Money must be Funny?

Lore50 .

 

 

13/09/2005 22:51 turning 52

 

Dear Lor

 

Its been a while since I have written to you.  I have so much on my mind at the moment – things I really cannot put my finger on to, but have a distinct feeling about.  I applied for a job last week and got an interview on Monday.  The company got a lot of us together and gave a few introductory comments and then had a one on one interview with us all.  Now I must say, they did not take all the lot of us that pitched on Monday for the first interview.  But you get congratulated and told how good you are cause you made it to the second interview.  This was now today.  So the people pitched up and I realized a lot of them were nervous.  But what can really happen to you!  At least, you won’t get shot and even so, what does that matter?  Anyway, we had to deliver a speech in front of the rest and we were being told how positive one has to be to get through this round.  So, at the end of the day, everybody gets called into the office again one by one and you been asked a few questions again and this guy makes as if he is very impressed with your answers and you feel good and then he tells you how great you are because you have made it through to the 5 day training program.  But you also get homework today, you have to go and study 2 pages off by heart like a parrot.  Well, I already have a parrot and do not see the need for me to become one as well.  But as I came home and looked at the product given, there is nothing of the product, only a bunch of stuff you have to learn of how an engine works.  But the price of the product was given to us and I thought but I really want to see what this product looks like.  But no where yet is there a referral or picture, you jut have to learn a conversation with a non existent person off by heart and tell how the pistons of a car build up combustion and how it influences the carbon and gas releases.  The product is an engine decarbonizer.  The price is R3480 but it seems the management team prefer people paying off over 60 months then they pay R113 a month for 60 months – work that out and you get that they pay more than half of what the price is already.  So I phoned up this guy and asked if I may have his website address and first he gave me the wrong one.  I was starting to smell a rat and I do not know why at that stage as when I reached the email café there was no such website on the internet.  I send this guy a sms and said that I am an ex detective and I do not know what is going on – if this is part of the training as at this point there is no decarbonizer or a picture of what it looks like that we have to learn like parrots and I want a broader picture.  So he phones me up and told me that if I had been a good detective I would have found the right website myself – but then he gave me the correct website.  And I went back to email café and went into this corporation’s website.  The first thing I looked at was what this decarbonizer looked like as I thought, for that price, it must be bigger than the engine itself!  It turned out to be 4 plastic contraptions witch have some magnetic field inside to change the spark from the piston from negative to positive.  But I cannot believe that this stuff could be worth 60 months of payment of an end result of over R6000.  Then I went further into what they have and they are also on the stockmarket exchange and it seems that is why they want people they can pressure to manager level for those people to get into the shares as well.  The stock market thing was never mentioned today, but the thought did cross my mind how could this corporation be so flying with only one product and believe me there are a lot of chiefs in this corporation already that are getting fat salaries.  But they are recruiting more and more for managerial positions to raise the share thing it seems.

This brings me to what I actually want to get at.  This is the second company I applied for a job where I got this strange feeling.  They are doing everything according to the law, they are bypassing the law, not to be illegal, but it is going onto another level.   A level that is changing money into something I do not know what to call anymore.  The old laws are worn out, like the poor churches are having crisis, just in the corporate world, with companies with these new ways of viewing things and these new dimensions of making “money (do I dare calling it money anymore?) are fast growing and people with real positive attitudes can really make some “money” from this.  And it is putting food on the table for their children and they have the bucks.  They are the guys with the 4X4’s.  But no textbook at the universities at this stage can explain this new way of thinking.  This new way of creating wealth – and I am for a reason not using the word money!  It comes close to pyramid schemes, but it is also not.  It sounds like a scam, but if you view it in a positive way it only generates wealth – brand new Mercedes or 4X4.  And I do not know what to make of it – it is not illegal, but our laws are too old to handle today’s issues anyway.  Do one become part of it as at this stage it might be only the new radical way of thinking that is influencing me for accepting it – or doubting it.  What I do know is that I do not want to sell what I saw on the website for that ridiculous price, especially for the bargain that they can pay in a period of 60 months – which comes down to more than R6000!  But even this attitude, is it old fashioned?  Am I wasting time and opportunity to earn an income to put food on my table???

Things in society is now changing rapidly!!!  And the way petrol is going we are looking at a disaster if something does not come up pretty soon.  The choice is, go for this job and u will probably be one of the few who would be able to afford to drive around still.

 

But the level of creating wealth that I have picked up with this job as well as the one that was more obvious a pyramid system, is one that if you do not look you will not realize here is something different.  It is a form of creating wealth in a way that isn’t illegal, and what you perceive obvious about the earning of an income, if you do not look closely, you will not recognise that a different level of creating wealth has settled in.  I just don’t have words for what to call it – the previous one was a scheme without being a scheme, but this one goes even beyond.

 

But the other side of the coin is that this is not the only people with this idea or following this procedure or turning to this level.  There are a few of this sort of “jobs” going around and being advertised and people are in such need of jobs that they will not question what is going on, they will only follow like parrots to get to that month end “salary”.  Maybe this is the future way of creating food on your plate and on your children’s plates.  As all that is new in the beginning are seen (traditionally) like the Christians would put it – a sin.  These people are looking at “money” totally differently as they do not see that the client pays double the price by paying off over a 60 month period, they view it that it cost the client only, ONLY R113 a month which most people in these days can afford still – what is R113?  View it from month to month and not look ahead or the bigger picture that you are actually paying double that amount.  Just live from month to month and then it would be as cheap as R113 only. Forget 5 years, that is too far in the future!!!

 

I really do not know what to make of all this, but my heart is telling me at this stage that I do not want to fool people  – as that is how it feels to me still – this way.  So I guess I would rather stay looking for a job where my heart will feel at ease.

 

I have asked guidance about this, and tonight played on the “rich piggy” (and funny enough, this guy that is the tutor, looks a lot like this Piggy) machine at Grand West and as I put my card into the machine and put R20 in it, the machine jammed totally.  To such extent that they tried the one next to it as well as the technicians could not get it fixed and my card sommer jammed this one for pleasure as well.   Just to give the technicians of Grand West a headache as well…seems a lot of systems are dealing with headaches to answers that I do not know where we going to come up with from!!!

 

LOVE

Renee

13/09/2005 23:50 and the date adds up to 19 (what did I said to you does it symbolize for me?) and the time is 05 and 50 where the 5 is the sacred number of the white lions…and is this Lor50 as well?????

 

 

14/09/2005 11:33

 

Dear Lor

 

We have a situation at our house.  The kitchen lights has gone out totally now.  I keep telling my parents the problem is electric, but they kept telling me, trying to convince me it is the globes.  Now this morning my father has put in new light bulbs as all went dead totally – there are three small little lights build into the roof – but now they are still dead.  And you will not believe this but my father said that he must go and buy for the third one also a new light bulb and I asked him when is he going to accept that it is not the light bulbs?  And he said to me he hoped it was the light bulbs as there is no money for an electrician to come and fix the problem.  So I thought to myself this is real stupid, as for how long are we going to sit in the dark kitchen, hoping it is the light bulbs, meanwhile, ignoring the real problem???  So I phoned my mother up as well and told her it wasn’t the light bulbs and she said to me but my father is right and I said but for how long are we going to ignore the real problem hoping it is the light bulbs?  So she said so what do I suggest!  And I said, well, we can do it their way, sit in the dark kitchen hoping it is the light bulbs till.. I don’t know when…

(Anyway, I don’t know what is going to happen, but Saturday night there was this boy at the 7/11 that wanted money and I gave him R50 – 5 again – and then he asked me for a blanket as well.  Eventually I came home and sneaked one of our blankets out and drove back and gave it to him.  So I stole one of my mother’s blankets and I don’t know what I am going to tell her or what is going to happen if she discover this blanket missing!  Though I must say, initially I did buy the blanket, but my mother consider such stuff as hers)

 

I wonder if there is a problem that I am ignoring that I am hoping will get fixed by a different way???

 

LOVE

Renee

14/09/05 12:06 which gives 5 9 5 9.

 

 

14/09/05 20:33 and 8pm + 3+3=14 or 5 which gives 5 9 5 5 or 555

 

Dear Lor

 

Some part of the action was still missing this morning with the last letter seeing there were only two 5’s.  Now there are three.  So what happened, I intervened as my parents were feeling terrible and couldn’t handle it anymore so I went and bought the transformer that was the problem, and I went up there myself to fix the lights.  The first time it was a tremendous struggle with all the little wires – and remember I am not a electrician, but I asked God for help.  After 2 hours I was finished and got down to check with my father if it was working and fixed, but it wasn’t.  Then I went up there a second time and this time there were two wires I just could not get to where they belonged until I asked God to PLEASE help out and a miracle happened and they just in some or other way fell into the right place and was fixed.  So the second time a miracle happened that made my fixing of the lights successful!

 

So the kitchen lights are fixed now.  And it did not cost us much.

But I will speak to you again; just wanted to share with you that with guidance one can even do electrical work – this came up with your story of your dad working on his car and you advising him to call in help…!  Thank you for that story!!!

 

LOVE

Renee

14/09/05 20:43 and 2+4+3=9 which gives us again 5 9 5 9 as the previous letter ended… 

 

Free Will or Not?

Lore49 .

 

 

06/09/2005 14:53 but if you view the date it is 6+2+5=13 as 9 don’t have to be considered

 

Dear Lor

 

Yesterday in my question151 letter the number 35 kept turning up, today I start at the end of the time, which is 53.

 

I woke up last night or shall I rather say this morning, at 03:22 and all I was aware of was the number 16.  It figured so heavily but the “dream” was too complicated to remember??  Does that make sense??  Anyway, then later I fell asleep again and just before I was woken up I was dreaming of playing scrabble with Marion.  And I built with my letters I had the word “ysterfontein” and I added a piece of wood to make it “ysterfonteinhout”.  And everybody playing with was demanding but how can I do that?  How can a take a piece of wood and add it to a word to build a word in the scrabble game.  And I said no I can do it as it is just creative.

 

I am battling with the thought what if every thought of every person is guided by the Underlying Force in the Universe?  How ridiculous would it not be for that Force – actually playing itself off in many a different ways.  As it make me think something to say to my mother and it make my mother think something in order to answer me – this is just crazy, but my head said when this “understanding(?)” is bothering me I must rather think how great this reality is as one cannot even take one person out without that person leaving a lot of traces which make it nearly impossible for anyone to be taken out of this reality as if that one never existed at all – a person just have too much traces all over to get rid of even one person without the rest of the reality realizing that that specific person has just disappeared!  I don’t know, this reality thing and the free will concept and the guided thought concept is just too great.  And you must be getting bored now with these concepts!

 

Anyway, I need to go and apply for jobs, so I will speak to you again soon.

 

Love

Renee

06/09/2005 15:08 and does 5+3=8 as well???

 

Oh, before I forget, last night it appeared that the word

1. Eve – its numerical value is 545 and 5+4+5=14 or 5 or alternatively 5+4=9=4+5 or then 9
2. Adam – numerical value is 1414 or 1

 

Which gives us that Adam + Eve adds up to 15 and it seems not the combination of air numbers, but 6, the fire number…

 

Or, the alternative

 

Adam added to Eve gives 1 and 9, the beginning and the end, but remember the strange thing about the last number is that “everything” added to it adds up to “everything” …

There is no love, loyalty than that of a DOG!

Lore48 .

 

 

02/09/2005 and 2+9+2+5=9, like the 2^nd number. 12:16

 

Dear Lor

 

I woke up after 4am this morning and wrote down my dream, but your presence felt as if it was all around me.   And last night, before I went to sleep, I saw you out in the cosmos, as large as the cosmos and you had a cloud of electric waves around your head and your arms were stretching out and the electric waves came from there as well as your head.  And you were sort of looking up.  I was aware that there were a circle of other beings doing this with you and that you all formed a circle around me, all doing what you were doing.

 

02/09/2005 12:33 or 333 and these few lines took me so long as I dwelled off in thought and repeated your name 3 times for three times.

 

 

02/09/2005 18:12 and if you view the end time of the first letter, it is 12:33(6) and this letter’s time is 18(6):12, just the inverse

 

Dear Lor

 

It seems it is not time to tell yet…

 

Love

Renee

02/09/2005 18:22

 

 

03/09/2005 15:52 or 03:52 and if you view the date 9 added to anything equal anything so you can ignore it – this gives 03/25 as 0 means nothing, what is it with 0 and 9 that one can ignore them?

 

Dear Lor

 

I do not know how I am going to catch up with everything that happened since last week this time!  Last week this time I was a roaring male lion and destructing the earth and the universe until I reached a point of destruction where that feeling could not go any deeper, it could only raise again – up from the bottom of the pit.  And then there were this beam from my chest of violet going out, surrounding the planet totally.  But Monday I hit my worst and the anger were on some point so tremendous that I was jumping ON my feet and tried to pull out my hair in anger with my mom.  But Monday afternoon I first tuned into my father’s depression feelings and not long after that, my brothers’.  How that happened, I felt sorry for them.  And both of them were feeling like suicide.  My mother, she was angry, being a debt collector and feeling everything – all the stress – coming down on her, she was angry and I picked that up as well.  And why did all this happen – the picture which came up when I asked this question on Wednesday, was that I were disloyal to my dog on Saturday morning.  He lifted his leg against some of my mother’s furniture again and this time – to try and be for humans for a change – I just called him, but in a certain voice tone and he ran off hiding behind the bed.  That made my mother feel good, but it seems not for long as on Monday I was the focus for her frustration.  And with all my brother’s and my father’s stuff, plus her frustration, I nearly went nuts!  The lesson I have learned – do not ever think a human being will be as loyal as a dog.  This dog, doesn’t matter what, has always stuck to me – in my worst times and in my best times, he was always there and he always loves me.  But my mother, and this is now a mother, I chose her side on Saturday morning against the dog and what did I get in exchange?  The lesson, not even a mother’s love can come close to my dog’s love.  It seems the Universe were angry because of Saturday morning – because I did not take my dog’s side and all hell broke loose, not only at me and my parents, but also at my brother and his family.

And there were a previous lesson where my dog was ill and me not taking him to the vet where it also felt like lightning hitting me – but then it was just me, this time my whole family was thrown into the thing as well.  We all suffered in one way or the other but for me, I picked up on all of their stuff as well and as I said – it nearly caused me to go nuts (to put it mildly).  And while we were suffering, the poor Americans suffered from hurricane Katrina!  But last week, one morning I was doing my Goddess cards and got the card Kali twice.  And I read up and saw that she is of birth and rebirth and that the ancients feared her because it always meant floods or disaster or fire or something.  And I still thought to myself, now what is going to happen next in my life that is going to be this radical?  

 

Thursday night I went for the first time to a woman named Carol’s place for meditation.  And I could feel myself going wow, off and I even received a little flower, their names are cosmos flowers, to show I am way off.  But Carol’s theme for the evening, because it was the 01/09, was the sun.  But this was powerful stuff as after the flower I saw a man from far coming my way and as he came close, for the first time, I could make out even the colour of his eyes so clear was his face.  And he represented a sword to me and the word Excalibur came up all the time, in fact, for the rest of the meditation the word was filling my head.  The sword had a red ruby where the handle and the sword cross.  But it seems this sword is now in my system as I can see it with the handle in my chest and a little version in my head.

 

Today, at Grand West, they have a machine called the Warrior Queen, and this machine has got a sword with a red ruby and it has a ring with red ruby and then a warrior queen woman substituting for that and of the other stuff there is.  So the first time I played the one machine (there are two) and got a vehicle type of thing that is all in fire.  I got 3 vehicles and two warrior queens (the substitutes) which made it five and you cannot get more – that is the winning one.  Then I also got the two rings which gives one 9 free games.  Later I landed at the other machine, right at the back of the first one and got the 5 swords, 3 swords and two substitutes again.

  On the first machine I also got the 5 kings.

 

But, at the moment I am waiting to hear from a agricultural company for a courier job.  I really hope I can get this job and get it right.

 

Oh, and isn’t it all confusing that on 31/08/05 (or 31/8+5=13 or 31/13) the Islamic Shiite are confused by someone shouting “suicide bomber” and all ending up in a stampede?  Even if you look at the date, it is all about confusedness. But anyway, …

 

Love

Renee

03/09/2005 16:43 or 7:7 the same number, but by different combinations…

 

04/09/2005 17:12 and 4+9+2+5=11 and 17(8)+1+2=11 or 11 11 or 22

 

Dear Lor

The Truth Lies Within…

Lore47 .

 

 

29/08/2005 and 2+9=11 or 2 and add 8+2+5=17 or the inverse of 71 the page of where I found the meaning of 44.  12:35 and 1+2+3+5=11(the number left out is 4) and we also started with a combination of 11, namely 29

 

Dear Lor

 

Last night a woman called Pat Angove phoned me up and said she can do a one on one session with me today at 17:00. (why does the combination of 7 and 1 figure again?)  I heard a while ago that she were coming to South Africa and that she had a course this weekend that have just passed.  But up until Thursday I was not sure if I was meant to go on this course or not.  So Thursday night my parents decided they wanted to go to Grand West. My mother gave me a hundred rand to gamble with and I nearly lost it all when I was playing on a picture machine and got the Jackpot of the picture of the Holy Grail (it is a golden cup with ruby’s on it) on each line and on some lines even more than one.  This gave me 6000 credits.  Then I thought I must play further as this is not R700 for the course as it is only a 25c machine.  So I played on and lost all.  Then my mother was playing on a machine but won nothing on it and my head told me to make the 10 points I have on my golden card(and I got a golden card as I did not even know I qualified for one but I forgot my silver card the previous time in a machine without realizing it and when I wanted another card, they told me I qualify already for a long time now for a golden card) R10 (you can do that) and with this R10 I played on this cowboy machine.  Within the first few presses I got free games and this pushed my credits up.  Then in another free game episode, I got the cowboy in the first column in all four rows and in the second column I got also the cowboys and then the third and the fourth and the fifth rows were covered with the substitute – the sheriff (it is a sheriff badge that acts as substitute)  This also got me 6000 credits.  Eventually I ended up with 9000 credits on the cowboy machine and this was over R400 rand.  Well, I wonder if there is a connection between the Holy Grail and the sheriff substituted winnings as both were 6000?  I did not know I was going to get a one on one session with this woman and was only concentrating on the workshop – and therefore, on Thursday night, I played on, but lost it all.  Maybe it was meant for the one on one session, but my head keeps asking me what do I want to go and do at her session as my head shows me everything – and I remembered when you said that it doesn’t help to go to psychics as they cannot get the information that only you can.  So I guess the fact that I was concentrating on only the weekend workshop shows me, as I could not generate enough money for this weekend, that not one of them was meant.

 

Well, I have emails to go and send – applications for jobs…so I will speak to you again later.

 

Love

Renee

29/08/2005 12:59 but the the whole of the time of the end of the letter – 12(3):59(5) resembles the last part of the time of the beginning time, namely 35.

My Ridiculous Perceptions!

Lore45 .

 

 

22/08/2005 17:26 or 8:8 and isn’t it the 8^th month as well…

 

Dear Lor

 

On 02/09/2004 between 18:35, and isn’t 3+5=8 also, and 19:19, I told you I thought that there were going to be trouble with the insurance and that we were going to loose our house, but that turned out to be totally wrong as the two policies paid out without ANY difficulty, so I guess we will keep our house as well.  Seems one can never tell anything unless it has happened?

 

But I will speak to you again..

Love

Renee

22/08/2005 17:30 or 5pm:30 and 5 + 3 = 8 this is the 5^th 8 without the month of the date of the end of the letter or the 6^th 8 when the month of the date of the end of the letter is included.

 

 

22/08/2005 19:19 and 2+2+8+2+5=19 also

 

Dear Lor

 

I want to share with you something that I found extremely funny today.  On Friday I phoned, after I found an ad in the newspaper for a job, a certain number and this lady told me that all that the job consist of is answering a phone.  And the best part is, it has to be a cell phone so one can do it from where ever you are – just answer the phone.  I still thought, cool and I asked but what must I do.  Then she told me I must be at their offices in Claremont today at 08:30 with R400 for the starter pack.

 

So here I eventually found myself with 9 other woman (yes, a 1(me) and 9 others or a 1 and a 9 or 19) this morning at this company’s offices in Claremont.  The receipt I got’s number was 74 and 7+4=11.  Then also on the receipt is my reference number which is 1638 and the 16 combination is connected to you and that leaves us with 3+8 which also equals 11 which gives us 2 11’s or 22.

 

But let me get back to the story.  This is a crazy job that left me with a question again.  Another sort of lesson.  It turns out that the job consist of the following.  Idiot pay these people to put an add in the newspapers for idiot -  but one that corresponds to the one that I replied to.  Then if any other idiots phone you you tell them that all they have to do is answer calls.  And then if this idiot is idiot enough, you tell him to take R400 to Claremont to the company’s offices and become the next idiot in the never ending story.  Ok, but you also get registered on a USA internet company with this R400 and everybody that register to this internet company using idiot’s reference number give idiot five dollar for earning a member.  But what shook my head was this story:  As I came home I thought to myself will it be ethical to refer people to go and do exactly what I did today?  And I was asking the question if it is some kind of con concept to tell people that they will do a job, but to get this job you pay R400 and then you just answer calls.  I know, it sounds as if – what is wrong with that – but inherently I feel that there is something not just to this?  But what made me realize how idiotic it can be, as I came home I thought of finding another job and phoned to some other add in the newspaper.  Who should answer?  An idiot that completed his R400 payment last week.  So the idiots are phoning one another now.  No, we are not idiots it is just that as I was writing this to you now the concept did not seem so extremely funny or idiotic to me anymore.  I do not understand what has changed my perspective about all this without me noticing or anything happening accept me writing it out to you – as I wrote a different letter as well to somebody else about it and that one was a real classic as to how idiotic the situation was.  But as I said to you in my cover letter to Lor44 this afternoon, I am dealing with “wholeness”, seeing the dualities and experiencing them just to get to the “wholeness” of that dual concept!

 

I mean, if I look at it now, why not pay R400 and you can get paid in dollar and this South African company pays you a commission from their side as well.  But I guess it is as I said this afternoon, it takes a twist of logic to have seen it the way I did this afternoon and another twist to see it like I am seeing it now!  I think I must do a meditation to emanate the devine spark from this situation into its wholeness.  Funny enough, this morning when I got the receipt number and the reference number I thought that this job was going to be a job that would actually for a change be one that I can do to earn an income with approval from my head.  And seeing the 16 or the link to you – it is only in writing to you now that I realize but there is nothing “wrong” or any harm done to anyone by doing this job.  And I thank my head now for showing me both as the first scenario was an idiot story and very funny and gave me a lot of fun today.  But this second scenario will come in very handy!!!  So in a way the numbers predicted something or did it?  As the connection was 16 and 22 and 22 I link with the same aspect as the 1 and 3 combinations – just the 22 has got only 1 combination it just is 22.

But the letter is getting long now and my feet are getting cold so I’ll speak to you again.

 

LOVE

Renee

22/08/2005 19:57 and where did I found so much significance with the 5 and 7?  Remember the previous letter, Lor44 and that the 5 and 7 comb were related to the Lotto?

 

 

23/08/2005 13:25

 

Dear Lor

 

What is my day like today?  It seems not much better than 2 years ago?  Last night I asked for the emanation of the Divine spark in the “job” thing and got a man on a cross and some light growing lighter on the cross.  Well the cross was a burden – in fact, our financial burden, and it was growing lighter so this “job” will make our financial burden lighter.

 

Then this morning the first woman phoned but I did not even give her the reference number as she said she will come back to me.  The second guy phoned up and he also said he will come back to me.  Then my head told me to tell the people there is a deadline for the training and I, not my head, decided to phone the second guy back and told him that.   Then he just said to me in so many words then I can keep my job!  And I thought something was wrong.  Then I phoned up my friend Len and he said I it sounds like a pyramid scheme I should stay away from it.  And I thought, not my head, that I am harming these people in paying R400 and loosing it.  So I had a cry on my floor in my room and had terrible pain as to what am I planning on doing to these people?  But then the third person phoned me and I told her she must have the wrong number.  This I told to the fourth and the fifth as well.  But meanwhile I was suffering because of the state me and my parents are in.  And it even crossed my mind that maybe we are going to get into financial debt because my mother is a debt collector?   My whole  morning was just so confusing as I just did not want to hurt anybody in any way, but if I look back now, it seems I did!

 

My head made me feel so bad that I had to go and lie down.  Then my head showed me that I already had 5 people calling, 5 people who would have the potential not only to get me my R400 back and even more, but they could do that for themselves the next day as well.  So three of these people did not have the chance to make that money – even if it would have cost them R400 at first.  And I have proof that it works, even though I turned the people down, I had 5 phone calls already!!!  And now I am punishing myself because I harmed 3 people because I did not want to harm them?  Does that make sense?  But I realize my mistake now.  But like 2 years ago, I thought I harmed innocent people.  And like today, maybe I harmed them all more with what I have done – 2 years ago and today.  But it seems my head can really confuse me with ethical stuff and as long as I have proof now that I will not be harming those people to tell them to go for the training, I feel better doing it.  I just have to deal with the fact that there are 3 people out there now who could have earned a few bucks, but who I have harmed now by with holding them form an opportunity.

 

Lor, it is so difficult, all these ethical stuff that comes up as my head really give me heavy stuff to deal with – I just want to thank my head (and I scratched myself on my head coincidentally and now my head said to me he is bleeding as my head is bleeding.) for clearing this for me and I hope I can get another chance now at this because I now have clarity – that I am not harming people by referring them, if I do not refer them I might be harming them.  And I had your letter of last night that told me it was going to be ok and the “vision” of the man on the cross and the light growing on the cross, but still I feared this morning that I was going to harm innocent people.  Why do I fear this so much that I will do myself in in order not to harm others?  Meanwhile, in my stupidity I have harmed them, what do I do now, how do I correct my mistake how do I take it back and change it?  Well, my eyes just landed on the word “fine” and it seems all is going to be fine but there will be a fine to pay for another add in the newspaper to have a second chance.

 

And on the past Saturday I realized it is possible to make up money that was suppose to be in my pocket but which I lost.  On Saturday it was proven to me that I can have a second chance – so I hope today I have a second chance again!  If I look at today, it seems the day have been saved, as I have clarity, and will not end like in the way it ended 2 years ago.  Was everything meant?  I do not know as this thing with what is meant and what not – I am questioning if there is anything that happens that is not meant to happen?   

But 2 years ago I also harmed 3 (this year 3 unknown people) but 2 years ago that Saturday morning I thought in the first place, I have harmed innocent people, you and your family and friend around you.  And that, by not complying to the ritual I had to do exactly as I was suppose to, I forsaken God and in this process have caused for the dimensions not to be straightened.  And forsaken God in not letting my dog out into the wide world on Friday night, before the journey took place – which I failed anyway as I did not let Charlie out before I left and I still had the lioness around my neck after I was suppose to throw everything I had on, away.  But then, Saturday morning I tried to make up for forsaken God by not letting my dog out on Friday night, and let him out after I threw the Lioness necklace away also(but too late) into the big wide world.  And I can still see him running out and I went inside that little place I was staying in not to see a car hitting him or overrun him.  So what did I have left on Saturday 23/08/2003?  The only thing I had left to do was that I did not deserve to be on this planet anymore as because of all the above I did.  I wasn’t even scared to take those pills as I thought that is what I deserve, to die.  I am only harming people and have no dog left and in that process has forsaken God.  Let alone having to straighten the dimensions?

 

So there were three things then as there are three things today.  I will not even try to take my own life again as it seems it would not work – like the pills in 2003 did not work.  But am I feeling bad, yes!  Do I know how to make myself feel better at this stage, no!  I am just going to have to live through this one…

 

LOVE

Renee

23/08/2005 14:23 and 14 is 2pm and 2 + 3 = 5 so the time is a camouflage of 2 and 5 or 25 like in this year 2 and 5 or 25 as 0 means nothing.

 

 

24/08/05 09:43 and 2 + 4 + 8 + 5 = 19, which for me is end/beginnings but more beginnings as where does something end and where does the new begin – like with my shooting incident, for me it felt that the end was when the bullet was forcing my body to the ground and the beginning was from that exact moment…does that make sense?

 

Dear Lor

 

I am so happy at the moment.  What happened now was, I was sitting in my favourite room with the dog.  The sitting room as this time of the morning there is a lot of sun if it is a sunny day.  Then I saw myself raised to a higher level in my inner space.  And as I came to that level there were some guy who lifted me onto a ladder to another level.  I climbed the ladder and landed in a huge hand.  The hand was sort of like a cloud but the colour was bluish, whitish.  As I was sitting in this hand the Voice of that morning of the 19^th of August 2003, that said to me I must now create, came to me again and said I must create.  And like on the morning of the 19^th in 2003 I said but I cannot create and this time I added because this Voice knows my reasons.  And then it came to me, 2 years and 5 days after that morning it came to me, the answer came to me.  I said to the Voice I do not want to create but can I ask the Voice to do it for me, like I say what I want and then the Voice do the creating part of what I want.  This sounds so easy, but it took me 2 years and 5 days to figure this out?!  The 2 and the 5 and looking at the previous letter, that is where that letter ended on, a 2 and 5.

 

But I must say, what I have been through in this 2 years and 5 days is every philosophers dream.  Did I tell you what my horoscopes yesterday in the Burger said?

 

“Boogskutter

Wees dankbaar vir die gawe

Van kennis en jou vermoe om

Geleenthede te sien.”

 

This was in the “Bylaag” section on page 10.

But I do not feel like I have a lot of knowledge, I just know that a lot is captured in these letters I have been writing to you.

 

But I will speak to you again…

 

LOVE

Renee

24/08/2005 10:03 or 13 and I drew the card “Balance” from the Angel Healing Cards pack and its description is on page 13 in the booklet.  But the description in the booklet had no significance except for the fact that it is on page 13.  I understand it to find balance in the difficult opposites that I get to deal with…

 

 

24/08/05 13:53 and the second part of the time is 8(5+3) as the first part of only the month and the year are 8.  And the first part of the time is 13 but the combination of month and year add up to 13.

 

Dear Lor

 

I was trying to write a letter but it did not work out and I had to delete it, but what was important it seems, was the date and time and the part I wrote about it.  What the above comes down to is that the 13 combination is figuring heavily in this month of this year.  And I am not going into what that combination states for me.  But there is also an inverse hidden as the last of time(minutes) corresponds to first of (month and date only – without the day) – and where does the inverse lie?  What is the inverse of first?  Isn’t it “last”? This leaves that the last time and this first(reborn) time is the same, with the last one that have to be added up which makes it just on one level different.  But it is still 8.  And 8 is connected to eternity and that was what I wanted to write to you about now, but it seems the date and time and the lesson coming from that is more important.

 

Only after the whole of the 08^th month of 2005 has passed, will we know why the 13 is connected with this month this year.

 

So, maybe I will speak to you later again or maybe this will get mailed and a new letter started, I do not know yet.

 

LOVE

Renee

24/08/05 14:14 the first time and the last time is corresponding.

 

 

24/08/2005 2:57pm and this gives us a 5 and a 7 again which added leads to 12 and combined with the inverse of the first part of the time, it gives 20 and 12 or added, 2012.

 

Dear Lor

 

It seems we are not finished yet.  I have since years ago been wondering about eternity.  But in the previous letter I speak of 8 that is taken as the number of eternity.  If that is so, then we must also realize that 8 is not the last number.  The last number is 9.  And the quality of 9 is that “everything” added with 9, adds up to “everything”.  Like if you add 1 to 9 you will get 1 again in numerology.  So the same goes for 8.  If the number of eternity – which is not the last number in the row – is added to 9, it adds up to eternity.  But the last(9),  added to the last(9), adds up still the last.  My question is just:  If after eternity’s number there is a “last” number – or something following after eternity, doesn’t this take eternities character of eternalness away?  As when one imply that beyond eternity lies something, that something is giving eternity a boundary namely the something beyond and then it cannot be eternity anymore.  This is so confusing as why is there a number after 8, why isn’t 8 the last number, why isn’t eternity the last thing – or is it?

I think I am not seeing the picture…

 

But I can now understand 19 better as it was the first of the new and the last of the old. (I refered in a previous letter to 19 as pointing beginnings for me)

 

Renee

24/08/2005 15:12 so this letter starts with relating to 12 and ends with 12.

 

 

24/08/2005 15:31 the 3 and 1 combination now again…

 

What came up now was that “hand” I was referring to in one of the previous letters today.  The “hand” I landed in when, reaching a certain level got put on another ladder leading up and landing up in this hand.

 

Now, if you look at a hand, it consist of a thumb (which has a distinct difference from the other 4 fingers) and the four other fingers or the thumb(1) and 4 other fingers which gives us a 1 and a 4.  But if you view the 4 other fingers and this hand I was sitting in, if this hand should have (in Afrikaans there is a saying that if you had something to do with something, you had a finger in the pie) a finger in the pie – that leaves us with the finger that is busy stirring and three other fingers left on the hand which gives us a 1 and a 3 or the 3 and the 1 combination. I wonder who’s hand had a finger in the pie in all the events in the world which are connected with the 1 and the 3 combination?  To(2) who’s cloudy, bluish, whitish “hand” had I climbed to(2) this morning – and the 2 2’s gives us 22.

 

Renee

24/08/2005 15:40 or 3:40pm and this is week 34 as the week all those “journeys” happened happened to be week 34 of 2003.

My Ridiculous Perceptions!

Lore45 .

 

 

22/08/2005 17:26 or 8:8 and isn’t it the 8^th month as well…

 

Dear Lor

 

On 02/09/2004 between 18:35, and isn’t 3+5=8 also, and 19:19, I told you I thought that there were going to be trouble with the insurance and that we were going to loose our house, but that turned out to be totally wrong as the two policies paid out without ANY difficulty, so I guess we will keep our house as well.  Seems one can never tell anything unless it has happened?

 

But I will speak to you again..

Love

Renee

22/08/2005 17:30 or 5pm:30 and 5 + 3 = 8 this is the 5^th 8 without the month of the date of the end of the letter or the 6^th 8 when the month of the date of the end of the letter is included.

 

 

22/08/2005 19:19 and 2+2+8+2+5=19 also

 

Dear Lor

 

I want to share with you something that I found extremely funny today.  On Friday I phoned, after I found an ad in the newspaper for a job, a certain number and this lady told me that all that the job consist of is answering a phone.  And the best part is, it has to be a cell phone so one can do it from where ever you are – just answer the phone.  I still thought, cool and I asked but what must I do.  Then she told me I must be at their offices in Claremont today at 08:30 with R400 for the starter pack.

 

So here I eventually found myself with 9 other woman (yes, a 1(me) and 9 others or a 1 and a 9 or 19) this morning at this company’s offices in Claremont.  The receipt I got’s number was 74 and 7+4=11.  Then also on the receipt is my reference number which is 1638 and the 16 combination is connected to you and that leaves us with 3+8 which also equals 11 which gives us 2 11’s or 22.

 

But let me get back to the story.  This is a crazy job that left me with a question again.  Another sort of lesson.  It turns out that the job consist of the following.  Idiot pay these people to put an add in the newspapers for idiot -  but one that corresponds to the one that I replied to.  Then if any other idiots phone you you tell them that all they have to do is answer calls.  And then if this idiot is idiot enough, you tell him to take R400 to Claremont to the company’s offices and become the next idiot in the never ending story.  Ok, but you also get registered on a USA internet company with this R400 and everybody that register to this internet company using idiot’s reference number give idiot five dollar for earning a member.  But what shook my head was this story:  As I came home I thought to myself will it be ethical to refer people to go and do exactly what I did today?  And I was asking the question if it is some kind of con concept to tell people that they will do a job, but to get this job you pay R400 and then you just answer calls.  I know, it sounds as if – what is wrong with that – but inherently I feel that there is something not just to this?  But what made me realize how idiotic it can be, as I came home I thought of finding another job and phoned to some other add in the newspaper.  Who should answer?  An idiot that completed his R400 payment last week.  So the idiots are phoning one another now.  No, we are not idiots it is just that as I was writing this to you now the concept did not seem so extremely funny or idiotic to me anymore.  I do not understand what has changed my perspective about all this without me noticing or anything happening accept me writing it out to you – as I wrote a different letter as well to somebody else about it and that one was a real classic as to how idiotic the situation was.  But as I said to you in my cover letter to Lor44 this afternoon, I am dealing with “wholeness”, seeing the dualities and experiencing them just to get to the “wholeness” of that dual concept!

 

I mean, if I look at it now, why not pay R400 and you can get paid in dollar and this South African company pays you a commission from their side as well.  But I guess it is as I said this afternoon, it takes a twist of logic to have seen it the way I did this afternoon and another twist to see it like I am seeing it now!  I think I must do a meditation to emanate the devine spark from this situation into its wholeness.  Funny enough, this morning when I got the receipt number and the reference number I thought that this job was going to be a job that would actually for a change be one that I can do to earn an income with approval from my head.  And seeing the 16 or the link to you – it is only in writing to you now that I realize but there is nothing “wrong” or any harm done to anyone by doing this job.  And I thank my head now for showing me both as the first scenario was an idiot story and very funny and gave me a lot of fun today.  But this second scenario will come in very handy!!!  So in a way the numbers predicted something or did it?  As the connection was 16 and 22 and 22 I link with the same aspect as the 1 and 3 combinations – just the 22 has got only 1 combination it just is 22.

But the letter is getting long now and my feet are getting cold so I’ll speak to you again.

 

LOVE

Renee

22/08/2005 19:57 and where did I found so much significance with the 5 and 7?  Remember the previous letter, Lor44 and that the 5 and 7 comb were related to the Lotto?

 

 

23/08/2005 13:25

 

Dear Lor

 

What is my day like today?  It seems not much better than 2 years ago?  Last night I asked for the emanation of the Divine spark in the “job” thing and got a man on a cross and some light growing lighter on the cross.  Well the cross was a burden – in fact, our financial burden, and it was growing lighter so this “job” will make our financial burden lighter.

 

Then this morning the first woman phoned but I did not even give her the reference number as she said she will come back to me.  The second guy phoned up and he also said he will come back to me.  Then my head told me to tell the people there is a deadline for the training and I, not my head, decided to phone the second guy back and told him that.   Then he just said to me in so many words then I can keep my job!  And I thought something was wrong.  Then I phoned up my friend Len and he said I it sounds like a pyramid scheme I should stay away from it.  And I thought, not my head, that I am harming these people in paying R400 and loosing it.  So I had a cry on my floor in my room and had terrible pain as to what am I planning on doing to these people?  But then the third person phoned me and I told her she must have the wrong number.  This I told to the fourth and the fifth as well.  But meanwhile I was suffering because of the state me and my parents are in.  And it even crossed my mind that maybe we are going to get into financial debt because my mother is a debt collector?   My whole  morning was just so confusing as I just did not want to hurt anybody in any way, but if I look back now, it seems I did!

 

My head made me feel so bad that I had to go and lie down.  Then my head showed me that I already had 5 people calling, 5 people who would have the potential not only to get me my R400 back and even more, but they could do that for themselves the next day as well.  So three of these people did not have the chance to make that money – even if it would have cost them R400 at first.  And I have proof that it works, even though I turned the people down, I had 5 phone calls already!!!  And now I am punishing myself because I harmed 3 people because I did not want to harm them?  Does that make sense?  But I realize my mistake now.  But like 2 years ago, I thought I harmed innocent people.  And like today, maybe I harmed them all more with what I have done – 2 years ago and today.  But it seems my head can really confuse me with ethical stuff and as long as I have proof now that I will not be harming those people to tell them to go for the training, I feel better doing it.  I just have to deal with the fact that there are 3 people out there now who could have earned a few bucks, but who I have harmed now by with holding them form an opportunity.

 

Lor, it is so difficult, all these ethical stuff that comes up as my head really give me heavy stuff to deal with – I just want to thank my head (and I scratched myself on my head coincidentally and now my head said to me he is bleeding as my head is bleeding.) for clearing this for me and I hope I can get another chance now at this because I now have clarity – that I am not harming people by referring them, if I do not refer them I might be harming them.  And I had your letter of last night that told me it was going to be ok and the “vision” of the man on the cross and the light growing on the cross, but still I feared this morning that I was going to harm innocent people.  Why do I fear this so much that I will do myself in in order not to harm others?  Meanwhile, in my stupidity I have harmed them, what do I do now, how do I correct my mistake how do I take it back and change it?  Well, my eyes just landed on the word “fine” and it seems all is going to be fine but there will be a fine to pay for another add in the newspaper to have a second chance.

 

And on the past Saturday I realized it is possible to make up money that was suppose to be in my pocket but which I lost.  On Saturday it was proven to me that I can have a second chance – so I hope today I have a second chance again!  If I look at today, it seems the day have been saved, as I have clarity, and will not end like in the way it ended 2 years ago.  Was everything meant?  I do not know as this thing with what is meant and what not – I am questioning if there is anything that happens that is not meant to happen?   

But 2 years ago I also harmed 3 (this year 3 unknown people) but 2 years ago that Saturday morning I thought in the first place, I have harmed innocent people, you and your family and friend around you.  And that, by not complying to the ritual I had to do exactly as I was suppose to, I forsaken God and in this process have caused for the dimensions not to be straightened.  And forsaken God in not letting my dog out into the wide world on Friday night, before the journey took place – which I failed anyway as I did not let Charlie out before I left and I still had the lioness around my neck after I was suppose to throw everything I had on, away.  But then, Saturday morning I tried to make up for forsaken God by not letting my dog out on Friday night, and let him out after I threw the Lioness necklace away also(but too late) into the big wide world.  And I can still see him running out and I went inside that little place I was staying in not to see a car hitting him or overrun him.  So what did I have left on Saturday 23/08/2003?  The only thing I had left to do was that I did not deserve to be on this planet anymore as because of all the above I did.  I wasn’t even scared to take those pills as I thought that is what I deserve, to die.  I am only harming people and have no dog left and in that process has forsaken God.  Let alone having to straighten the dimensions?

 

So there were three things then as there are three things today.  I will not even try to take my own life again as it seems it would not work – like the pills in 2003 did not work.  But am I feeling bad, yes!  Do I know how to make myself feel better at this stage, no!  I am just going to have to live through this one…

 

LOVE

Renee

23/08/2005 14:23 and 14 is 2pm and 2 + 3 = 5 so the time is a camouflage of 2 and 5 or 25 like in this year 2 and 5 or 25 as 0 means nothing.

 

 

24/08/05 09:43 and 2 + 4 + 8 + 5 = 19, which for me is end/beginnings but more beginnings as where does something end and where does the new begin – like with my shooting incident, for me it felt that the end was when the bullet was forcing my body to the ground and the beginning was from that exact moment…does that make sense?

 

Dear Lor

 

I am so happy at the moment.  What happened now was, I was sitting in my favourite room with the dog.  The sitting room as this time of the morning there is a lot of sun if it is a sunny day.  Then I saw myself raised to a higher level in my inner space.  And as I came to that level there were some guy who lifted me onto a ladder to another level.  I climbed the ladder and landed in a huge hand.  The hand was sort of like a cloud but the colour was bluish, whitish.  As I was sitting in this hand the Voice of that morning of the 19^th of August 2003, that said to me I must now create, came to me again and said I must create.  And like on the morning of the 19^th in 2003 I said but I cannot create and this time I added because this Voice knows my reasons.  And then it came to me, 2 years and 5 days after that morning it came to me, the answer came to me.  I said to the Voice I do not want to create but can I ask the Voice to do it for me, like I say what I want and then the Voice do the creating part of what I want.  This sounds so easy, but it took me 2 years and 5 days to figure this out?!  The 2 and the 5 and looking at the previous letter, that is where that letter ended on, a 2 and 5.

 

But I must say, what I have been through in this 2 years and 5 days is every philosophers dream.  Did I tell you what my horoscopes yesterday in the Burger said?

 

“Boogskutter

Wees dankbaar vir die gawe

Van kennis en jou vermoe om

Geleenthede te sien.”

 

This was in the “Bylaag” section on page 10.

But I do not feel like I have a lot of knowledge, I just know that a lot is captured in these letters I have been writing to you.

 

But I will speak to you again…

 

LOVE

Renee

24/08/2005 10:03 or 13 and I drew the card “Balance” from the Angel Healing Cards pack and its description is on page 13 in the booklet.  But the description in the booklet had no significance except for the fact that it is on page 13.  I understand it to find balance in the difficult opposites that I get to deal with…

 

 

24/08/05 13:53 and the second part of the time is 8(5+3) as the first part of only the month and the year are 8.  And the first part of the time is 13 but the combination of month and year add up to 13.

 

Dear Lor

 

I was trying to write a letter but it did not work out and I had to delete it, but what was important it seems, was the date and time and the part I wrote about it.  What the above comes down to is that the 13 combination is figuring heavily in this month of this year.  And I am not going into what that combination states for me.  But there is also an inverse hidden as the last of time(minutes) corresponds to first of (month and date only – without the day) – and where does the inverse lie?  What is the inverse of first?  Isn’t it “last”? This leaves that the last time and this first(reborn) time is the same, with the last one that have to be added up which makes it just on one level different.  But it is still 8.  And 8 is connected to eternity and that was what I wanted to write to you about now, but it seems the date and time and the lesson coming from that is more important.

 

Only after the whole of the 08^th month of 2005 has passed, will we know why the 13 is connected with this month this year.

 

So, maybe I will speak to you later again or maybe this will get mailed and a new letter started, I do not know yet.

 

LOVE

Renee

24/08/05 14:14 the first time and the last time is corresponding.

 

 

24/08/2005 2:57pm and this gives us a 5 and a 7 again which added leads to 12 and combined with the inverse of the first part of the time, it gives 20 and 12 or added, 2012.

 

Dear Lor

 

It seems we are not finished yet.  I have since years ago been wondering about eternity.  But in the previous letter I speak of 8 that is taken as the number of eternity.  If that is so, then we must also realize that 8 is not the last number.  The last number is 9.  And the quality of 9 is that “everything” added with 9, adds up to “everything”.  Like if you add 1 to 9 you will get 1 again in numerology.  So the same goes for 8.  If the number of eternity – which is not the last number in the row – is added to 9, it adds up to eternity.  But the last(9),  added to the last(9), adds up still the last.  My question is just:  If after eternity’s number there is a “last” number – or something following after eternity, doesn’t this take eternities character of eternalness away?  As when one imply that beyond eternity lies something, that something is giving eternity a boundary namely the something beyond and then it cannot be eternity anymore.  This is so confusing as why is there a number after 8, why isn’t 8 the last number, why isn’t eternity the last thing – or is it?

I think I am not seeing the picture…

 

But I can now understand 19 better as it was the first of the new and the last of the old. (I refered in a previous letter to 19 as pointing beginnings for me)

 

Renee

24/08/2005 15:12 so this letter starts with relating to 12 and ends with 12.

 

 

24/08/2005 15:31 the 3 and 1 combination now again…

 

What came up now was that “hand” I was referring to in one of the previous letters today.  The “hand” I landed in when, reaching a certain level got put on another ladder leading up and landing up in this hand.

 

Now, if you look at a hand, it consist of a thumb (which has a distinct difference from the other 4 fingers) and the four other fingers or the thumb(1) and 4 other fingers which gives us a 1 and a 4.  But if you view the 4 other fingers and this hand I was sitting in, if this hand should have (in Afrikaans there is a saying that if you had something to do with something, you had a finger in the pie) a finger in the pie – that leaves us with the finger that is busy stirring and three other fingers left on the hand which gives us a 1 and a 3 or the 3 and the 1 combination. I wonder who’s hand had a finger in the pie in all the events in the world which are connected with the 1 and the 3 combination?  To(2) who’s cloudy, bluish, whitish “hand” had I climbed to(2) this morning – and the 2 2’s gives us 22.

 

Renee

24/08/2005 15:40 or 3:40pm and this is week 34 as the week all those “journeys” happened happened to be week 34 of 2003.

DESTINY!

Lore44 .

 

 

21/08/05 20:48 and 4+8=12 which gives 20:12 and 2+1+8+5=16 and you are 61.

 

Dear Lor

 

Last night I got myself a lotto ticket. Now you must be thinking, oh no, a boring letter again. Well, only part of this letter will discuss the (for me) brilliant quick pick lotto ticket.  The time were 17:40:57, so it ended on 57.  But the 4 rows the computer random numbers gave me, had the next first numbers: 5, 7, 7, 7.  This means the first row started with 5, the second row with 7, the third row with 7 and also the fourth row with 7.  This gives us three 7’s and one 5 or 31.  Then, in the third row I had two numbers from the plain lotto that corresponded with the winning numbers and they were

Second position:  23

Fourth position:   29

This gives us if we look at the positions, a 2 and 4 and in the third row as well I had one number that corresponded with the winning numbers of the lotto plus and this number was

Sixth position:  42

Coincidentally also a 4 and 2 – just turned around now.

And looking at the numbers and their positions and meanings that go with it, I could be going on for the rest of the night – it is just it is so amazing that something I basically have no control over can come up with these type of patterns??

 

Anyway, at 01:47 this morning, and this gives us 01:11 or 111 I wrote down in my lion book that for a + a = 2a the duality of the (+) exists and at time 02:34 I wrote the following:

1. If we view that the duality +/- exists
2. Proved 25/26/10/2003 that + times – equal +
3. This gives mathematics a circular perspective as + time – equal – also as is accepted at the moment
4. The one(2) goes clockwise and the other (3) goes anti clockwise if you view it in a circle as eventually both ways come to the same conclusion
5. Now, if you are doing simple Maths adding – you are going clockwise in the circle so 1 +(times -) 1 = 2 as clockwise + times – equal +
6. Doing subtraction:  Anti clockwise as 1 – (its duality times +) 1 = 0 as anti clockwise + times – equal -.

 

1.  
   1. This is dealing with wholeness (both the dualities) in mathematics – only a basic start. 

 

The time finished: 02:22 or 222 and the start were 111

 

But also interesting is that there are 6 points and another separate point or a 6 and a 1 or 61.

 

I first could not get to sleep last night, being busy with these duality in its wholeness concept.  My head wanted me to send Odyssey magazines editor a letter on the 17^th .  I did it here at home on my computer so it had to be an attachment for him.  On 18^th I went to email café and emailed the letter with a cover letter and as I was driving from the email café and reading the cover letter I saw I made a mistake.  Yes, I had to return and fix the first cover letter with a second one as well.  This attachment was all about what came up that night – an event that happened that made me question free will again and leaving me at the conclusion that we can manifest and that there must be such thing as free will, though everybody’s version of it might differ.  But do we have choice, well, in certain instances it seems yes, we do.  So I shared the experience and the logic my head showed me all in this attached letter.

Then, on 19^th my head decide its time for another letter and this time I am shown that whatever I am doing, I am doing the right thing regarding for destiny to be fulfilled.  So I again wrote a cover letter with this experience of destiny as an attachment.

But as you can see, this is totally clashing – the two experiences, as one is we have free will and can make our own choices and the other experience is that doesn’t matter which choice you are making, you would be playing in the hands of destiny.  So where does this leave your free will?  It is clashing, it is a paradox to say least of it!!!  But then last night I had to write the third attachment about the concept of wholeness by referring to Deepak Chopra’s “Way of the Wizard” and the Wizard explaining in his book about good and evil duality, the paradox, but the resolvement being wholeness, or knowing that both exist but not choosing to be in either or to accept one above the other.  I was just using a different example – not good and evil, but free will and destiny.  But the thing is, I had experience of both the dualities to make me eventually realize but both exist and that makes this creation so Majestical for paradoxes like this to both have an existence in this 3D reality!!!

 

Anyway, I had a strange dream last night, but I am so disappointed as some of it I cannot remember to the exact thing.  I dreamt that there were certain steps to take to reach something – and these steps was explicitly shown in the dream by their names.  Now steps have during the day been shown to me can be a staircase as what is the steps of a staircase called otherwise?  Then there were a tree in the water and my previous psychologist was lying with her face and body in the water, the face facing down.  But this tree in the water was very prominent as as I was walking sort of on the water (it seemed that where ever I put my foot down on the water there were pavement blocks) I passed this tree underneath the water and saw the psychologist.  Then I got onto the ladder going up. And this is where the dream ended.  But the last bit of pavement block on the water sort of gave way and I nearly landed in the water but I didn’t as I was not wet – I was sort of swept out of the water on to the ladder.

 

But the letter is getting long again so let me finish up, UP…

 

LOVE

Renee

21/08/05 21:40 and 08 + 05 = 13 or 4 which gives 21 a mate 21 and 4 a mate 4. 

Manifesting, manifesting!!??

Lore41 .

 

 

26/07/2005 15:15

 

Dear Lor

 

On the 19^th our correspondence stopped at a 61 combination.  On 21^st my uncle dies and he is the age of 61.  And on Saturday, the 23^rd , there is an earthquake near Tokyo Japan that registers 6.1!  All three events 2 days apart.

 

But what make me write this letter is the numbers I have marvelled about in two previous emails to you.  The numbers 15 15 and the second bunch, 05 05.

Now, the 5’s are to link these two sets together which leaves us (if we ignore now the 5 as we know they are only there to do the link) with

1. 1 and 1
2. 0 and 0

 

If you can remember that the last emails were dealing with the combination 31 constantly.  If we now go and look at the bomb blasts in London, there were 2 occasions.  The one being the 07/07/2005 where 3 bombs on trains and 1 on a bus went off – and substitute this with the 1

The other being 3 bombs on trains and 1 on a bus, but it did not went off – and the 0 resemble the not going off.

But being there 2 numbers, and two occasions is just very coincidental.

 

But if you go back to the email where the numbers 15 15 and 05 05 figured in, you will see that they were the inside numbers of 4 numbers and the outside numbers being 12.  And wasn’t the date for the bombs that did not went off, the 21^st ?  Further if you view the bomb blasts in Egypt, there were 3 in Egypt and 1 in Beiroet.  But the 3 blasts in Egypt resembled 1 bomb at the old market and 2 bombs at holiday resorts.  Which again put the emphasis on 31 and 21 or 13 and 12.

Further is the Discovery leaving the earth later today – it seems it will be launched at about 4:30pm our time.  But they chose the 26^th – exactly 7 months after the tsunami and further are this vehicle going up in space with 3 fuel gadges working and 1 not – or another 3 and 1.  And it seems it was on the 23^rd three times discussed in the Burger newspaper:  On pages 8, 13, 16.  But the middle one is 13 (again) and 1 + 6 =7 or a cycle.  But adding the outsides, 8+16=24 and 2 + 4 = 6 which is a fire element.

 

I would love to see what the outcome of this Discovery launch is going to be!  I can feel it in my gut.

 

Then I am feeling not well at times and it seems I am taking on someone else’s stuff and I am not aware if it is my dog’s or my dad’s?  As at first I thought it was me, but then, as I phoned the doctor, and I phoned the correct number that is for sure, my cell phone kept telling me I am dialling the wrong number as the number I am dialling does not exist!  My father called the same number and got through.  So I’ll take my dog to the Vet and let my father go see the doctor as well.  It is the last few weeks that every time I go on the road, especially the R300, I get an ambulance of a paramedic vehicle.  I do not know what to make of this really at the moment…

 

But I’ll speak to you again soon

 

Love

Renee

26/07/2005  15:38 and 15 + 2(3+8) = 17 or 8(2+6) 

 

02/08/2005 17:09

 

Dear Eileen

 

I do not know what is going to happen in this world.  Lorraine has told me and so has Ingrid that we are all the creators of our own creations/lives.  But this has raised a huge issue now.  Lorraine wrote to me that she is handling nothing anymore as she is now on a need to know basis.  Now what has she created for herself?  I ask my mother to read in the Polmed news letter what happens if you do not vote in their election as it is too boring for me to read.  So my mother says:  no she is not going to read it, my father must as he likes reading stuff like that.  And I said:  Says who?  As who in his right mind would like to read boring news letters?   Now my question is, is my mother creating for my father to like reading the boring stuff by this comment and as he had to read it since the beginning of their marriage as my mother think that is a man’s task!  My poor father – and he cannot understand why he is so boring!  The best one is the rabbi we have.  I went to his wife and told her how much I think of him – and she gave her own answer as she replied:  Just a pitty he cannot manifest money!  Well, if that is what she believes, that is how it is going to stay?  And he cannot understand why he cannot manifest money and she sits on the other end and think to herself but it is a pitty that he cannot manifest money – how ridiculous can it get?  How are we influencing one another???  And what has Lorraine manifested that she is on a need to know basis?  Or what did she manifest that day she fell with the chair into the blombedding?

 

Oh, this is hilarious!!! I wish I can thank Lorraine and the Creator of this fun for this fun!!!

 

Renee

02/08/2005 17:32

 

05/08/05 12:15

 

Dear Lor/Eileen

 

I know I must start writing again, it is just, I cannot get my head together.  And for me, I have discovered, as I was angry with the Voice, my “head” is also the Voice.  Many a times have I just wished to get clarity on this Voice – as I realized you (Lorraine) are the Parrot.  But where this Voice comes from there is no visual of It.  And as I said to you in a previous letter, the Parrot is a sign of the underlying force of the whole of the Universe, the One who runs the illusion but does not get caught up in it. 

 

I asked this Voice about itself and it only shows me that in my heart chakra, when I go inside, it seems there is an infinite “something” in there, and from this infiniteness comes the word creator.  But not creator with a Capital letter.  It has also claimed that It is the Parrot, but that the Parrot is not totally It.  Like, It is me, but I am not It – and like in the Parrot’s instance, in totality.

 

But this Voice is more than I think or know.  The other day I was driving with my parents to Canal Walk.  There were two lanes and the Voice said to me to stay in the right lane.  And I only now see the meaning of that, but ok!  At that point I made it out to be the lane that is the opposite of left and did what the Voice told me.  The Voice showed me to rather talk of it as my “head” as “head” has the meaning of someONE in charge and that is where the Voice talks to me.  So as I was in the right lane, the cars were moving not at all as someone in the front wanted to turn.  So not listening to my head, I went into the left lane to pass all the cars that was standing still and right in front of a black VW Polo.  So after I passed all the cars that was standing still in the right lane – and my head asking me why am I not doing what he told me, I went back into the right lane.  Then the VW Polo went past me and its numberplate read:  ILLEGAL.  There is a car registered in Cape Town with a numberplate “Illegal” as my father still made a remark about it so I realized it was not me seeing something that did not exist.  So even though I did not listen to my head and did not obey the orders it gave me – my head knew I was going to do it and that is why I did something “illegal” and the number plate of that car showed me, but I cannot outsmart the head as the head beforehand knew I was not going to listen and that is why that car with that number plate, were there at that point in time:  the right place at the right time.  And when I ask about if there is a Divine Plan, I get this scene that played it off.  It just seems to me, that even if we try, we will not be able to outsmart the “head”.  Even when we think we do something illegal, we are acting exactly what our Divine Plan wants us to do.  I remember this scene out of the movie “The mists of Avalon” where the one woman did black magic, but in the end it did not matter if it was black or white or magic at all, everything still happened according to the Divine Plan.  And for this reason do I not understand the universe.  And what is one of the things that bothers me most, is the free will!  As if I take the scene with the VW Polo, even if I try to outsmart to do something what I think is against the Divine Plan, I am still acting according to it.  In a way that should put me more to ease as I am always scared I am doing something not in accordance to the Divine Plan, and it was shown now on two occasions to me that I need not worry about it – as everything happens as it should happen.  Ingrid tells me to take responsibility for my life, and I am getting in a state as to how do one do that???  She also said I am the creator of my own life – but if I look at the above, its clashing!  And I feel a need to sort this out – as I know for sure, that my head is in charge of me – and if Ingrid were in my position she would have known that I have to comply to the head.  Somehow I put it together that in order to take responsibility for my life, I have to get a job again and get into the norm on the planet, the rat race.  But it seems my head has other things planned as my head does not really want me to apply for a job.  I have had 4 jobs now that my head just let me fail to do.  So on the one side I have Ingrid telling me to take responsibility and on the other side my parents wanting me to get a job and then there is my head.  I guess that is why my cloth fell in the corner of the shower the other morning and I had trouble with the razor in the opposite corner – as all of this is putting me in a tight corner.  Yes, and I wonder who was responsible for the cloth falling in the one corner of the shower and the razor in the opposite corner of the shower to show me I am in a corner or feel I am in a corner.  But in my worst moments then something happens, like that day I felt so terribly in the corner with everyone standing in front of me with swords to my throat, I drive with my mother and she shows me a white dove sitting on a pole light in front of the house with no 27 or 9.  These “small” miracles that gives me the strength to go on again.  And like having all that fun with Lorraine, who said we all are the creators of what is going on around us and the Big question then:  But why have she manifested for herself to be on a need to know basis?  And this still makes me laugh my heart out – it is so funny!!!

 

Love

Renee

05/08/05 13:03 turning 04

 

05/08/05 13:19

 

And if you view 05 + 08 = 13 and so does 08 + 05

But on the 31^st of July, the 1 and 3 combination again – and if you can recall all my previous letters regarding this combination, I woke up with the strangest dream.  First I was shown a dog and then dog poo.  But then in the front yard a woman was busy with a path to the house that was paved with dog poo!  Now if you recall my other letters so far regarding the thing with “dog” as well.  The word “dog” is the inverse of “God” as the number 13 and 31 is for me very linked to God’s “stamp” on some of the events on the globe that are happening.  But after I was dreaming of seeing this “road/path” to the house paved with dog poo, I was getting into a shower and at first I thought I cant shower here as it is in the open and everybody will see, but then a woman came and showed me there is a separate room where you do the showering thing actually.  But as I was in this room, I knew there were a snake in one corner and let it out.  It was a black snake with a white stroke on its back.  But as it left, I saw it left poo as well.  A whole lot.  And there the dream ended.  And then, on Monday morning, I had the crying thing again as it seems I did something and it seemed just horrible to me that I could have ever done it – and the way I realized it was on page 18 in the “tydskrif Rapport”, the newspaper on Sunday’s which showed this woman taking her dog to the vet and after the little dog nearly bit off the vet’s finger, the vet proclaimed that he think the dog has diabetes and inherited it as to this woman’s reply that it is impossible as no one in her family has got diabetes.  So it was this article that showed me what the whole feeling bad thing Monday morning was all about.  And as I said in one of the previous letters in this attachment, I told my mother I want to take the dog to the vet and she asked me if I am going to tell the vet if he asks what is wrong with the dog, that I am not feeling well – and she thought this a huge joke, and here, on Sunday here comes this sillyness in the newspaper.  But what happened that is linked to the dog that was making me feel terrible was the following.

 

My mother gave her and my dad’s dog a bone on Saturday night (30^th ).  Then I was so angry because of this that I went to my bedroom and wished that she could be treated this unfair as well.  And then on Sunday me and her and my dad went to Grand West and she won nothing!  She actually had to stand and watch the other people playing and winning and she won nothing.  Like my dog had to watch the other dog eating a bone?  And on Sunday evening/Monday morning, I felt so terrible about what I have done to her, how I harmed her because of my anger for her for feeling she treated my dog unfair.  And I had so much pain of what I caused her and the pain with the crying have put my body into shock again.  Even if she did treat my dog unfair, there is no good enough reason to wish harm – even this way it happened – to her or anybody else.  And by doing what I did on Saturday night, I was in turbulence with the “head” again as I thought but how can any loving God, allow this to have happened.  But in the end it was a valuable lesson – and I need to say thank you that I got this lesson in the “mild” way I did.  As last night I went with my folks to Grand West again and my head did not want me to play at all.  So eventually when my folks wanted to leave, I saw it is not that bad to actually just watch the others playing.  But I did learn to try and behave and not get angry with other people as if there is one thing I do not want to do, it is to harm other people or worse, to harm animals.  I think I went through the pain as I felt so sorry for her to just stand there and watch the other people, but I think last night was also shown to me that if my dog do not get a bone, it is not the end of the world.

 

Talking about the end of the world, I guess I felt that night of the 19^th , (and if you look at the beginning time of this letter) when I read Lorraine’s letter that she is not going to deal with the letters anymore and that she is now on a need to know basis, that the world has come to an end.  It took me a while to get to the letter thing again, which my head wants me to do on a regular base.

 

So who ever is reading this, thank you!

 

Love

Renee

05/08/05 13:43 and if you look at the previous letter today, the end time was 3 turning 4, now it is just the inverse, 43!!!

 

05/08/05 19:43 exactly 6 hours later…

 

I saw Barbara on the 1^st of August this year, that means on Monday this week and as I was sitting waiting for her I saw the National Geographic magazine with the word “Mars” the main word of interest on the cover.  It is expected of Mars to be on its closest to earth again on the 27^th of this month.  The previous time was on 27^th of August 2003.  But also 27^th of the 08^th .  And how it happened I do not know, but Barbara charged me R270 and without realizing except afterwards, I included in her envelope only R250.  So there were an exact of the number 2 missing.  The previous time Mars was on its way to being closest ever to earth, was the time I drank all those pills and on the day and hour it(Mars) turned away again from its closest point, namely on 27/07/2003, I got up and took my dog and went home.

 

Now I am wondering what is going to happen this year.  Everything with me works twice.  If I leave the house, I always have to return a second time as I have left something or forgot something.  Even going places, like going to Barbara, I had to return a second time – as I said I owed her R20 and had to return that.

 

But what is going to happen this second time around?  The first time I do not know how I survived all those pills all on my own in that little room in Pretoria, but on the 4^th day I got up and went home, pills or no pills.  And the week that lead up to that incident I have not totally understand yet – a lot of unsolved mysteries there.  And exactly 2 years ago to this day, I was on my way to what I first thought was Kleinsee, but ended up Port Nolloth.

 

So what’s going to go along with Mars this time around, this second time around – I must have patience with my impatience to know – there is 22 days left to see where this time is going.

 

Love

Renee

05/08/05 19:58 or 19:13 and the second letter today started with the time 13:19 – isn’t this beautiful???

 

 

 

07/08/2005 or 787 16:21

 

Dear Lor/Eileen or who ever…

 

Today my mother wanted us (me and her) to go to Grand West.  But on our way there we realized the weather was too bad so we decided to just drive around.  Then, on the N1, we saw a big vehicle and on 3 places was written:  TOPFLOOR.  The time was 13:06 turning 13:07.

 

I want to go and see the movie “What the bleep do we know”.  But it is showing at a theatre old Capetonians do not even know, the Labia in Orange street.  But then me and my mother were just driving and I was taking the roads my head wanted me to take and as we came to a certain point, I saw “Labia” right in front of me.  And not far from it another place I want to visit, the Astronomy centre.  They are not far apart.  So my head took us straight to the place I would not have found otherwise and yes, also because I found it this way today.  The time I recorded this was 13:31.  My mother wrote the stuff down for me on a piece of paper while we were driving.

 

Then I took the road to Houtbay from Campsbay and we first went into the off turn to Llandudno.  As we came back to the main road after I showed her where the beach area of Llandudno is, I saw a pottery made eagle at the gate of no 25 and my mother gave the time of 13:52.  The 25 and the 52…

 

The fourth thing that happened for which I haven’t got a time for, is that next to the N1 is a huge sign that shows “time” and I wondered, “time” for what and my eyes landed on the words:  “Cape Gate”.

 

So there were 3 things that were timely recorded, but 1 thing about time that was not timely recorded which gives us a 3 and a 1 or 31.

 

Oh and on the turning point I was allowed a cup of coffee from Wimpy to take away and the coffee cost R5.55 and the time on the slip is 14(02):20:44 which gives us a 02:20 with a 44, and if you can remember from my previous letters what the 44 is standing for:  One of the names of God that means:  “I will be ever greatly revealed”.

 

This was such a nice day…

 

Love

Renee

07/08/2005 16:40 and 16 is 4pm which gives us 04(16) and 40 or the inverses!

We keep ourselves busy being BUSYBODIES.

Lore40 .

 

 

19/07/2005 08:46 if you look at the date 19/07 or 17 and time 8:1 or 81

 

Dear Lor

 

It is raining outside.

 

Lor, in the past letters I described to you how I went through 3 major “experiences” – that I would call traumatic as it put a lot of strain on my body to cope with.

 

I tend to think, well that was it, as 3 is a confirmation number, and I had the 1 love reaction and incident afterwards – which gives a 3 and a 1.

But it did not end here apparently it seems.  I could feel something building up since Friday (15^th ).  My parents went to Gauteng to visit family members that are ill and to reconcile with my brother, and I had a friend stay over for the weekend.  As usual the Universe had everybody’s best interest at heart with this arrangement.  By Sunday(17^th ) I did not understand myself or the situation at all – until it became time for the people who do our ironing to come and fetch the washing.  I was lying on my bed as they came as I did not know what else to do with myself.  It seems it is some sort of tuning in I am doing but to what or whom I do not know and if it is like that I do not know either.  So the doorbell rang and I ran to the front – in between everything I managed to have the washing all done and dried. (Even the making of food and caring for my friend’s stay over I managed but I do not know where I got the strength from to do it!)  As I opened the door there was the this little dog of the neighbours again, but he was soaking wet and the guy of the washing asked me if it was our dog?  I said not and I showed him which people’s dog it was and then this guy did something that made me like him instantly.  He went over to these people’s house, while this little dog stayed with me and knocked on their door.  But it seemed they were not there.  So I told the guy not to worry – he can come in and fetch the washing, which was ready, and I will take care of the dog.  So I took the dog, which my mother a while ago named Maaitjie, and even though he were wet, I held on tight to him and went inside the house to get a towel to dry him.  Charlie and our other dog Tyra were going crazy, but I could feel this little dog needed attention.  I got the towel and went back to the front door and there on my knees I held him, I dried him and without knowing why, I felt so sad for this dog’s sake that I could not help crying.  I cried out of love for hime and he was just standing there.  And he allowed me to kiss him and just love him as much as I could though I was crying and sobbing my heart out for this little dog’s sake.  Then I saw his owners return and I took him, in the towel, to them.  I hope they are going to notice him now!  But besides all my drama queen stuff and faffing about the dog, my question is just:  Why did I open the door and there should be this “dog” standing on my doorstep – making his appearance?  And through all my fussing he stood strong and solidly, as small as he is…

 

Then I got back into my own house and back to Charlie.  He was so upset that his stomach started running again.  And this broke me in pieces and the pain/crying thing happened again.  This time I had to do it quietly in the loo, as my friend was sitting in the other room.  Eventually, after visiting the loo for this for about three times, my legs were shaking and I knew I could take no more.  So my head told me to have a tablet to calm me down and to drink some tea and then later on, as I was a bit calmer, I had to have something to eat.

And I thought to myself, yeah, this is now the 4^th one.  Four times and 1 love incident, which gives a 4 and a 1.

But this was not the end, as yesterday, the 18^th , I had another episode the afternoon.  This time there were nobody except the dogs so I could cry out loud as well.  You know, the you want to die, but you realize nobody is going to let you die to get out of this hell…

 

So I got up from this one as well, my head told me to make the dogs their food and to get ready for Kabalah.  My parents were not back from Gauteng yet.  So I did all that and me and Len meet up for supper at the Wimpy each Monday night before Kabalah and we did the same last night.  So as I met up with him, my condition were of such state that nobody will ever think that I went through the hell I went through the afternoon.  That is why I can understand when the rabbi says that rebbe Nachman said that if you are depressed, you must act like you are not – for me that is very wise words as I can relate it also to this “events” I am having…yes, my head let me take Rescue Remedy afterwards for the shock these “events” have on my body, but I also have to take in warm food and take a calming tablet, so I am being taken care of afterwards in a way, but then there is always something planned to not let me go and lie down and sulk about the “events”!

(Oh, and the only parking I could get last night was to park illegally in front of the church gate)

So at Kabalah last night, our rabbi decided we must do a meditation where we take a situation and elevate the “spark” from that situation – and I do not really understand what he mean, but I decided to ask the question:  what is all these “events” all about?

 

So as we started the meditation, my heart was racing, I must say, it was racing even when the class started.  At first I got nothing, or so I thought, as I just heard the sea outside.   Then I realized, but that is what is given to me and I visualized it as it were out there.  And I thought later, ok, so there is the sea, so what now, nothing else is given?  Then I realized but the sea is making its noise, but the picture is a still picture – of a wave that just broke, the white of that wave.  And as I realized that came the next thing in, a being on a cross, but it must be in another “realm(?)” as this being on the cross was grotesk in relation to the reality of the sea.  And from the sky came the light that was shining on this being. And I saw this being look up into the light and then I saw, also not in the same “plane” as the being or the sea, an emerald green stone, huge, that was glowing with light from inside.  And this made up the picture.  And I thought so what does this mean, and very quick, I had an appearance of a white lion, but that went past and I was left with the picture of the being on the cross picture and the sea and the emerald. But what does this mean?  And then my attention was focused on the cross and I asked – but what about the cross?  Then came up the picture of all these beings in a space, with white robes and burning candles, and they were sort of standing in a half moon shape, and all of them’s attention was focused on the small Earth, that was between them in the half moon shape – as if they were gathered around the Earth.  But my attention was only focused on the first five or 6 as I couldn’t see the rest, but as this came up, the rabbi called us back to the room. 

 

And I had to stop writing now as I had such an incredible pain in my left shoulder and was shown that I picked up the picture not totally just as the rabbi called us back.  What was going on in that picture was these beings dressed in white robes within a half of a half moon shape and then there were a line of them quing up behind these five or six into as far as I could see.  And next to it all was the Earth – very much smaller than all these beings – so I take they were in different planes.  But even though the picture was completed(?) for me now, I still do not understand what it mean, how is it related to the crying sessions I have?

 

Then I couldn’t decide if I must share this version I got with the rest of the group as the rabbi wanted us to share.  But my heart was racing and eventually when they got to me and I had to share, I shared – scared or not scared to share, I shared!  And then the racing of the heart stopped and I relaxed. What was interesting though is that I shared with the group that the incidents were 5 times a crying/pain one and 1 time a love one, which gives a 5 and a 1.  Then later, the rabbi wanted to give us an example and he used the numbers 1 and 50, and as he finished talking I asked him why did he choose those numbers as 0 means nothing and that leaves us with a 1 and a 5 again, and all laughed…

 

Anyway, as I drove home, I had a sign shown to me again.  Yesterday afternoon I asked on the computer in a letter to the Creator, for a sign that my money needs are going to be taken care of, and as I was on the highway, my attention was focused on this sign of Sanlam and there were these two numbers right on top of one another but both the same number.  And wasn’t this amazing as it is 95,134 – which gives us

 

1. 95 and 9+5=14 and the 1 and 4 is linked to the dogod
2. 134 which gives a 13 and a 4 or a 44 which is linked to (as I’ve wrote to you already) the Parrot’s 4 toes on each side and the name of God: “I shall ever be greatly revealed” thing.  And of course if you look at my previous letter where I told you about the Millers time(Gd time) thing, it is a 1 and 3 thing and 4 will always be special for me as I wrote that sms in the beginning as we met and told you 2 added to 2 equal 22 and not 4 – and you replied, “Absolutely”.  And isn’t it crazy that this is the 40^th –and as 0 means nothing – letter to you as this is Lor40, which relates to the 4…

 

But  now, what does this numbers mean?  It is just that the Parrot promised me 3 policies money – and I’ve only received two of those policies money as there is a problem with the other one at Sanlam.  Yes, there were two policies at Sanlam and one at Old Mutual.  And last night the confirmation was sort of set for me that there were this connectional numbers on that huge sign post, two of them on top of one another.  And I am busy following the Parrots advice on how to handle the third policy which Sanlam refused to pay out on first, now.

 

But still, though I do not understand what is going on yet, I do think that the door (and I only afterwards read this letter and saw this mistake, the door instead of “dog”) on the front porch on Sunday night, was just a huge indication of something, and has got a lot to do with the whole of the understanding of all this – if only I can put it together!  But maybe the picture isn’t completed yet…

 

Anyway, I’ll keep in touch

 

Love

Renee

19/07/2005 10:23 and if you look at the minutes it reminds me of the butterflies and the peacocks I wrote to you about in the previous letter…

 

19/07/2005 10:57 and 5 + 7 = 12

 

Lor

 

Just wanted to share this with you now.  The Parrot just showed me the following.  I am taking a Sinutab every time I take my pills.  But the Parrot says it is for no other reason than it is because of the colour of this pill that I am taking it.  It is white and pink.  The Parrot says it is my Love Pill for the day.  And then we discussed how people will say – no, don’t take that pill it can cause this and this and it is not good for you and research will show how it affects you, bla, bla, bla…  But, says the Parrot, he doesn’t care who says what and what research says what, I am going to take my love pill.  He says, we humans are so busy with research over this and research over that and what is good and HEALTHY for you for this and that and we write about all these stuff like a klomp ou tannies.  And then we also write about this and that and this one did this and that one did that…and we keep ourselves busy being BUSYBODIES!!! (Literally and figuratively)  And all I know about busybodies is that my grandmother had an old lady friend staying down the road in Pretoria and this old lady knew everything about everybody in the area and my ouma used to call this old lady a busybody.  I thought it was very funny that the Parrot think that humans are all a bunch of busybodies – it is nogal true…

 

Love

Renee

19/07/2005 11:07 I am wondering about the 11 and 7 combination as it pitches up a lot now a days…

 

ns And last night I send you an sms telling you that the launch of the Discovery is being delayed and I wondered why.  So I received your delivery report only at 10:45 or 1:9 and today is 19^th , where we started…(even the shooting incident…)

 

19/07/2005 12:39 or 12:12

 

Lor

 

Just to share the Lotto thing with you again.  This time, on 16^th of this month I bought 4 tickets again. Their times were as follows:

 

1. 11:11:57 and 5+7=12 which gives 11:11:12
2. 11:12:04 and if you view the previous letters 4 resembles 22 which gives 11:12:22
3. 11:12:11
4. 11:12:22

 

So the first two tickets’ time were in a resemblance way the same as the last two which did not even needed to be sized with resemblance.

And on the 4^th ticket, the 2^nd row I got 3 numbers that matched the Lotto Plus

 

3^rd position:  13

4^th position:  37

5^th position:  45

 

And if you look at the beginning time of this letter it is 12:39 and looking at the minutes it is a 3 and a 9 – looking at the positions again, the

 

3^rd position: 13  and

4^th + 5^th position or 4 +5 = 9 is a 3+7(1) and 4+5(9) or a 19

 

So the positions is a 3 and 9 and their values is a 13 and a 19

And you know how the 13 figures and today is 19^th and the 19^th was also the resembling number I was shot on.

 

I just love this connections…

 

Lots Of Love

Renee

19/07/2005 13:10 or 131!! !! !!

ns.  And in my last letter there were two sets of numbers that consisted of 4 numbers each and only the outside numbers of both sets were discussed, but the inside number were in the first set: 15 15 and in the second set 05 05.  So in the second set the ones were missing…I still do not have a clue as to what that mean:  “…in the second set the ones(1) were missing…”, in the second set the 1(one) became 0…

 

 

19/07/2005 15:32 And the 3 and the 2 again (butterflies and peacocks)

 

Lor

 

This is the 4^th letter to you on this file.  But I nearly forgot to tell you about the dream I had as I woke up on Saturday morning 16/07/2005 or 777 again.  I dreamt there were a tree and in this tree there were a very ancient tortoise.  But I had some fear of it when I saw it first.  Then I tried to get away from the tree and landed in spider web.   Later I saw this tortoise jumping on people’s shoulders and stinging them – and it seemed the sting was poisonous.

 

As I woke up this dream was really bothering me and I landed up looking up the tortoise/turtle in my Animal Speak book.  What I did come across is the following on page 345 (is this coincidental with the lotto letter just above?)

 

“..The Chinese alphabet is attributed to Ts’ang Chien, the god with the dragon face and four eyes.  He formed it from the patterns of the stars, the marks on the back of the turtle and the footprints of birds in the sand.  The Norse god Odin created the Runic alphabet after hanging upon the great tree of life for nine days and nights.  After this time, the twigs fell off and spelled out certain formulas and words.  To many, there was an alphabet even more primordial.  It was formed by the geometric patterns and angles found within spider’s web.  To many this was the first true alphabet.”

 

Now isnt’ this coincidence the page, and the above number stuff in these letters today and then the fact that a turtle, a tree and a spiders web are all described in this paragraph and all figured in my dream.

 

But I do not know what to make of it…again.

When am I going to see the picture of all of this???  Of all the letters to you today, all the symbolisms that’s been given, though the greater picture still escape, or shall I rather say the understanding, the clarity of the meaning of the bigger picture still escape.  Maybe it is because more has to be added to complete it – and only then will the understanding come???

 

Just thought I’d share this with you too…

 

Love

Renee

19/07/2005 15:48

Is Gaia “climbing the ladder”?

Lore39 .

 

 

15/07/2005 12:54

 

Dear Lor

 

Something just happened again that upset me tremendously.  And like usual it was a dog and I thought the dog was in distress.  It was one of our neighbours’ dog who was running at the beginning of the area we live in.  And I stopped as I thought:  how was he going to find his home?  But suddenly the house he was passing, the garage door opened and out came running another dog who was sort of chasing this dog.  And I felt so sorry for the neighbours’ dog as he is such a sweet thing.  But he ran and I saw to my relieve he is running straight to his own house.  But when I got home I knew  something was bothering me again so I went to lie down on the bed.

 

Then the Parrot showed me:  If the Creator decide to take the whole of the Universes “into” the Oneness again, it could happen in no time.  I could see the Universe “sucked” into the Oneness – instantly.  This made me wonder why are spiritual people on a so called path?  There is a reason for 6 billion people to be on the planet at the moment, which ONE is for all to return to the Oneness.  But the other day on the internet I got hold of a piece of information where this being said that Gaia asked for help.  It could be possible that all 6 billion people could be on the planet to give the help that is set out for Gaia!   Then my question is just; but where does it fit in then that the most souls on this planet is here because they haven’t managed to climb the ladder.  But then, if they had climbed the ladder, they would most certainly not be here anymore, on the planet, on Gaia.  And where would the 6 billion that is needed to help out, come from then???  That is only if you view that the 6 billion is what is needed to help Gaia, but the biggest question is just:  if it is possible for the Universe to terminate existence within no time, become part of the Oneness again, why all the fuss, all the climbing of ladders – even for Gaia???  Poor Gaia, she asked for help and now she is suffering – with all the waste disposal (which I dealt with humans’ one sort of waste disposal this morning, but there are different kinds of waste disposals), all the global warming issues, so maybe through her suffering she is climbing the ladder?  Maybe that is why there have to be 6 billion people on the planet – for Gaia to go through suffering?    I cannot make sense of this!

 

On Monday night at the Kabalah, the rabbi said that the most of the souls on the earth now is the mob who could not yet have managed to evolve the way they should have.  I am wondering, who is responsible for that???  Who is responsible for everything to be as it should be and that include then that a lot are not busy with the spiritual path or haven’t managed through a lot of lifetimes to evolve such way that they do not have to be on the earth anymore?  Who??   Especially if you take that the Bible Code predicts all that is going on at the moment, is as it must be as it is now.  And if everything must be as it is now, how can one claim that certain of us haven’t manage to evolve to an extent of not having to be on the planet anymore???  This for me make a statement therefore that whether you are on a spiritual path or not, what does it matter?? Maybe that person not on the spiritual path is not meant to be on one – and that does not necessarily mean that that soul is lost!!!  But this is only if everything is as it should be!!!

 

Well, let me put my confusions aside a bit.  I want to share with you what happened yesterday at the casino.  I was playing this animal machine.  Then I got 3 royal blue sapphires which gave me 15 free spins.  And on the 4^th or 5^th last, I received a kind of a jackpot as I got 5 butterflies.  Now this machine has got 5 columns and 5 rows.  And these butterflies was in the middle row and in each column, one. This gives another 3(middle row) 1(one in each column).  But there were 3 butterflies and the other 2 were peacocks, who substitute for anything.  Now I’ve been shown that butterflies is connected with transformation and the transformation in a kind of joyful way.  And the peacock I’ve discovered up to now, is to show true colours (or real self).

So last night I was taken back and taken to the bar to order myself a cappuchino.  There I saw this label saying:  Its Millers time!  Then I looked what miller is and saw it is some beer or something but on the bottle – where my attetion was focussed on, I saw MGD.  Connecting MGd with Millers time, M is probably for Miller, but M is also the 13^th letter of the English Alphabet.  And GD just are missing an “O” the the 13 could resemble that it is Gd time – just do not forget the “O”, the 15^th letter and today is the 15^th and you and I had the discussion on the combination of 15!!!

 

I also played on the machine last night which is called:  Helen of Troy.   On this machine you hve to get 3 coins to get 15 free games.  Well, I got the 3 coins 3 times!  This makes it 15 free games 3 times or 45 free games – and if you view the minutes at the beginning of this letter it is 54.  And a whole lot more can probably be made of this as one can view it also that it is “coins” specifically or what does coins resemble?  Money.  Its just, it seems nothing that happens happens for one reason only – and have I been struggling with possibilities for a long time, and only now I begin to realize not to brake my head looking for the one and truthful answer, there isn’t just one and only truthful answer to nothing:  This is a world of duality…and I may be missing the point totally…

 

Love

Renee

15/07/2005 13:29 and if the minutes are viewed, the beginning was 9 and end 11. And the hours are a 12 and 13 and viewing the second letter of the combinations, it gives a 2 and 3, like the butterfly jackpot…but the 54 beginning time just proofs one thing for me again, if you look inside the letter there is a connection with 45 and here in the end time again, it is linked with the 11…there is not just one meaning or connection attached to a thing!

 

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