting advertised for kids???  So 2 links were made already.

 

Then on 21/09/2005 I had a terrible day where I went to the bank and where I phoned up OUTsurance company and the whole time while on the phone, my father listened in.  And at 17:00 on Wednesday 21/09/2005, I was weak with I do not know what!  My legs did not want to function and I cannot explain how drained I was.  But in this whole process of feeling this way, I got the numbers 17, 18, 19.  Later my head told me to ask my father to go and get us Lotto tickets before 18:00.  But, what happened was that when Lotto’s numbers were drawn, 17, 18, 19 were al three drawn.  But I put them to their simplist form 891 and went first to my Afrikaans Bible and saw it is “ESEGIEL 13” and then in the “Hoog Hollands” bible it is Matthew 12.  And isn’t 13/12 the time I wrote my first letter to you today on Lore54?

Anyway, I had a strange dream the other night – it seems there were several dreams where I am killing snakes, as on the night of 20^th the morning of 21, I again dreamt of killing a snake, this time a pink one.  This was the night before I discovered some relations the ancient Egyptians have to Ra or Re.

 

And on 22/09/2005 I bought this magazine about Ancient Egypt and it is the first edition and the first edition deals with Ra or Re.  You also get a little figure of how Ra was portrayed by the ancient Egyptians.  But strangely enough is there no photographs, in any of the two books (magazines) I bought on ancient Egypt and the National Geographic one with Tuts on, with a pyramid?

 

But yesterday, it seems it was a turning point in my life, as you will see in the previous letter, the first one of Lor54.  So much has happened these last few weeks, me getting introduced to a new level of dealing with money and a new level of the concept “money”.  As in between all of this, the Afrikaans churches are dealing with stuff they do not know really how to deal with also, as they are build on “old” systems.  And it seems in every possible way, things are changing so rapidly to the new systems which are all kicking into place now.  Even the planet is cleansing herself with water now for cleaning out the old to make way for the new.

 

It seems we should actually rejoice…

 

LOVE

RENEE

23/09/2005 17:56 which again I do not know how to make sense of.

 

  Ns. Isn’t it strange that Lor55 happened before Lor54 but was written afterwards???

 

2^nd Ns.23/09/2005 18:15 or 6:6

I only now realized the end time of Lor54.  But I do not think this letter, who actually happened before Lor54, will make sense, as at that time, what happened in Lor54 did not make sense yet.  But you could view it that it is just adding to the fulfilment of 171 and one and not one and 171, where 171 and a combination is then a combination of a combination if a one as added upfront or at the back of the already existent 171 – completing the picture…

What’s the Point of The Exercise?

Lore54 .

 

 

23/09/05 13:57 or 1:12 or the beginning minutes, 12. And this is Lor54

 

Dear Lor

 

Yesterday it was 3 years, 3 months and 3 days after my shooting incident.  But it seems I have missed the whole point of the exercise – or was just following a plan to get there!

 

It seemed I was totally wrong about the Insurance Companies!!!  I do not even want to mention what I believed but I once told you in a previous letter.  But what are they doing?  They are putting in place money for people to let new energy enter into their lives.  As with the medical aids, after that initial letter I wrote to you about how the medical aids let you pay and pay, what have I learnt?  They are helping people, they are helping the system as not only are they paying for the ill person’s treatment, they are paying the doctor, they are paying the nurse and they are paying the person in the hospital kitchen cooking the food – so they are important in the system we are living in.  And they help people that are ill like with something like for instance cancer, to prolong their lives as they are paying on huge scale for treatment for these type of illnesses – for people to suffer longer.

 

And I wondered to myself, what have I missed?  If I look at it, I wonder if the end of the world was not that day when the aeroplanes hit the two towers (trade centre) to tell us something?  It was the end of the world as we knew it – but it was the beginning of a world we have to find.  We had to get out of our vision of the old system, like for instance that we need to do a hard days job from 9 to 5 to earn money.  It seems there has been put certain structures, which involves a new level of the concept of money, into place for us to discover heaven on earth.  You can go with the old system, believing in misery as the way to heaven, or you can discover these new structures been put into place for people to find heaven on earth.  Like insurance companies changing old energy into (when you buy new thing) into new/fresh energy.  Like certain people in certain places, been put there to help people who have discovered the “new” system, to help them reach the level of the new level that the money concept is functioning on.  So, if I look at it this way, I am asking myself the question if it isn’t that the end of the world happened and now we all just have to shake the old systems out of our systems and discover that we are already in heaven???  I always was struck by that movie “Wings of Desire” where the Angel just wanted to also experience life and enjoy that.  And now, discovering these new levels where the concept of money is functioning, I nearly did the same as the churches are doing, condemn it as a sin.  But I have had experiences where I now realize, but all these systems did not just fall out of the air – they have been put there for our enjoyment.  They have evolved for us to enjoy – they have no link to “sins”.  “Sins” is part of the old system.  And let those who want to play in that rubble, play there, as some or other time they will also find the way – the new way.  It took me a bullet in the bud, and 3 years, 3 months, and 3 days or 333.

 

But, as I said, it depends on every person himself/herself of how to view all this – this is just what I am going to make of what is going on in the world.

But I will speak to you again…

 

LOVE

Renee

23(5)/09/05 14(5):21(3) or 555 and 9+3=12 or 3, but the beginning minutes were 12 and the end, 21

 

 

23/09/05 16:43 or 7:7

 

Dear Lor

 

I have been watching CNN and it seems the earth are cleansing herself with water in some places on the globe.  It also seems that the planet is getting to do with the higher realms of knowledge/wisdom as there is still bird flue around in some places and doesn’t birds just symbolize for us the connection with the higher realms of knowledge??  It seems we are all really moving up with the planet!!!

 

LOVE

RENEE

23/09/05 16:47  I don’t know what to say about this time…

 

ns. 23/09/2005 18:09 or 9:9. 

The end time only make sense to me now, after I have written the next letter, Lor55, about my previous experiences, on the days before today.

 

It seems that 16 or 1+6=7 and 47 is 4+7 or 11 which gives us 7/11 or not as usual a one and 17 where 17 is only a inverse way related to “I shall be ever greatly revealed”, but rather 71 and one where 71 is directly related to “I shall be ever greatly revealed”!  So now I know what the end time, 16:47 is all about.

 

 

23/09/2005 18:39 or 9:12 or 12 again

 

Dear Lor

 

I saw in the newspaper today the Burger of 22/09/2005 on page 4, how there are now even laws been put in place to help with going over into the new systems as this organist of Moreletapark NG Church, are claiming R100 000 from the church because they kicked him out.  A lot of people are thinking that the laws of today are only benefiting the perpetrator, but it seems there have come in on some other level laws that the old system would kick against.  But it is being put in place to make way for the new way, the new systems.  As people will now get “money” for being treated unfairly or unjustly.  It is mechanisms for this new way of “money” for everybody, and the new way of making people not treat one another unjustly by way of the law.

 

It seems these little bits and pieces are coming through now in short letters like this one…

 

LOVE

RENEE

23/09/2005 18:48 or 9:12 and 9 + 12 equal 21 which makes this letter end on 21 again, and it has also started like the previous one on 12.

A Credit Mess?

Lore53 .

 

 

19/09/2005 21:14 or 3 and 5 and this is Lor53.

 

Dear Lor

 

It seems, according to my mother, I am in a mess!  We went to Woolworths tonight and with this money systems we have in today’s age, I tried to pay with a plastic card for a present for my brother’s daughter.  So the girl said to me the card doesn’t want to pay as a payment has been missed, but, I have credit to buy still for over R4000.  If I pay the payment that was not paid, which is about R300, I can buy again for R4000.  Then we decided to pay with my mother’s card as her payment is paid, but what I do not understand is that her credit is a whole lot less than mine – it is about R2000.  This just does not make sense!!!  Then my mother asked me what is going on on my bank account, as why is my Woolworths account not paid?  And you know what, how should I know???  I did receive some letters from the bank, but I did not understand the fancy words they use for the new money systems that are popping up like mushrooms, so I threw them away.  And I said to my mother that I think it is the credit card as the credit card people just kept raising and raising my limit and I did not notice it – why did they do it anyway?  I originally started the credit card with R4500 but how did it get to a limit now of R5700?  Who gave them permission to raise the original amount?  Now they are claiming over R1600 for the end of this month!  And it seems there are two sides to this credit card and one side has got nothing outstanding – according to my dad, but they want money (or what ever one can call this business stuff going on) for the side which are about R5000 outstanding.

 

But this is all still well, but I am wondering how does this fit in with “trade”?  Because my mother is a wreck about this whole thing and she says I owe Woolworths about R300 and the bank about R1600, how am I going to pay it?  And I said to her the same way she and my father are paying their accounts these last few months – they borrowed some money!  That only made her angry.  But my question is just, in this whole process, I am talking about money, but where is this money?  It seems it is only a lot of paperwork and computers and some numbers on the paperwork and the computers that are being called money!  So my mother told me if they close my bank account and blacklist me I will never ever be able to have a bank account anywhere ever again.  And I asked her what is this “blacklist” and it seems it is a list your name get on if you are in what is being called debt that you did not pay.  So what does physically do to you?  Well, it seems you will never be able to trade in the way where you do it by going into debt in some or the other way.  But what I try and tell my mother is that I was at the bank a long time ago and that is what debit orders are for – you just sit back and relax and the places claim their money by way of what is being called debit orders and all is fixed.  And that is what I relied on as I signed debit orders for all my stuff!  I call it stuff as one cannot put your finger on it as to what to call it otherwise by its name!!!  So my mother asked me when last did I check my bank account to see if the debit order went off and I thought to myself, how stupid can it be as if you have to check each month if the debit orders went off, why use it at all???  As then it is not as secure as the banks are selling it to be – and one are actually “paying” the bank for that security which seems one do not actually have, as you still have to check it!  And to get a statement from the bank you have to stand in a queue and then you have to fill in a form and identify yourself by way of your serial number in this country and “pay” for it as it is a service (again) that the bank is delivering.  Oh, all these services we as humans are “paying” for with money that seems to exist only on papers and computers in some form of numbers!  But when I tell my mother how stupid we actually all are to do this, she said to me I must let my father do the talking when we go and see the bank as the bank will think I am a moron and then they will not help me!  What is the worst that can happen?  Well, so much for getting a loan to pay other people’s debt!

 

But, I will speak to you again soon…

 

LOVE

Renee

19/09/2005 21:52 and see how the sentence before the last sentence is related to Lor52.

Just Robin Hood?

Lore52 .

 

 

17/09/2005 20:04 or 8 and the inverse of 7(2+5), 5, 4 which is 457 and 8

 

Dear Lor

 

I do not have a clue anymore what to do with my life.  It seems all the jobs I apply for are not meant for me.  But the other day my mother mentioned that there might be a possibility for a job opening at her work, and she is a debt collector.  But I wont be able to tell people to go and pay in money debt, which they do not have but I thought of what if I do the following…

 

What if I go and work there and I borrow some money from a bank or institution and each person on the list who has got debt they are not paying, I pay their debt for them.  Then, at the end of the month I get commission on what I have paid for them – and they get told the debt is written off – and with that I pay the next month the other people that are still in debts’ debt for them with the commission I have earned the previous month by paying the peoples debts, and at the end of that month I get commission on what I have paid in in the same way as the end of the first month.  So I will be getting commission on commission from money I have paid in to earn commission.  This way everybody’s debts get paid – but for them written off – and I keep on earning commission to keep on paying debts.

 

Am I now being silly?

 

LOVE

Renee

17/09/2005 20:22 or another 8(1+7 and 8pm) and 4, 5, 7

The blanket – Robin Hood

Lore51 .

 

 

15/09/2005 16:05 and are you linked to the 1 and 6 and then we are left with the 5 (again)

 

Dear Lor

 

I just want to add something small before I email this to you (Lor50 and 51).  The price of the transformer yesterday was R145 or as 4+5=9 a 1 and 9 or 19.  And the Lotto ticket I bought last night – at the same place as where I gave the boy a R50 note plus returned to give him a blanket – the time on it was 18:40:42.  This gives us a 18 or 9 and a 4+4+2 or 10 or 1, or added, a 9 and a 1 or 91

 

I don’t know what went on the past few days, but that something besides something, went on – I just cannot put my finger on it…

 

LOVE

Renee

15/09/05 16:09 and 16 resembles 4pm. And in the light that everything added to 9 resembles 9 we are left with 05 (of the year) and 4pm or 9 again.  And this gives us three 9’s and a 15 and as the 20 of the year are left out, if you add the 2 to 15 it gives 17 (and 1 and 7 combination related to “I will be ever greatly revealed” in some way).

 

Ns.  And today is 15^th and this is Lor51 and this letter consist of 17 written lines.